Chapter 2: Here With Me
A/N: I'm pretending Sakura wrote the song in this chapter. I changed the name of this chapter and the song for this one is the seventh video on my profile.
I looked at the papers on my desk as I grabbed my bag about to head downstairs. I went over to my desk and picked up the pages and put them in my backpack. I headed downstairs. I walked in to the kitchen and sat down at the table.
"Good morning Touya." I said
"Ahh! Don't scare me like that squirt. When did you get down here and why are you up so early?" My big brother asked.
I had woken up early this morning. I don't know why though. Maybe it was my strange dream. It was my and Syaoran dancing in the play my class is doing. He was playing Yamazaki's role. The prince. Then he and I were wearing these strange matching out fits and fighting something. Well I better respond to Touya.
"I had a strange dream and I woke up." It was easier to talk to him since he knows.
"What was your dream about?" He asked.
I blushed. Stupid nosy brother. I looked down at the table.
"By the blush and the look on your face it was either about Yuki or the kid." He smirked when my whole face turned red.
"I figured it was one of the two. But it better not be the kid." He patted my head and handed me some pancakes.
"What if it was? You have no control over what I think." I said and stuffed my mouth full with pancakes.
"Well it better not be I don't like that kid he's trouble." Touya said
Poor confused Touya if only he knew. I wish I could tell him but I'm afraid of what might happen. He's never like Syaoran. The day he met him was when he first transferred to my school two years ago in fourth grade. He was trying to take the clow cards from me and Touya hopped the fence and stopped him. Since then they've never liked each other.
I stood up and started to yell at my brother. I know it's not a good thing to do but dad wasn't home and I was angry. Not at my brother though at myself but my mind made me yell at him and take it all out on him.
"He's not trouble. He's a good kid, he's nice to me unlike you and he's been gone in Hong Kong for two months now so you don't have to worry!" I yelled. I froze Two months. It's been two months. I sat back down and tried not to cry but the tears were stinging the back of my eyes and I had a lump in my throat.
"Sakura." Touya came and kneeled next to me.
I turned my head away. I didn't want him to see me cry. Not about this. Not about a boy he despised the one that had been my friend and now was something more. If he knew I could never live it down like all the other stuff my brother saw me cry about. But this wasn't like any of the other things I've cried about. This was different. It felt like I had crumbled in to bits a million broken up destroyed sorrowful bits and I could do nothing about it. The tears started to fall. They felt warm on my cold cheeks.
"Sakura what's wrong?" Touya asked. I could hear the concern in his voice.
"You hate him. You think he's low life scum. He's not. He's… He's…Gone." I sobbed harder as I said the last word.
"You miss him don't you? And how did you find out I called him that?" He asked
"The mirror card heard you when she took my place when I was sick. You were talking on the phone with Yukito and she could hear you talking about him and she told me because she knew I…"I stopped before I finished my sentence. I was about to say she knew I liked him but that would have been horrible.
"She knew you what?" He asked
I started to sob harder. I couldn't control it. I don't' know why but it feels like something of me was missing. Like my other half. I looked down at myself to find all my body intact. I met the eyes of my brother. They had a look o f worry in them.
"You miss him don't you? It must be hard losing a friend that helped you so much. If I lost Yuki I probably wouldn't cry but I'd miss him." Touya looked sympathetic.
"It's not just that. It's all the insults I didn't mind them much but now that he's gone you talk about him more and call him all these names and I can't stand it!" I was yelling again. I had stopped crying a few minutes ago but the tears came back and they were falling hard and fast. They burned my cheeks.
"It's Friday why don't you spend the night at Tomoyo's house." Touya said
I wiped away some tears and nodded.
"Good I'll go call." He said as he left the room to go call.
I looked down at my pancakes. They were cold now and I wasn't hungry so I just left them there. Touya walked back in he told me to pack a bag for tonight and that one of Tomoyo's bodyguards was going to pick it up while I was at school and that I was going to go home with Tomoyo. As I walked out of the kitchen to go to my room I turned around and hugged Touya. This caught him by surprise.
"Arigoto Touya." More tears filled my eyes and I ran upstairs.
"Kero I want you to hide in my bag I'm sleeping over at Tomoyo's tonight so…Kero?" I asked
He popped out of my backpack.
"Ahh! Kero stop hiding in my backpack." I said
"Sorry Sakura but I wanted to come to school with you. So what's the matter you can't possibly be that sad about the kid leaving?" Kero asked.
"Stop calling him that! If you weren't so self centered you would probably know why I was sad you do live with me you've known me for two years now and you practically know all my secrets." I yelled. I was frustrated.
"Ohh! You mean the one that you always write about then throw away the pages so no one can see them?" He asked.
"Which one would that be?" I asked
"The on that has Sakura loves the kid written all over it. Oh and by the way I love the song you wrote last night the lyrics are wonderful." He said.
I stood there frozen stiff. How could he know? I've always kept it a secret and he's always thinking about himself and his stomach.
"You make it quite clear. Only the kid himself couldn't tell." Kero explained to my unspoken thought.
"Well anyways I need to get packing. If you want to come you can come to school. Just get in my backpack." I said
"YIPPPEE!" He shouted.
I finished packing my bag and left it in the living room for the Touya. His University had today off and he didn't have work so he was staying home today. I walked to the door and put on my rollerblades.
"Hey squirt. Here's your lunch." Touya said as he handed it to me.
"See ya tomorrow Touya." I said.
"See ya squirt." He said.
After School Tomoyo's POV
"I'm so glad your sleeping over Sakura." I said. "So what seems to be troubling you?"
"It's nothing." Sakura said.
"You miss Syaoran don't you?" I asked
"What?" She looked bewildered. Good she didn't hear what I said.
"Nothing. Oh look our rides here." I said relieved that my bodyguard had finally arrived.
"Tomoyo?" Sakura asked
"Yes?" I wondered
"Have you ever felt that part of you is missing?" She asked
I thought. I could feel that right now but it didn't seem like the right thing to say at this moment.
"No. Why do you ask?" Ok I lied but I need to get an answer out of her. I tell her what I really feel later.
"This morning I was talking to Touya because he keeps making fun of Syaoran and I lost my temper and I told him to forget about Syaoran because he's gone he's been gone for two months. I started to cry and he came to my side and started to ask what's wrong but I couldn't tell him and as I thought about why I was sad I felt like half of me was gone but I was still sitting there whole." She explained.
"I've heard that when you love someone and you know they love you but you haven't told them how you feel you feel a bit empty but when your far away from that person the emptiness grows and if the person leaves after they tell you and you haven't told them how you feel yet you feel like half of you is gone. The half is the person you love. I think people are made of halves and it takes two halves to make a whole so when you lose your true love you really lose half of you." I said.
"Ohh." She said looking a little less down.
"Were here Miss Daidouji, Miss Kinomoto." My body guard said.
"Good." I said. "Come on Sakura let's go inside."
"Miss Kinomoto would you like me to carry your bag in for you." One of the maids asked that was waiting at the front gate for us. Sakura looked confused till she saw my bodyguard holding her bag she had packed.
"No thank you I've got it." She said taking the duffel bag from my bodyguard.
We walked inside and I told Sakura to go up to my room. I wish she knew how I felt. She probably does. Last night I just realized that the one I saw on the screen the one I had thought that I liked I now loved. He's gone too and I can't see him. The one I love is…….
In Tomoyo's Room Sakura's POV
"Kero you can come out now." I said.
"Hey Sakura what's that C.D. in your backpack?" he asked
"That oh it's nothing important." I said blushing a little.
"But it says Here With Me Music Made By Sakura Kinomoto IMPORTANT! KEEP AWAY!" He said
"Ok I give. You know how my dad left his computer here while he left to go on a business trip. Well He said we could use his computer for anything we want. He had just put my new software I got for my birthday on it it was a music making thing where you can create your own songs and I used it to put music to my lyrics that I wrote. I still can't find someone to sing the song for me so I can put it with the music." I said
"Well why don't you sing it Sakura your not all that bad." He's got to be joking. I thought.
"I can not sing at all Kero you've heard me." I said
"And I didn't think you were all that bad." He said. "I want to hear the song and you Sakura are going to sing to it. Do you hear me?" Kero said scaring me a little. I nodded. I took my c.d. out of my backpack and the lyrics. I went over to Tomoyo's stereo and put the c.d. in and pressed play. I began to sing when it played the part I needed to sing to. I finished singing the first verse when Tomoyo burst in. I dropped the pages of lyrics I was holding startled by her entrance. Kero stopped the music. She picked up one of the pages and read it. It was the first page the one I had sang to and I think she knew it was me.
"Sakura did you write this?" She asked. I nodded." Did you make that music?" I nodded again this time slightly blushing. "And was that you singing?" Yep she had caught on. I nodded again.
"Sakura your amazing. Last time I heard you sing you weren't all that good. You've been practicing haven't you?" All I could do was nod.
"But she's still not as good as you Tomoyo. You are the best singer we know." Kero said
"You wrote this about Syaoran didn't you Sakura? She asked.
"Am I really that transparent? I asked.
"Like I said Sakura the only one that didn't know you liked the brat was the brat himself." Kero said.
"Sakura this is a beautiful song we need to get this recorded. I could even film you while you sing and you can have your own special c.d. and this is so cool. Come on Sakura come on Kero we need to go now." She was enthusiastic.
"Ok." I said.
On the way to the car we ran into Tomoyo's mom.
"Mom what are you doing here?" Tomoyo asked.
"I took the day off and I said if they need me call the vice president of the company. This is the first time Sakura's slept over and I wanted to make it special." Mrs. Daidouji said.
"Well mom could you take us to the recording studio instead of one of the bodyguards?" Tomoyo asked.
"Sure. But why are you going there?" She asked.
"Sakura made a song and we wanted to record her singing it." Tomoyo said.
"Oh. Ok." She said and we left to the recording studio.
At The Recording Studio Sakura's POV
"OK! Sakura I want you to give me the c.d. and o into that little room over there." Tomoyo said and pointing the camera towards the room with the mic and head phones and recording stuff. Her mom was sitting in the chair in front of all the controls. We also had two bodyguards outside the door waiting for us. I gave Tomoyo the c.d. and went in to the little room as instructed. I put the head phones on so I could hear the music. Tomoyo came in to the little room and gave her mom the signal to start the music. I could hear the music start out in it's sort of slow pace then it was blowing up in my ears. When I started to sing memories came flooding back to me. (A/N: You can watch the video of Sakura's memories if you go to my profile and click on the seventh link. The parts of the last movie are memories of dreams she's had since Syaoran left.)
It's been a long
Long time since I looked into the mirror
I guess that I was blind
Now my reflection's getting clearer
Now that you're gone things will never be the same again
There's not a minute that goes by
Every hour of every day
You're such a part of me but I just pulled away
Well I'm not the same girl you used to know
I wish I said the words I never showed
I know you had to go away
I died just a little and I feel that now you're the one I need
I believe that I would cry just a little
Just to have you back now here with me
Here with me
You know that silence is loud when all you hear is your heart
And I wanted so badly just to be a part f something strong and true
But I was scared and left it all behind
I know you had to go away
I died just a little and I feel that now you're the one I need
I believe that I would cry just a little
Just to have you back now here with me
Here with me
And I'm asking
And I'm wanting you to come back to me please
I never will forget the look upon your face
How you turned away and left without a trace
But I understand that you did what you had to do and I thank you
(Thank you)
(Thank you)
I know you had to go away
I died just a little and I feel that now you're the one I need
I believe that I would cry just a little
Just to have you back now here with me
I know you had to go away
I died just a little and I feel that now you're the one I need
I believe that I would cry just a little
Just to have you back now here with me
Here with me
Here with me
When I finished singing Mrs. Daidouji started to clap.
"That was wonderful Sakura." Tomoyo said
"It was perfect. I've got your c.d. and I have four other copies one for me and one for Tomoyo then one for you to give to two other people." Mrs. Daidouji said.
When we got back to The Daidouji's we had dinner and then Tomoyo and I went up to her room. It was getting late so we got in our Pj's and I put out my sleeping bag.
"Tomoyo you've been acting strange lately what's the matter?" I asked.
"There's nothing wrong if anyone's been acting strange that would be you Sakura." She said.
"But you seem less happy and you don't smile as much. Tomoyo I know something's wrong please tell me." I asked.
"I have not been acting strange Sakura Kinomoto! I'm fine!" This was the first time she yelled at me in anger before. Now I knew for sure something was wrong.
"You never yell at me Tomoyo." I said tears brimming my eyes. "I know something's wrong and you can tell me now or later it's your choice." I said a few tears rolling down my cheek.
"Sakura don't cry. Your right something is wrong but I want to tell you later Ok. And right now I want us to be friends." She said getting off her bed and wiping some of my tears away.
"Ok." I said.
"Good. Well we better get to sleep. Good night Sakura. Arigoto fro worrying about me and finally getting me to tell someone something was wrong. Arigoto." She said.
"Good night Tomoyo and Arigoto for helping me with my c.d. Arigoto" I said.
It was twelve in the morning and I still hadn't fallen asleep. Tomoyo was asleep. I wish I knew what was wrong with her. I miss Syaoran. I grabbed a pencil and paper and started to write down some lyrics. It's been two months. I could feel the tears come to my eyes and I let them fall they hit the page and I knew that by the glow of where they hit I had some luck in this song. He'll come back soon. I know he will. I wiped my tears and put my song away. I layed down and looked out the window I stared at the moon and I could see him. His brown eyes to his smile. I bet right now he's looking at the same moon as me.
A/N: It's the end of chapter two. I'm so proud of myself. This chapter has over three thousand words. Yay me.3252.