Disclaimer: Mulder and Scully do not belong to me, Chris Carter is still a lucky man.

Author's note: I'm surprised that I had so much support on this, I really didn't think anyone cared that much for it, so thanks to all for the support; sort of boosts my confidence, although I still feel very self-conscious and really shy about this story. Hope I can still keep you guys interested. Anyway on with the show.

Chapter four

It was Sunday morning and instead of being in church like Dana had planned with her mother, she was again in the bathroom. Dana had been in there for an hour now, and was exhausted from her body trying to get rid of nothing. She knew that the way she had been sick, her stomach shouldn't have anything left.

"Dana, I think we should take you to the doctor," Margaret said, her voice heavy with concern.

"No, mom, maybe it will be like yesterday, I'll be better in a moment," Dana said weakly.

Margaret opened the bathroom door, "Honey, you know that something is wrong," she said as she knelt next to Dana and wiped her face with a wet washcloth.

"Mom, I don't want to know, I'm…I'm afraid," Dana admitted.

"I know, and I am too, but we need to know," Margaret said softly.

"I'll get ready," Dana said reluctantly.

Dana and Margaret sat in the emergency room for two hours now. The doctor had taken some blood to test if her cancer had returned and to see if anything else was wrong with her body.

They were waiting for the test results.

Dana was getting annoyed with waiting, "They should have let me done the tests, I would have done them quicker," Dana complained.

"Doctors make the worst patients," Margaret smiled.

Dana did too, "Sorry, I just hate waiting,"

Finally Dr. Megan James came to get them and led them into her office, "Well, we have the results, and you're fine Ms. Scully,"

"How can that be, I've been horribly sick for the last two days, and feeling it for weeks," Dana said appalled.

"Well, the only thing I can think of is the one thing you tell me is impossible," Dr. James said.

"I'm not pregnant," Dana said firmly.

"Well, are you in a sexual relationship?" Dr. James asked.

Dana blushed a bit. She was thirty-six, but still felt embarrassed being asked such a question in front of her mother.

"Yes," Dana said.

"For how long?" the doctor asked.

"About a year," Dana answered.

"Well, then I think we should test for pregnancy, just to rule it out," Dr. James said.

"Fine," Dana said and followed a nurse.

She did the test and they waited for what the test stick would say.

Dr. James looked at it and smiled, "Well, congratulations, Dana, the impossible is possible, you're pregnant,"

Dana had to sit down. She couldn't believe it.

"Oh, Dana, I'm so happy for you," Margaret said hugging her daughter, but looked confused at Dana's reaction.

"I'll be back so I can make an appointment for you Dana, " the doctor said.

"Honey, what's wrong?" Margaret asked.

"I don't know what to say, but what do I do about…" Dana said, but quickly stopped herself from saying Mulder's name.

"You mean the father?" Margaret asked.

"Yeah, mom, he and I aren't exactly dating, I mean committed in that sense," Dana said.

"Oh, Dana, I'm sorry, but be happy, you said he was a good man, maybe he will be happy too," Margaret said.

"I want to go home," Dana said sounding, if possible, more exhausted.

"All right," Margaret said touching Dana's hand.

The doctor made an appointment with an OB/GYN in Dana's area for later that week.

Dana sat in her mother's living room. She was ecstatic, but confused. She never thought she would ever have a child, but to have one with Mulder. It wasn't something that she had expected, or if she was sure that she had really wanted it, at least now.

"Dana, you have to tell him," Margaret said reading her daughter's mind and coming to sit with her.

Dana looked up at her startled, "I know, but I can't right now," Dana said.

"Can you tell me who he is?" Margaret asked.

"Not now, mom, sorry, I will when I get things figured out with him," Dana promised.

"All right, but be happy, I am, you get to be a mother," Margaret said holding her daughter and was surprised when Dana cried.

"Oh, baby girl, what's wrong," Margaret consoled.

"I mean I am happy, I can't believe it, but I guess I just wish things were a bit different with the father, I don't know if I can tell him or if I want to, I don't know what he saw in a future with me, or what I thought of a future with him, at least with the idea of children, all of this was obviously unexpected," Dana said through her tears.

"Just talk with him, I'm sure he'll be happy, and if he isn't, well, you know you have family, and your brother's to kick his ass," Margaret said.

Dana laughed and wiped her tears, "Thank you, but please don't tell anyone yet,"

"I won't, this stays between you and me," Margaret said.

"Well, I have to go, it's almost six, I have work tomorrow," Dana said, "I'll call you after the appointment this week,"

"I could go with you to that appointment," Margaret offered.

"Would you, I'd appreciate that?" Dana said, "So, I'll see you on Thursday at one pm then,"

"All right, I love you, Dana, you'll be fine," Margaret said.

"Thanks mom, see you later," Dana said and headed for her car.

Dana arrived home at a little after seven that evening.

She was still trying to accept that she was pregnant and arguing with herself about it.

It isn't possible, she thought. Dana placed a hand on her stomach, wishing she could feel it, just so that she could really know. Words at the moment didn't mean much. She knew that doctors could make mistakes, and if this were one of those times, she didn't think she could really handle it. Even if she wasn't really happy with the situation.

She sighed exhausted.

Now all she had to do was tell Mulder, but she didn't even know what he would think.

Mulder seemed to want to be with her now, but it was that he wanted to be with her. Now that she was pregnant, well that hadn't been apart of the deal between them.

Dana didn't know if Mulder had meant with children because, well the reason they didn't ever use protection was because they both believed that she couldn't get pregnant. Neither mention commitment or family. Sex was all it seemed to be when they got together outside of work.

She never thought to ask or discuss with Mulder the 'what if's' of their relationship because the fact was they were not a couple. None of it mattered, or at least it wasn't supposed to.

Dana sat on her couch. She was saddened when she realized that this child may not have even been conceived in love.

They had just been using each other, there was no other way to say it. It was true that the friendship was sincere and honest, but love of a friend was a whole lot different then love of a lover.

What was she supposed to do? What if Mulder really didn't want to be a father, what if he didn't want to be there for her.

Dana pushed the thoughts away. She could deal with this without him. She knew that she was strong.

Dana decided that it was best to not tell Mulder for now and to end the 'arrangement'.

She was not looking forward to that conversation.

Her home phone rang startling her out of her thoughts. She picked it up.

"Hello?" she said.

"Finally, where have you been, I've been trying to get in touch with you all weekend," Mulder said sounding both relieved and pissed off.

"Sorry, I spent the weekend with my mom," Dana said.

"The whole weekend?" he questioned in disbelief.

"Yeah, why are you angry, what did you want," Dana said feeling angry now.

"Sorry, it's just that you don't tell me where you'll be on Friday, and then he whole weekend I can't get a hold of you," Mulder said calming.

Dana picked up her cell phone and saw that she had missed him fifteen times.

"I'm sorry, just catching up with my mom; so what did you want," she asked.

"I just wanted to know if you were all right," Mulder said.

"Why wouldn't I be?" Dana asked confused.

"I was just wondering if you thought about what I said on Friday," Mulder said sounding awkward.

Dana thought real hard, but her mind was drawing a blank, "I'm sorry, Mulder, I don't remember what you're talking about, I've been feeling a bit under the weather this weekend,"

"Are you all right now?" Mulder asked with true concern.

"Yeah, I'm fine now, so what did we talk about?" Dana asked.

"We talked about our arrangement, I was saying that I don't want to be just 'bed buddies' as you put it, anymore, I want to be something more meaningful," Mulder said sounding timid.

Dana had become slightly hesitant. She remembered the conversation, but she had realized that she wasn't ready for it, and didn't think now was the time to be discussing their relationship, at least until she talked with him about the pregnancy. She needed to postpone it for now.

Dana sighed, "Mulder the reason we had the agreement was because we couldn't make a relationship work with anyone, why the hell would you think we could make one work between us?" she nearly laughed at the idea.

"Because we understand each other, we would know what to expect from each other, and know the limitations, and because…I know that we love each other," Mulder said sounding a bit embarrassed.

"That…all of it is true, but Mulder, I really don't think it would work, I can't do that right now," she said.

"Can't or won't, what are you afraid of?" he asked annoyed.

"I'm not afraid, I just know we wouldn't work, I mean Mulder, you spend all of your time on the x-files; the reason's other women wouldn't want you, are the same I don't want you, not for a relationship I mean," Dana said honestly.

Mulder became quiet, and Dana felt like a jerk. She knew she was being insensitive.

"Mulder…." she started.

"No, don't worry, I mean I want you to be honest, so you are, thanks, it's great insight for me," Mulder said clearly hurt and angry.

Dana sighed, her heart breaking, "Mulder, I think we should stop sleeping together," Dana said,

"Perfect, I was just thinking the same thing," Mulder said snidely and hung up on her.

Dana hung up the phone, not sure of what she should be feeling. At the moment she just felt a void in her heart, but wasn't able to cry for it. Dana knew that for now being apart would be for the best.