Charlie is a two faced, male faced bitch.

Damn hypocrite.

I don't get how he ended up marrying mom and have me. I already know he purposely done it from trying to make me study properly and be more social, which unfortunately will never happen. It will be a miracle if I had done it, I am pretty much fine with my friends. Unlike other people, we tend to be more independent and meet up outside school twice every few weeks. We prefer meeting each other during school time.

I like those kinds of ways. -

But when I think about the incident this morning, it seemed like it actually happened in my own world. I bet myself Edward had already forgotten me. I am so sure about it. I am those slight quiet and lame, normal looking girl, it would be hard for him to recognize me that I actually had existed at that time. Thinking in a negative way makes me loose appetite and I just ended up giving my lunch to Jessica. I do want to think every single thing in an optimistic way but it never works for me. Somehow Angela had recognized my emotion.

'You okay Bella (My nickname)? You seem really down,'

'As usual' Jessica muttered while chewing off my lunch

'Still,'

'I am fine'

I couldn't tell them the incident which just happened this morning; I am so sure no one will believe me. I even don't have any evidence to prove it. I had to sign again.

Then suddenly Jessica stopped chewing.

'Here they come, the ultimate fours and the plastics,'

The ultimate fours…

They were the nicknames made up by Jessica as she believed that ultimate fours were to be the hottest ones in Forks High School and the plastics, you know, are to be referred as the popular girls. Even though, it does make other normal girls feel sad, but I still have to admit the girls from the plastic look totally gorgeous. They seem to work out with the ultimate fours. The group had to gain my attention absolutely, there was Edward, showing off his beautiful bronze hair, talking to his mate, Jasper, he is again sucking his chupachups.

This time it was strawberry.

'Jasper Hale, I love his blonde hair,'

Jessica in daze commented,

'Oh, not forget Emmett Cullen and Mike Newton,' Angela giggled.

'Damn, I still envy Alice Cullen for being a sister of two hot brothers, Emmett and Edward, seeing them everyday in school and at home,'

It was pretty funny to hear their conversation about the ultimate fours but they start to get nasty about the plastics as Jessica referred. Jessica and Angela's faces start to get scrunched up when they talk about the plastics.

'I wish we were the plastics and hang around with them,' Jessica whined.

'Do not include me you people,'

I retorted back with a laugh and looked back at my brunette hair and looked back the members of the plastics. All of the members had blonde hair; I cannot say how many members there are in total because there are kind of a lot. The main two blondes I can somehow remember are Rosalie Hale and Lauren Mallory. I would like to say they are absolutely the Barbie dolls. They are freaking skinny.

When I look back at my body and compare, again I feel gloomier than before. - -

Life is so unfair. -- --

'Hey guys, can we eat lunch with you guys?'

A sudden voice came behind while I was dazing about the pretties. I looked back and saw the voice belonged to Tyler Crowley. Behind him, there was Eric Yorkie. Tyler was the exchange student from UK and decided to hang around with Eric as I was the only close female friend of Eric's, Eric introduced Tyler to me few weeks ago while having the Spanish class.

'Oh sure,'

I tried to ignore Eric for not acknowledging me during other classes as he tried to imitate the Tyler and gain some attention from other girls by hanging around with him. He totally ignored me after being close to Tyler. Fine, I don't care. As if Eric knew I was quite pissed off at him, he timidly sat next to Tyler and looked away from me constantly.

'Hey Tyler,'

'Hey Jess,'

'Hey Angi,'

'… hey'

Angela somehow became quiet after Tyler sat on our table. It was very unusual to see the quiet Angela. I will make sure to keep on inviting Tyler over to our table from now on, lols. Well Tyler's not bad; he gives out this mysterious cool atmosphere, totally different from the Ultimate fours. Mixes tend to be really pretty, Tyler being half British-Korean, has his raven hair and emerald eyes nicely blended even though it's a totally non-suitable concept. While Jessica seems to be flirting with Tyler, I look back to check on the ultimate fours.

And also to totally ignore Eric, damn idiot. - -

Asshoe. - -

I decided to distract myself from only thinking about Edward.

I love his beautiful bronze hair, pale skin which makes his slender figure more muscular, sometimes his golden topaz eyes make me deep into my own fantasy world, which I cannot describe in words, when I look at him he reminds me of the mythical Greek God Adonis, maybe he is the descendant of Adonis, sometimes I wish I could hold on to his long fingers, which could never happen in my whole life, and I know the god will not allow me to have soul mates like him, if I do probably I deserve to go to hell and be punished by the unfortunate ones who were unable to get the guys they desire for.

I feel way much better and feel satisfied for thinking in an optimistic way.

Then I accidently decided to take a look at Edward's eyes when I decided to sit back properly, somehow he at the same time looked back at me. At it seemed like we were staring back at each other for more than a minute.

'Bella?'

Angela's voice broke my silence between Edward as I quickly, all embarrassed looked back at her.

'Yeah?'

I hope Angela didn't recognize me ogling at Edward. (- -);;;;;;;;;;