Being So Close
Pt6-Idiot
Chakotay turned slowly and began to walk back to the house. The rain drops had just begun to fall and he watched them slowly seep into the sidewalk. He didn't look up but if he had he would have noticed Seven watching him from the upstairs bedroom.
As he walked into the house, his cousin noticed his despondent look. He had seen that look before it was the same look that he had after he had found out about his father's death. He knew that the two had been on rocky terms and the death of Chakotay's father had only made him more miserable.
Chakotay went to the kitchen and fetched himself some tea. His cousin sat the table and glared at him. They were quiet for awhile until his cousin finally broke the silence.
"Are you going to tell me what happened?"
Chakotay took a sip from his tea. "Lets just say that Seven found a way to make Kathryn hate me. I waited 7 years for that women, for seven years I wanted nothing more than to hold her close and kiss her. And finally when I do get what I want I can't have it."
"Seven came back earlier today and she basically tried to boss me around. I put my foot down and then she high tailed it to her room."
Chakotay chuckled. "Sounds a lot like Seven." "I never imagined that she would get so clingy."
"What do you expect Chakotay? I mean your dating someone who is smart but is totally ignorant when it comes to relationships. And that's not surprising you remember your first relationship don't you?"
Chakotay took another drink of his tea and shook his head. "I sure do. But I was a different man then than I am now."
"I hardly doubt that."
"What do you mean by that? That was almost 40 years ago, and I am certainly not a teenager anymore my graying hair should tell you that!"
"Maybe not, but you still are an idiot."
Chakotay choked on his tea. "Why in the hell would you say that?"
"I figured it would be obvious to someone of your advanced years, but let me spell it out for you. You love Kathryn you always have and you always will. So why don't you tell Seven you don't love her let her go and go after Kathryn?"
Chakotay shook his head. "Kathryn and I were always close. And I really wanted to have a future with her. But sometimes things don't work out that way. And besides I think you are an idiot too."
"This I have to hear, why in the hell would you say that to me?"
Chakotay got himself another cup of tea. "Because I have seen the way you look at a certain someone and you don't even talk to her. I may be an idiot but at least I am not a coward."
"Who are you talking about Chakotay?"
Chakotay sat stirred his tea a few times and looked back at his cousin. "I am talking about Pheobe."
"Oh, well that's another story in itself. She is way way way out of my league. I would never have a chance with someone so drop dead gorgeous besides I am sure she has a boyfriend or a husband."
"Actually she is not married and she know longer has a boyfriend."
"Don't fuck with me Chakotay."
Chakotay grinned. "What's the matter cousin afraid of a little challenge?"
"Chakotay you know very well that if I had the opportunity to see Pheobe I would. But I don't even know where she lives."
"I do, and I happen to know that she is having a birthday party tomorrow. Maybe you should go and surprise her."
"Maybe I will as long as you come with me Chakotay. That way maybe you can smooth things over with Kathryn."
"Don't press your luck cousin. I will tell you where she lives but I am not going with you."
Just then Seven who was upstairs called down to Chakotay in a high pitched voice. "Chakotay I am ready and waiting for you."
Chakotay shrugged. "On second thought I will come with you tomorrow. I just need to get something out of storage before we go."
"Chakotay it is not polite to keep a lady waiting. You should always be prompt when she calls."
Chakotay headed up the stairs he opened the door and found Seven lying on the bed.
"Seven you and I need to talk."
TBC