Hi everyone I am sorry if the last chapter frustrated you guys it was not my favorite chapter ending but it had to be done. I am trying to make this fan fiction as realistic as possible. However, you guys will be more satisfied with this chapter. I promise even if won't seem that way in the beginning this is one of my longer chapters.

August.15.2004 10 o'clock

Three days had passed since her fight with Logan, and Rory could not take it anymore. She had spent two days at the paper avoiding Logan and only talking to Casey when necessary, and it really drained her. Rory had called in sick she was not in the mood to go to work and face Logan and Casey. How could Logan think he knew so much about her relationship by one fight? How could easily Casey believe Logan? True she knew him longer, but Casey should have tried harder to understand her side. Jess was a jerk, but despite what they said he did not mess with her mind. Yes, there were times when she wondered if he was right but she was only trying to understand his side. Suddenly Jess walked right through the door, Rory was still deep in thought to acknowledge him.

"Hey"

"Hi" Rory replied absently she was not going to fight with him today. "I have got the most awesome news."

"What?"

" Chris's uncle's publishing house has hired us all in Philadelphia."

"That's really great Jess" She was not going to act super excited for him, after all he was not excited for him when she got the internship.

"So back your bags we are moving to Philly on Saturday."

Rory wanted to scream and throw something, how dare he ask her to move on such short notice. Did he not understand that she had an internship she cared about here? It was like him immediately asking her to give up Yale and everything she worked for. She suddenly remembered Casey's words. " I would never try to hold him back form perusing his dreams, and he would never hold me back from pursuing mine. "However, Rory did not want to cause a fight she did not want Jess to bring up any of her bad moments like last time. Suddenly Casey words popped into her. " I don't walk around eggshells around him afraid of what will happen if I disagree with him." However, Rory tried to push them out Casey did not understand how much Rory had given up for this relationship. "That sounds good Jess" Rory said flatly.

"I knew you would be happy Rory."

Happy could the guy not tell how miserable Rory was in that second. True, she knew that boys could not read minds, but she was pretty sure if Logan were here he would have read her facial expression in a second. Rory tried and pushed her Logan's thoughts aside she should not be thinking off him. On the other hand Philadelphia would be a good chance for her to make a fresh start away from the memory of Logan. Although Rory's heart was filled with a pang of sadness at the idea of leaving Logan behind. When would Logan get out of her thoughts?

"Rory?"

"Yes Jess?"

" I think that this is the cause of a celebration" With that note Jess kissed her her and deep. Surprising Rory it had been about two or three weeks, since they had last kissed , yet to her it seemed to have happened to a different person in a another lifetime. His kisses used to give her a lustful passion, now they felt dry and life less. Strangely Rory could not help comparing kissing Jess to kissing Logan in her dream. How Logan's lips were softer and and sweeter, and how Logan would hold her close. Where as Jess would just let her hang without touching her waist or her face. Give it up she thought it was just a dream. Rory had to keep focusing on kissing Jess, for she needed to protect the relationship, which she had given up so much for. When Jess started to lift her shirt Rory did not protest the way she usually did she figured to just do it. Maybe after sleeping with him again Jess would treat her better. Rory looked up and saw the expression on Jess's face after her shirt was off, it was not one of love the way Logan had in her dream, or even of lust but a guy trying to bed his prize. Rory felt like crying was that all she was to him? Suddenly Jess's cell phone rang interrupting their make out session. "Oh man Rory I am sorry I have to answer this it could be important. We will continue later."

Rory simply nodded, hopping he would go. "Okay I promise I will be back soon."

As Rory watched Jess go she put her shirt back on disgusted with herself. Logan and Casey were both right her mind was controlled by Jess and her motivation to stay. She had almost slept with Jess knowing he undervalued her the fact, which Rory knew that she did not love him anymore. Rory got out not knowing where to go, she had never felt more lost in her entire life.

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August 14 12 o cloak

Logan sitting at his desk staring at the front door. He could not believe that Rory was not here she had never missed a day of work. He had preferred a day of Rory ignoring him to a day of not seeing her.

"Logan she is not coming today she called in sick." Casey's voice interrupted his thoughts.

"Oh, are you sure she is really sick."

"I do not think so, but I get why she wants to blow off steam. Plus, Mitchum who hates sick days is off in Boston acquiring a paper so you don't have to worry about him. I am sorry I made her mad at you; I did not want you guys to lose your friendship. She is a good friend to you, and your a good friend to her.

"It is not your fault Casey I should not have said anything to you. I should have known how she would react you being her boss and all."

"No Logan you did the right thing I should have talked to her tried to reassure her that I was not just her employer. Logan you only tried to help her, and I know this is a cliche but she will thank you someday. Sometimes Logan it is hard to admit your boyfriend it is not the best guy, and you blame other people for that. "

"Well this is the problem Casey she knows what kind of person her boyfriend is, I can tell."

"Well then Logan Rory's relationship with this guy represents something to her, that she is desperate to hold on to."

"But what could this relationship possibly represent?

"Logan I do not know."

Logan sat deep in thought, how had he cared about this girl so quickly ever since the moment he saw her at Central Park he had grown to care about her so quickly. Suddenly something popped into his head. "Casey I know where to find her. " Logan tone was eager and excited.

"You do?"

"I am hundred percent sure, that she is at this special spot."

"Well, you can go talk to her Mitchum is away and if by chance he comes here on a sup-rise visit then I will tell him I sent you on assignment.

"You would really do that?" Logan asked surprised for Casey had never lied to his father for anyone.

"Yes but do not get used to it Logan this is a one time thing."

"I will not I promise you Casey."

"Good, now go get her Logan."

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August 14 2004 1215

Logan was right he had found her on central park on the rock where they had first met. This time she looked worse then he had ever seen her, she was wearing Yale sweats and their were tear drops around her eyelids. Logan hated seeing her so down cast and alone.

Rory was surprised when she lifted her head and saw Logan, but she still did not want to talk to him. "Go away Logan or do you want more information about my personal business to give to the writers of Page Six."

Logan could not believe that this girl could be so stubborn, but he had to keep his cool. He sat next to her and looked directly at her tearful blue eyes. "I understand why you are mad at me, but you were wrong on what you said on Monday I do not judge you. If you want to quit college and live in New York, well I am not going to tell you not too. I took time off to so I am not in the position to judge you. Plus, you are not hurting yourself or anybody by doing this. However, when I see you being hurt by someone who treats you like crap then I start to care. You have to understand why I am not sorry I went to Casey, I know you work for her but she is my friend and if that makes me a jerk the so be it."

Rory felt bad Logan was not a jerk Jess was, and she had to stop treating Logan like he was one. "You and her were both right about everything I was just to mad to listen I am sorry. " Rory replied between tears, Logan pulled her close in his arms. For the first time that day Rory felt a glimmer of happiness and hope.

"Rory I know that you've known for a long time what a jerk he is, why the hell are you still with him?"

After her little revelation that morningRory had realized that she could not deny things anymore. Also Logan next to Lane and Christopher was the one person who did not expect her to be a certain way, or to be perfect. "Logan my whole life I thought I was doing what I wanted going to Chilton to get into Harvard which later became Yale. Trying to have a good relationship with Dean my first boyfriend and my first love. I did not realize until Jess moved to Stars Hollow that I wanted something different, and I was doing all of that to impress people. Jess appeared to be more exciting and intellectual then Dean, so I had the illusion that we would have a more exciting relationship. Since as much as I loved Dean the bond that had once kept us together died and I started looking at greener pastures. Plus, my mother hated him despite the fact that she tried to like him being Luke's nephew and all. There was something appealing about that a chance to show everyone that I was not such a perfect angel, my one act of teenage rebellion was kissing Jess when I had a boyfriend. And, later dating Jess after Dean broke up with me because of my feelings for Jess. However, I did not get the relationship of my dreams with Jess all we did was fight and make out. The worst thing is that I never realized how messed up this relationship was until this summer. Rory tried to choke back her tears and Logan rubbed her back, which comforted Rory to continue to talk. "Eventually we had our biggest fight when I did not want to have sex with him at a crowded party. I was a virgin at the time and I did not want my first time to be like that."

"Oh Ace." Logan pulled her closer the more he heard about Jess the more he hated him. What kind of guy yells at someone for not sleeping with him.

"I mean he said it was because he was angry at not being able to graduate."

"That is no excuse Rory, and you know it."

Logan did have a point, she could not believe she how often she had overlooked and forgiven Jess's bad behavior. "Any way he left at the end of my senior year without saying goodbye. I went to Yale relationship wise I was so lonely cause I was single for the first time ever since I was sixteen. I missed my mom and my childhood, so I started craved for the relationship I had with both Dean and Jess. So when Jess came to my dorm at the end of term he promised me I could count on him now so I went. I thought he had really changed and that we would become the couple that I thought we would be in high school. However, we were not for three weeks all we did was kiss or only say about one or two sentences with each other. I was so stupid I did not realize how wrong this relationship was until I slept with him." Rory started to cry again, she could not help it the tears had been building up for two months. Logan started to gently stroke her hair, and after 5 minutes Rory calmed down. No one's touch had soothed her, since her mother's when she was little during the few times she had sprained her knee or gotten a bump.

"Was it your first time? Logan gently asked.

"Yes it was, and I hated it was not good and he did nothing to make me comfortable. The worst part Logan is that he left afterwards and did not return until hours later. He claimed he was scared, but I never believed him. "

Logan really wished he had smacked the guy when he had a chance. "Why did you stay with him after all of that. "

"I stayed with him Logan, because when I said yes it was a big screw you to my mom and everything we had planned threw the years. Jess's represented what I had chosen against the plan going back would mean my mother was right about everything. I do not want to go back and face her, yet I do not want to be with Jess anymore. I realized this afternoon that you and Casey were both right. I was so preoccupied with what this relationship represented that I did not know how much it was controlling me, or how Jess's does not love me he views me like a prize."

What do you mean?"

Rory then told Logan everything how she had agreed to go to Philadelphia with Jess even though she did not want to. Or the victorious look upon Jess's face during their unconsummated make out session. Rory emotionally felt relieved and drained at saying everything to Logan.

"I am an idiot for not realizing all this from before." Rory finally told Logan.

"Rory you are not an idiot your young, and sometimes were bound to be stupid. I get wanting to rebel against plans I do it 24/7, but when I usually do it I try and do things that make me content. Whether if its hanging out with friends, traveling, or doing stunts that make the fear factor ones look amateurish. I would never do something that would destroy my life or make me permanently unhappy. As I see it and I hate to say, but staying with this guy is making unhappy and messing up your life."

Logan made a really good point, but there was still a factor to consider. "Yeah, but I do not want to go back to SH and face my mom. I have no place to go. " Rory sobbed.

"Then don't go back stay with me, until school starts. There is a really nice guest room with a comfy bed, and a nice view of Central Park. Plus, its closer to the paper and its in an area where you do not need to worry about coming home late."

"Logan this is way to much." Rory explained

"It might seem like that Ace, but you would also be doing me a favor I could really use a roommate for the rest of the summer it gets lonely with my friends only able to sporadically visit me. "

"Yeah what about the girls you bring won't they be threatened by me."

"I will not bring them plus it will be a relief I have the feeling some of them steal things to remember their night with me."

Rory laughed for the first time all day. "That is so pathetic."

"Tell me about it what do you say?"

"I will think about it?"

"Okay here is the key card you will need it toward the elevator and toward the door." Logan handed it to her and Rory nodded.

"So what do you say?"

"I will think about it."

"Good to know Ace."

"Logan can you just stay with me a little." Rory said not ready to leave the comfort of his arms.

"As you wish Ace." They leaned next to each other until the sunshine set across the lake.

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Next chapter a certain character gets his walking papers.