Chapter 11
Once he had her at his door, he kicked it open with his foot, walked over to the bed and sat down with her on his lap. Not saying a word, not a sound to be heard Stella wondered what had him so quiet.
"Mac, what's the matter?"
Snuggling her in closer he hid his face in her neck and quietly sobbed. God she could feel his wet tears fall down her neck onto her chest.
"Oh Mac...Mac what is it?"
"I'm just not sure Stel. I'm not sure if we wouldn't be making a mistake. What if it's to soon? I don't want to hurt you. I don't want to be hurt again, not like I was with her."
Stella knew he was talking about Peyton. She understood how he had treated her when someone was around. But more then that. She understood how she had left him with a Dear John letter. So many insecurities he must now have. Forcing her to think back to his earlier dream. To his words...."Why didn't you say good bye?"
Realizing they both were carrying so many emotional scars, she knew deep down he was right. She knew it was to soon for them to make love. Caressing at his tears with her thumbs she climbed from his lap and laid him back against the pillows. Then climbing in beside him, she turned on her side waiting for him to take her in his arms.
Feeling the cold chill from the NY breeze, she began to shiver. Then she felt him. Felt him as his arm pulled her into his side. Close, so close that he could inhale each and every scent that was his Stella. Snuggling in as close as she could get, he kissed her hair, while whispering....
"I promise you Stella Bonasara. One day we will both be ready. One day I will take you so passionately, so sensually. That you will be happy we waited."
Reaching for his hand, she brought it up and kissed it. Whispering back.....
"I know Mac. And that is the day we will both togethr as one look forward too."
Falling alseep in each others arms, they dreamed. Dreamed of their life, their children that they would one day have. But most of all of their love that was already undying in their eyes.
tbc...