She kept on flying, tears streaming down her face. How stupid is this? she thought glumly, I should be able to tell him how I feel, like any normal person would be able to. But no, I have to have powers controlled by my emotions.
She settled down to meditate on a rooftop, needing to keep her emotions under control. She tried emptying all her thoughts. No matter how hard she tried, she just couldn't stop thinking about this afternoon.
"Talk to me," a voice said next to her. She opened her eyes, and Beast Boy was right next to her.
"Go away," she said coldly, trying her hardest to stare straight ahead.
"Aw, come on, Raven! Something's obviously wrong," he said, sounding a bit annoyed.
"Nothing's wrong," she said trying to sound as nonchalant as possible.
"Something's wrong and you know it. I've opened myself up to you before…why can't you ever do the same for anybody else?"
She sighed, "It's…hard."
"What? So you don't trust me?"
"I trust the whole team. It's just…you know…can't let my emotions get too out of hand."
"Robin didn't send me out here for nothing! You had better tell me-"
"Shut up," she said through clenched teeth.
He stood up, and sighed, giving her a sad look, "I'm tired of this," he said.
"Then how do you think I feel?" she said, standing up with him.
He had this weird look on his face, then, before she could stop him, he leaned in and kissed her lightly on the lips.
"Please tell me…" he trailed off, looking at her for the answer.
"That I feel the same way?" she finished.
"Yeah," he smiled, a hopeful look on his face.
She so badly wanted to say yes, but knew she couldn't, "No, I don't. And I don't think I ever will."
He stood there, looking taken aback, "But…Raven?"
"Just go," she said, looking down.
He took form as a great, green hawk and flew away. Why can't I be normal, she thought, watching him as he grew smaller and smaller, until he disappeared entirely.
*****
He felt depressed, he felt embarrassed, and mostly, he felt like the biggest idiot on Earth. He let his emotions get the better of him, and she didn't reciprocate. He knew she didn't feel the same way, so why did he do it? All he knew for sure was that this confession will definitely affect the team, and nothing would ever be the same when she returned. If she ever returned, that is.
He finally arrived at Titans Tower. The whole group was waiting for him inside on the couch, worried looks on their faces, wanting to hear the news, "Did you find friend Raven?" Starfire came up and looked behind him, "Where is she?"
"Yeah, what's the news?" Robin asked.
"Uhhh…" well, he wasn't about to tell the team what had happened. He decided to lie, "I couldn't find her. She'll probably turn up sooner or later," and without another word, he walked dejectedly to his room.
*****
She heard a bang and thump, "Why do I have to be such an idiot? I was an idiot with Terra, and now her! No wonder ever girl-" flump, "I ever liked-" bang, "hates me!"
She felt so bad, so horrible. Why did she have to do this to him? Why couldn't she see this before? Always trying to get her to laugh at his jokes, always bugging her, giving her hugs on quite a few occasions….why didn't she see it? She felt so selfish, so mean, so cruel, so inexcusably heartless.
She peeked inside his window, he sat there, kneeling on the floor of his trashed room, head in hands, "Why?"
"I'm sorry," she whispered softly.
He looked up, "Raven? Is that you?"
Dang, he had heard. She flew away, and she didn't stop to look back.
Sorry for the long wait guys! For the past few months, I've been super busy, and I've been high up and dry with inspiration for this fic. But I've had a burst of inspiration lately, and here it is! Hopefully, the next chapter will be up soon.
In the meantime, R&R??