Disclaimer: I do not own Transformers.

Author's notes: In this chapter you will see the purpose of bringing Optimus in this story; he came in the picture to soften our Megsy up a little, so that he would be ready for something new... I admit it, it's really hard to keep Megatron in character. I think I haven't quite succeeded in it. Oh well, this story is mostly a testing ground, I'll learn someday.

Before It's Too Late

A long vacation this had been. Too long. Blitzwing already awaited to get in to the battlefield, to smell the smoke, dried energon and leaking oil. Yes, he wanted to fight. And he knew a group that would always accept a fair fight. The Stunticons.

Along the years, he had grown fond of the driving maniacs. They had fights almost every week. 'Fair fights', as they called them. Though they weren't quite fair now that he thought about it. Someone would always cheat. If it weren't Blitzwing himself, it was one of the Stunticons. But that didn't matter much. They all had fun and that was the main point.

Blitzwing heard footsteps coming his way. Fast footsteps. Someone was running. And as he turned from the corner, he quite literally, bumped into Starscream.

"Hey, what's up, Screamer? Someone on your tailpipes?" The Triple Changer asked.

The Air Commander grabbed his neck. "Hey, watch it! What are you doing, you crazy fool??"

"Where is Megatron?! I need to see Megatron!" Then suddenly the Seeker's face twisted. "I need to kill Megatron!" Another weird twist of face. "Shut up! I don't want to kill him, I need to see him!" The hold on Blitzwing's neck got tighter. "I am going to kill him! No one can stop me!"

The Seeker's face was suddenly full of fear.

"No! I won't let you!"

Blitzwing began to panic. Starscream was hysteric, he had finally gone nuts and he was going to kill him! Now he needed to be careful, no wrong moves or words.

"Take it easy, Starscream! I saw Megatron going outside the base! Go look for him, you'll find him there!"

Starscream let go of his throat.

"He's mine!" The Air Commander screamed furiously. "No! We will kill you together!" The crazy Seeker responded to himself.

Starscream began to ran towards the docking tower. Blitzwing leaned against the wall and slowly sank onto the floor, rubbing his throat.

"Now that was too close for comfort..." He said to himself. "I always knew he had few bolts loose but that was just scary..."

Blitzwing stared at the dark corridor Starscream had vanished to. Perhaps he should radio Megatron and warn him about his crazy Second-In-Command? Blitzwing dismissed the idea immediately. The Seeker was Megatron's problem now.

Besides, if Starscream defeated Megatron, Blitzwing would have his own chance of gaining the Decepticon leadership. But not alone.

"Hey, Astrotrain? Do you read me? I have something to tell you."

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So far away...

Megatron stared up to the rain clouds. He knew he should return to base but... He wasn't ready to face his troops just yet. He needed a little more time.

A little more time to accept that his brother was gone forever and he would never be a part of his life again. His love for his brother was strong, undenyable. Megatron would never love anyone as much as he loved his brother.

Then suddenly a jet caught his optics. That was one of the Seekers, but he couldn't see which one, it was too dark. He had a feeling that he would soon find out. There was probably one of those 'emergencies' in headquarters again. The silver mech sighed. He wasn't in the mood to settle disputes right now.

The jet came closer and closer. Wait, was that... Starscream?

Megatron couldn't help the warm feeling that took over his spark. Starscream transformed and moved closer. Why wasn't he reducing his speed? Megatron didn't have time to wonder it for much longer, Starscream glomped him. They fell on the muddy ground, Starscream on top.

"Starscream? What are you doing?"

Then he saw the desperate look on his favorite Seeker's face. He was sobbing.

"Is something wrong?"

Starscream nodded. Then suddenly his face twisted into anger. No, not anger. Rage. Pure rage.

"I hate you, I'm going to kill you!" The Seeker spat and his hands went to Megatron's throat. Megatron took a firm hold of the small, blue hands and draw them away from himself.

"Starscream, calm down!" The silver mech demanded. Starscream's face twisted again.

Was that fear?

"Please, Megatron! Help me! I can't hold on! He's killing me, killing me from inside!" The Seeker was hysteric.

"Slow down! Who's doing what to you?" Megatron asked.

"Hellscream! He came back! I killed him, but he came back! And now he's going to kill me and then you! Please, stop him!" Starscream pleaded.

Who the hell...? "Look, Starscream. If you will just calm down..."

"I can't! He's inside my head! He's trying to control me! I can't hold on for much longer! I'm falling, I'm falling..." Starscream's head fell on Megatron's chest.

The silver mech was confused. What had shook the Seeker so much? Something was terribly, terribly wrong here. "It's alright, Starscream, I'm here. You have nothing to worry about. There's no one here that wants to harm you or myself."

The Seeker's head popped up. There was that furious look again and Starscream turned to aggressive. He began to pull and twist and turn but nothing would make the Decepticon leader let go. He had let go of his brother, he would not let go of Starscream.

"Starscream, stop that! You'll only hurt yourself!" Megatron demanded.

"Starscream is not here!" Came the nasty answer.

"What do you mean 'Starscream's not here'?" It didn't make any sense.

'Starscream must have hit his head big time.'

Then a weird thought crossed the silver mech's mind. What if Starscream was possessed somehow? The Seeker had mentioned someone inside his head was trying to control him. Megatron was not an expert on that area, but he did know how he would get Starscream to speak to him, if he really was possessed.

"Starscream? I want to talk to you, I want to help you. Come back to me, we will fight this together. We will drive him away. Come back to me."

The Seeker's face twisted again. And now he looked tired, really tired.

"Me-Megatron? Say you love me. Please, say it... I can't hold on if you don't say it... Please say it, I need it... Make me stronger... Please... Before it's too late..."

Megatron swallowed. This might be Starscream's only chance. Slowly the silver mech opened his mouth and formed the words on his lips. But that would not be enough.

"I love you, Starscream." He whispered, and was shocked to find it true. The fear passed him. "I love you. I love you." He repeated it. "I love you so much!" Megatron pulled the Seeker flat against him and kissed him hungrily. There was angry squirming and screaming in response.

Megatron pulled back a bit. "Starscream. I love you. Come back to me. I don't want to lose you. I love you." The Seeker's optics sparkled and the rage vanished from his beautiful face.

"You... Do?" Starscream questioned, optics full of wonder. "Do you really mean it?"

Megatron smiled up to the Seeker. "I mean it." Starscream smiled. Then suddenly, his head fell on Megatron's chest. The Seeker didn't move.

"Starscream?" Megatron shook the unmoving Seeker in his arms. Nothing. Starscream's optics were dead and his face relaxed. Slowly, Megatron pulled the Seeker closer to himself. "No..." He whispered. He couldn't feel Starscream's spark. He couldn't handle it. He had lost yet another one he loved.

Tears stained his face, but he didn't make a sound. The puddle underneath him kept growing from the rain. Lightning struck somewhere, and thunder growled above them. Megatron was wet and cold, but he didn't care.

For what seemed like forever, Megatron held the Seeker close to his spark, rocking his lifeless body back and forth.

He was still confused about his own feelings. He loved Starscream. He always did. Wasn't that the reason he hadn't killed the Seeker whenever he had attacked him?

He had never feared anyone, or anything in his long life.

And yet, he had been afraid of his own feelings.

And now he knew the reason. He felt miserable. He hadn't dared to tell Starscream about his feelings because he was afraid of losing him. And now he had lost him because of that same fear.

Did it have to go this far before he admitted his love to himself and Starscream? Optimus was right, he was hard-headed. Was this what he had feared so much all his life? Holding someone for the right reasons? Ridiculous.

He pulled Starscream's face up to look at him.

"Please, come back... I love you, Starscream... Don't leave me now..." He was begging. He had never begged anyone, and definitely he would never beg for his own life, never. But here he was, begging for Starscream to return to him.

"If you fall, I'll catch. If you cry, I'll comfort you. If you're scared, I'll chase away your fears. You'll be safe, I will take care of you, I will always love you. I swear it, if you only come back to me..."

Megatron looked up to Starscream's dead optics.

'Face it, Megatron. He's gone.'

He gathered the Seeker's still body into his arms and slowly stood up. He kissed Starscream's forehead.

"Farewell, my love." He placed Starscream's body gently on the ground and took a step back.

"Primus, why do you hate me so much?" He whispered and turned away. Lightning stroke nearby and the ground grumbled.

As Megatron began to walk away, he heard the familiar sound of a jet engine start.

'Great. Now, I'm imagining things.' He thought.

"Are you gonna leave little Starscream in the rain?" Megatron stopped in his tracks. That high-pitched, raspy voice... Could it be? He slowly turned around. Starscream was sitting up, he was alive!

"Starscream!" Megatron ran to the Seeker and kneeled down beside him. He pulled the Seeker into his arms.

"Oh, Starscream, I thought you were dead!"

"Why would me Starscream be dead?"

Megatron slowly pulled back. Why was Starscream speaking like that? No matter, he was alive. Megatron lifted the Seeker into his arms and stood up.

"You're all wet and cold, Starscream. Let's go home and dry you up." The silver mech said. Starscream winced in his arms.

"No. Me Starscream no go home. They no want me anymore." The Seeker stated.

What?

Starscream was talking like a sparkling. He looked up to Megatron's optics. "You want me Starscream?" He asked carefully. Megatron was stunned. Amnesia. Starscream had amnesia. He was acting like a sparkling, because his memories had been erased. He was at the state of a sparkling. He was a sparkling.

"Yes. I want you, Starscream. I will take you home, my home. You're safe now..."

The Seeker smiled and leaned against the silver tyrant's chest.

"Good. Me Starscream love you."

Megatron let out a small whimper. "I... I love you too."