Disclaimer: I do not own Transformers.

Author's note's: I'm sorry it took so long to write this. My computer crashed down so I'm using a borrowed one now. Oh and I had some troubles submitting this chapter so I posted it twice... Anyway, here you go.

For The Sake Of Revenge

'Starscream, where are you?'

'I'm hiding in Megatron's storage in his recharge chamber, everything's fine. He doesn't know I'm in here. It was a close call, but I managed to hide just before he entered his quarters. I'll wait until he goes to recharge, then I can get out of here. Where are you?'

'On my way. I managed to modify my weapons.'

'I still don't get why I had to do this all by myself.'

'Stop your whining. You are smaller than me, you can fit in small storages. I'm too damn big to hide in the shadows anyway.'

'I know, I know. Just hurry up.'

'Did you poison the energon?'

'Only the high grade this far, but Megatron has already drank some of it. It's not fatal amount yet, but it soon will be. He will surely drink all the cubes, I've seen it many times before.'

Hellscream didn't sense the regret in Starscream's spark. Neither did he sense Starscream's claustrophobia that was making him tense and uneasy.

'Good, Megatron's making this all too easy. Now all you need to do is to wait for him to go to recharge and-'

'Wait! I think I heard something.'

Starscream listened carefully and indeed, he heard a door closing. Who was that? The Seeker pressed his audio against the wall and listened in.

Light footsteps.

'Everything alright, Starling?'

'Yes, for now... Someone just walked in.'

'Who?'

'I don't know yet.'

Suddenly a wave of panic hit Starscream through their connection.

'Start counting!'

Starscream frowned at Hellscream's order.

'Whatever for?'

'It's Soundwave! Start counting! That way he can't hear your thoughts.'

'How can you be so sure that it's-'

'Start counting, now!'

'Alright, alright. One... Two... Three... This is ridiculous... Four...'

'Concentrate!'

'Ok, ok... I'll concentrate. But how will I know when he's gone?'

'I'll arrive to the corridor soon, I'll let you know when it's clear.'

Starscream felt Hellscream retreat back to his own spark. Starscream pressed his back against the wall and hoped that neither Megatron nor Soundwave would come in this particular storage. He powered off his optics and started the counting again.

'One... Two... Three... Four... I wonder what they're doing in there... Five... Six...'

XXX

As soon as Soundwave stepped in Megatron's quarters, he recognized the sound of music. He followed the sound to an open door.

Megatron was lying in a hot tub in the dim-litted room, his optics shut and his elbows and helm resting on the edge. Soundwave went in and made his precense known with a small sound in his throat. Megatron powered on his optics and smiled at the mech he had been waiting for.

"Come closer." He said. Soundwave took few steps forward and stopped. Megatron squinted his optics for the shortest moment, then powered them off again, his helm lying back on the edge of the tub.

How did he do it?

Megatron always made him confused. What had he done wrong now? And what was the purpose of that music? Did Megatron think he was this easy to bring down? A little lights and music and he would be caught like an animal? No way.

"Why won't you join me, Soundwave?" The Decepticon leader asked. The telepath moved a little.

"We were suppose to talk about the future." Soundwave reminded the mech.

"And you're saying we can't do it from here?"

Great. Now Soundwave felt insecure again. His self-confidence was once more broken. The telepath went to the silver mech and sat on the edge of the tub, right beside his leader's left elbow. Megatron smiled, but he still didn't open his optics.

He strecthed himself like a feline and yawned.

"Come here. It'll make wonders to your systems."

Soundwave was persistent. He was more and more convinced that this was just another way to play with him.

"No." He said sternly.

Megatron powered on his optics.

"No?"

Soundwave winced at the hurt look on his leader's face. Was he really hurt? Impossible. This was just a game. Soundwave began to loose his cool.

"Megatron, do you think I'm stupid? I see what you're trying to do here. And let me assure you; you won't get it. I'm out of here. Call me when you really are sorry and when you really want to talk."

The telepath got up and began to walk away.

"Wait, Soundwave!"

The telepath sighed and turned around again.

"You got it all wrong, Soundwave. I'm not trying to... I have to tell you something." Megatron swam toward Soundwave, grabbed the edge of the tub and glared at the telepath. He looked funny, hanging from the edge with that half-smile on his face. If Soundwave hadn't been so upset, he was sure he would laugh.

"It's sort of a sensitive subject, I hope you understand that this is not easy for me." Megatron climbed off the tub and moved to his Communications Officer.

Soundwave snorted.

"What, interfacing is a sensitive subject to you?"

"No, not interfacing. I asked you to live with me, to be my mate. Well, I want to take it a little further. It's something I should've asked you a long long time ago..."

Soundwave gasped in surprise as the silver mech kneeled before him, staring deep into his visor.

"Soundwave... You have always been loyal to me. When others have tried to overthrow me, to betray me, you have always stayed by my side. Even though I have been somewhat unfaithful to you, you never once left me. I'm sorry about Starscream..."

Megatron made a serious pause and stared at his palms.

"I've hurt you many times. And now I want to apologize to you, I want to change, for you. You know I'm no good, but I'm not completely rotten and evil either. There's much love deep down in me, and you know it, don't you?"

Soundwave nodded. Was this some new game or was the silver mech serious? Soundwave tried to read the mech's mind, but couldn't get through, as usual.

"Remember when you asked me to bond with you? I said no." Megatron turned to look at the telepath again.

"I have changed my mind. So I ask you; Soundwave, will you bond with me?"

Soundwave didn't find the answer. He wanted to say yes, he really did. But could he trust in Megatron's love? It was so twisted and tainted... Like the mech only wanted to use him. But... Megatron wouldn't ask if he didn't mean it.

"Do you love me?" Soundwave asked quietly. He was sure he wouldn't like the answer.

"That's not-"

"Important? Yes it is. Do you love me?"

Megatron moved uneasily and turned to look at his palms again.

"No... Not yet. But I'm certain I will, eventually."

Soundwave rubbed his chin. Not the answer he wanted to hear, but he had expected it. Could he trust the mech this time? It would be double the pain if he betrayed his love after bonding. And the silver mech had disappointed him more than once before. It could happen again.

"I'm on my knees Soundwave. Please, say yes. Everything will be different, I promise I will never hurt you again. My spark will be yours forever. Starscream is history, his dead. I need you."

Megatron touched the telepath's knee lightly. Soundwave moved away from the touch, it made his spark whirl with joy and he needed to think with his Processor, not his spark.

"So, you want to bond and that's it? We'll be bondmates and we'll live together? What about my creations? I won't abandon them, not even for you."

"I know. And you don't have to. They are a part of you, therefore they will become a part of me too. I want to have you by my side, as my bondmate, as my Second-In-Command and as my wedded."

Soundwave flinched.

"But isn't that rather dangerous? I would become a target to your enemies."

"Aren't you already a target to my enemies? Soundwave, what's wrong? You wanted this before, why not now?"

The Communications Officer kneeled in front of his leader and grasped his chin gently. He smelled high grade strongly in Megatron's breathe. Had he been drinking again?

"You're drunk, Megatron." He noted.

The silver mech snorted. "Tell me something I don't know."

Soundwave sighed and stroked Megatron's cheek.

"I love you and I want to bond with you. Just... I wish I could trust you."

"You don't trust me? Well, that's not surprising..."

Soundwave sighed. "Listen. This is not easy for either of us. I can't help the feeling that I'm making a terrible mistake by bonding with you. You've broke my heart twice before, no matter how loyal I was. Twice!"

The silver mech got up hastily and Soundwave mirrored him.

"I said I'm sorry!" Megatron growled.

Megatron's voice startled a certain Seeker hiding in the storage. Starscream pressed his audio against the wall and listened in.

"Yes. That's what you say. But are you really sorry? I don't think so. You loved Starscream. And what comes to that other time... I heard you had fun with Reflector. He actually boasted to me about it. All three of them against one of me. You didn't have the guts to tell me yourself. You don't know how much it hurt."

"I was drunk!"

"So are you now! You know nothing about commitment. And you don't know what you want."

Megatron didn't find anything to defend himself with. Soundwave was right.

"I have spent more than six millenias by your side and I have loved you with all my spark. You've taken me for granted all the time. When I offered you my spark you refused me. And now you suddenly want to bond? You only want me as painkiller for your sparkache, nothing more. I can live with you, but I won't bond with you unless it's for the right reasons."

As a response to Soundwave's words, Megatron turned his head away in shame.

"You still miss him, don't you?" Soundwave asked.

Megatron didn't need to answer, his expression and the whimper that escaped his lips betrayed him to the telepath. Soundwave nodded and turned around.

"Then there's no reason for us to bond. I don't want to be your rebound-mech." He said and walked out the room.

In only few seconds, he was outside the silver mech's quarters, the door closed behind him.

Walking towards his quarters, Soundwave sobbed quietly. Why was the one he loved the most the one who hurt him the most? The telepath felt his creations tugging at their connection, worried about him. He sent a reassuring wave to them and felt how they were at ease once more.

'Have to be more careful...' He thought and shut his mindwave sensors. That way his creations couldn't feel him and he couldn't feel anyone. That was good. The telepath didn't notice the huge shadow that followed him from a distance.

XXX

In the dim-litted room, Megatron roared with anger. He went to his recharging chamber and shut the radio on the way.

He sat on the edge of his berth, beside the high grade cubes.

No matter how much he hated it, Megatron had to admit that Soundwave was right. Bonding wouldn't change anything; they would both be trapped in a relationship where love was only one-sided. Megatron wanted Starscream back.

Megatron glared at the lilac liquid in the cubes with hunger.

'Drinking won't solve my problems...' He thought to himself and stood up. He took the cubes in his hands and went to the sink. He poured the high grade down the drain, then placed the empty cubes on his berth. He lied down beside them.

He was back to where he had started from. Soundwave was mad at him, Starscream was dead and he was alone. The more he thought, the more painful memories came to his mind. He replayed some of them upon his mind.

"I wasn't built to love."

The truth? Megatron snorted to himself. 'More like I wasn't built to be loved.' He thought. He had managed to override his programming because of Starscream.

Red optics, so alike his own, staring down on him with determination.

Small wings quivering beside him and a hand holding his.

A soft smile plastered on cute little lips.

"You may never learn to love me, but you can still care about me. And I don't have to hide my love anymore. Not from you, anyway. I want to do this. Besides, didn't you just say about a minute ago, that once I put my hand in the flame, there's no going back? Well, I think the flame just swallowed me whole..."

A joke to lessen the tension.

Had Starscream really been so... Tense and scared?

"It's all yours, Megatron."

A promise.

"Will it hurt?"

Fear in the red virgin optics of the Air Commander.

"No. It won't hurt."

"Then what are you waiting for?"

Megatron stopped playing the memory.

A sad whimper escaped his lips.

He was always waiting for something. Starscream, for example. He was still waiting for him to come back.

"I awaited for a sign. It was there and I didn't see it until it was too late. Who am I trying to fool here? I love him. I always will."

Megatron shut his optics and let his systems go to recharge mode.

In the storage, Starscream held his intakes. Megatron loved him?

'But why did he order me dead then? There's something very wrong here... And they were about to bond? What madness is this?' A sudden pang of jealousy attacked the Seeker's spark.

'I should be the one bonding with Megatron!'

'Starscream?'

The Seeker startled.

'Yes? Is Soundwave gone?' Starscream knew the telepath had left, but for Hellscream's sake, he acted as if he didn't know it.

'Affirmative. I'll follow him to make sure he won't return. Uhm... Are you alright? I felt something through our bond.'

'It was nothing, I'm fine.'

'Alright. Just worried about you. Now stay put. I'll come as soon as I can, love.'

'Ok...'

Hellscream retreated and Starscream's thoughts were his once more.

'Is this what I wanted?'

Starscream almost regretted his actions. Why did he poison the high grade? For the sake of revenge? Was it too late now? He shuddered at the thought of Megatron lying dead on the floor. And he was probably drinking even now...

'What is the matter with me? Why can't I just forget about him? I'm bonded to Hellscream.'

Starscream recalled the picture of Megatron killing his mother. His spark ached with anger and hurt.

Still, the Seeker couldn't quite dismiss the feeling of regret. Carefully, he unlocked the door and it quietly hissed open. Starscream peeked out.

Megatron was lying on his berth, legs sprawled and optics shut. He had a pile of high grade cubes beside him.

"Dear Primus... Are you dead?" Starscream whispered to himself in the silent room and moved in. He sat beside the silver mech and gently touched his chest. Starscream sighed in relief as he felt the pulse.

"So, you're not dead yet..." He glanced at all the empty cubes. Megatron wouldn't live to see tomorrow. The poison was strong, but slowly affecting. Maybe he would have enough time to say goodbye?

Starscream watched the shut optics. Slowly he began to sank into them. His lips touched the silver mech's nose.

"Shame on you, darling..." He whispered and captured the Decepticon leader's lips. It was a long kiss, Starscream didn't want to pull back. He winced as he felt a weak response. Starscream's spark began to pulse in the rhythm of love.

"Star... Scream..." Megatron muttered into the Seeker's mouth. The crimson red optics flashed to life. Scared, Starscream pulled back.

"You're back... You came back to me." The silver mech said dozily and smiled softly at the Seeker.

A whimper escaped Starscream's lips.

"I... Yes, I came back to you. But only to finish this." Starscream gathered himself.

"Finish what, my love?" Megatron sat up.

"You. I came here to finish you."

The shock on Megatron's face made Starscream turn his head away.

"Why?"

A simple question. But the answer wasn't that simple.

"I... Have alot of reasons. You betrayed me. I know you ordered me dead."

"Are you dead?" The silver mech asked. Wonder crossed his features. "Am I dead?"

Starscream shook his head. "No. I'm not dead. And you're not dead. Yet. But you soon will be."

Megatron laughed. "You don't want to kill me."

"I already have. I spiked your high grade. The poison in your systems makes you immobile, then it will slowly kill you."

The silver mech's optics widened. "What poison? I didn't..." Megatron's lips parted, then he smirked as he sat up on his berth. Surprised, Starscream took a step back. How could the silver mech still be so strong? The poison should've made him weak and immobile.

"I get it. This is another takeover-attempt. Am I right?"

The Seeker backed off as the fusion cannon rose.

"No! I would never-"

"Why are you doing this? I thought you loved me."

"I do!"

"Then why? Why do you want me dead? Because I ordered you dead after I found out about your disease? What was I suppose to do?! There's no room for sparklings in the Decepticon army. You would have done the same in my position."

Starscream frowned. "What disease?"

"You had amnesia."

Starscream chuckled dryly. "I had no slagging amnesia! That sparkling pushed me aside."

"But Soundwave said..." Megatron gasped. "He lied... He lied to me."

"What has Soundwave got to do with any of this? Whatever happened, you ordered me dead. You ordered my own wingmates to kill me. You are sometimes so foolish. They would never harm me, not even if their own lives were at stake. They care about me, unlike you."

Megatron growled. "I love you more than you deserve! You don't know what I've been through lately. You don't understand, little one, that I have risked more for you than for myself ever. And you come back only to finish me off? You have no reason to do that, I didn't know."

"You killed my mother!"

"What are you babbling about?"

"A lime green femme Seeker, at the doorsteps of the war, she spat on your face and you shot her!"

Megatron gasped in surprise.

"Lonestar... I didn't know she had a sparkling."

"That doesnt make it right! You had no reason to kill her!"

The silver mech growled.

"You know nothing of it! She betrayed me! I trusted her and she sold me to the Autobots!"

"You lie!"

"Keep telling that to yourself. Your mother was a whore and a traitor." Megatron squinted his optics. "I see that traitors breed more traitors."

"I'm not..." Starscream trailed off. "She loved me..." The Seeker began to sob.

"So do I! Why are you defying me again? I did what I had to do. She betrayed me first. And what comes to ordering you dead... Do you think I didn't regret it? I did. If I had the chance to make it right, I would. I love you. Please, forgive me."

"Never." Starscream snarled. "You messed with the wrong Seeker. I can't forgive you. Ever. It's over. You should've kept me around."

"I would have if I had known about your situation. I thought your disease was incurable. I thought you were lost forever. Soundwave said so."

"And you'd rather listen to Soundwave than your spark any day. I love you... But I hate you even more!"

Megatron didn't have the time to react as the null-ray hit his chest.

"Star..." His systems slipped offline and his optics slowly shuttered. As soon as he collapsed on his berth, Starscream fell on his knees.

"Forgive me..." He sobbed and hid his face in his palms.