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So many
Bright lights to cast a shadow
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A life that's so demanding
I get so weak
A love that's so demanding
I can't speak

I wrapped the towel tighter around me and glared down at him. He smiled like nothing was wrong and stood up. I backed away from him hitting the wall behind me. He smiled even more as he pressed his body against mine. I opened my mouth to scream, but he put his hand over my mouth and pressed down hard.

"Scream and I'll kill them as soon as they reach that door." Marcus took his hand off my mouth and kissed it instead before I had time to do anything. He pulled away and smiled. "Now listen I have what you want and I know you want it back no matter what. Just give me what I want."

Then he was gone, I sunk to the floor and stared straight ahead, it felt like my world was closing in on me and I couldn't move. After a few moments I was able to stand and make my way to my closet. I pulled on some under wear and a bra, not really watching what ones I pulled on. I opened my closet and pulled out a black tunic.

It reached my middle thigh and was short sleeved with a cross over v-neck; I knew Embry wouldn't like how low it was. I pulled on some bright red leggings, getting down on my knees I began to look at my shoes. I smiled as I pulled some high heeled boots out of the back of the closet. They were about knee high shiny with pointy toes. I pulled them on and zipped them up before standing. I wobbled a little bit before walking back into the bathroom to do my hair.

I pulled the towel off and let my blonde hair drop, I was jealous that I didn't get my mother's beautiful curls or even my dad's. Instead I got stick straight boring hair. I decided to curl it, I blow dried it and then put some curlers in it. I got out my make up out and began on that while I waited until it was time to take the curlers out. I put some smokey eye shadow on and then some black eyeliner, I knew people were going to think I was Goth, but I really didn't care.

After I was done with my make up I took out the curlers and watched as the curls fell around my face. I laughed and picked out on of my mother's head bands. But I stopped when I remembered my mother and Marcus, Marcus had her and I knew what he wanted. I sighed and grabbed the headband. It was black with a small black bow on the side; I pushed it in my hair and pulled out some curls to hang in the front.

I put some hair spray in my hair and grabbed a black heart pendent necklace putting it on; I was half way down the stairs when I remember I wanted earrings. I ran back up and put some black hoops into my ears. I ran back downstairs to a plate full of pancakes. When I looked up at Embry he was staring at me strangely.

"What babe?" I asked confused at his stares.
"Are you really wearing that today?" He pointed to my outfit and my smile faded.
"Yah I guess."
"Oh."

He didn't say anything else, so I just sat there and shoved the food into my mouth Edward came down the stairs and stopped and stared at me as I stood up to put my dishes in the sink. His eyes went up and down, then down again resting on my legs. I heard Embry cough behind me and Edward's eyes shot back up and away from me completely.

I walked up stairs to brush my teeth, but stopped outside of my bed room to see if Marcus was there, when he wasn't I went in. I brushed my teeth quickly and grabbed my book bag on the way downstairs. I went and sat by Embry on the couch, but he moved away from me pretending he forgot something upstairs. I sulked the rest of the morning until it was time to go. I walked out to the car and slammed the driver's door shut when I got in. Embry sat in the back.

I parked next to Tammy and Masen and got out stomping over to them fighting back tears. Tammy sprung up immediately and went to me while the guys got in a circle around the bed of the truck.

"What's wrong Aya?" Tammy put her arm around my shoulders.
"Embry is being such an ass. I have no idea what I did." I sat my bag on the ground and looked up at the sky as two fat tears rolled down my cheeks.
"Oh honey, did you ever stop to think this morning that Embry might think your dressing like that to get the other guys to look at you?" I looked back at her.
"But Embry knows that I love him."
"Aya just look at this way he knows, but no one else does."

I looked at her for a couple of seconds, she smiled and wiped away the tears and hugged me. I looked around the parking lot at all the guys staring at me, and then I looked at Embry who was looking at them too with a sad smile on his face. I gave my bag to Tammy and ran to Embry; he turned towards me as I jumped into his arms. He caught me around the waist and I put my arms around his neck. I pulled his face down to mine, I pressed my lips hard onto his showing everyone that he was mine and I was his.

--2 hours later--

I was walking towards Gerard's room to tell him about this morning, the whole scene wouldn't stop running through my mind. I was half way there when I was grabbed from behind and pulled into the janitor's closet. The door shut and I found myself standing in the darkness, I felt around for the door or something when my hand hit something hard and lifelike. I gasped and leaped back falling over into a bucket.

"Tell anyone about what I told you this morning and you mother dies before you can utter a single word."

I sat there on the floor for the awhile before the door opened and Gerard stood there staring at me, he reached out his hand and helped me up off the floor. I grabbed his hand, but didn't look at him. I looked down the hall and saw Jade standing down the hall looking at us. I looked away quickly and down the opposite way so that I wasn't looking at either of them.

"Why were you in there?" Gerard asked, reaching out for me, I stepped back and he let his arm fall.

"Does it matter?" I snapped, I turned away and walked towards my next class.

The whole time I walked way I fought the urge to turn around and scream everything that had happened. But I straightened my back and kept walking towards my next class like nothing was wrong, when really my whole world was crashing down on me. I quickly ducked into my classroom as soon as the bell rang. I felt the eyes of the guys on me as I made my way to the back seat.

I didn't listen the whole class time, I sat there and doodle endlessly on my notes, when the teacher called on me I didn't hear him. Mr. McClure finally came over and stopped in front of my desk. I looked up at him and when he looked down at me the angry look on his face wiped clean as soon as he met my eyes.

"Aya, do you want to go to the guidance consular?" He bent down so that he was eye level with me.
"Why would I want to do that? I'm fine." I looked straight at him, not getting why he wanted me to go the consoler.
"Aya when a student is crying in my class I tend to think that something is wrong."
"What?" I reached up and touched my face and was surprised to feel wetness. "Oh."
"Do you want to go?"
"Can I just go to the bathroom?" He nodded and signed me a pass. I didn't look at anyone as I made my way out of the way and towards the bathroom.

I stayed in the bathroom my next two classes until I heard the bell for lunch, but I didn't move to go. I sat there until I heard the door swing open and footsteps that stopped in front of my stall. A couple of seconds later the door swung open and there stood Tammy with a quarter in one hand and the other on her hip.

"Did you really stay in here the last two classes? You have Embry worried, he ran through this halls both passing periods looking for you. And not at human speed either." She popped her gum, walked into the stall, and shut it behind her.
"Tammy…" I began to gather my stuff and avoided her gaze.
"No Aya you're going to tell me what's wrong and why you're going out of your way to make Embry mad at you."
"I'm not I would never do that to Embry." I stood up and realized I should have stayed sitting down, there was hardly any room for both of us in here.
"Why all the hiding and the sulky moods then?" She popped her gum again.
"Not feeling all that well."

I pushed past her and out of the stall, there was a crowd of girls standing by the sink. They stared at me and Tammy as we walked out of the restroom. I went straight to the cafeteria after ditching my books in my locker, when I walked in I saw Embry sitting at our table looking at the door. When he saw me walk in he got out of his seat quickly and headed straight towards me.

"Aya where have you been? I looked all over for you the last two passing periods." He hugged me and I wrapped my small arms around his large middle.
"I was in the bathroom, didn't really feel all that well." I pulled away and looked at him. I stood on my tip toes and he smiled bending down to give me a kiss.
"Are you feeling better?" He asked running his fingertips through my hair, leaving one hand on my hip.
"Yah, just hungry."

We got in line, Embry with his hand on my hip while he used the other one to get my food. I saw the guys envious stares towards Embry. When we got to the check out Embry paid for my food which was a good thing since my purse was in my locker with all my money. We walked back to the table where Tammy was leaning into Masen's side with his arm wrapped around her. Edward was sitting there also, but was very quiet. He was also avoiding my gaze.

"What's up Edward?" I asked as I shoved a bite of pizza into my mouth and chewed.
"Nothing I'm just not looking at you just like Embry wanted." I gagged on my pizza and turned towards Embry.
"WHAT?" Embry handed me my Diet Coke with a guilty look on his face.
"I didn't like the way he looked you this morning, it was before you ran over and hugged me, but I didn't have time to tell him that I was sorry since I was looking for you the whole time during passing periods." He dunked his head and looked down at his lap. I shook my head and looked back at Edward.
"Edward you've know Embry the last 16 years of your life, you should know not to listen to him already."

Edward laughed and I ate the rest of my pizza. Embry stayed quiet beside me the rest of the time, eating his 3 slices in silence. When lunch was almost over and I was finishing off my Coke and I turn towards him. He met my eyes, but didn't smile, he thought I was mad at him. I kissed him to show him that I wasn't mad at him, that I was just joking around. When I pulled away he had a smile on his face and wrapped his arm around me again.

"Slut." I heard a girl behind me say, I turned around and stared at the girl from my French class, she was a silky brunette that thought she was better than everyone I was sure her name was Christy.
"Excuse me?" I heard Tammy say, I turned her and saw her staring at the girl.
"I wasn't talking to you." Christy said glaring at Tammy. "I was talking to your friend."
"I know who were talking about and what makes you think she's a slut?" Masen gripped Tammy's shoulder, but she paid no attention to him.
"Well just look at how she's dressed and how she is hanging all over Embry here." Christy lightly touched Embry's shoulder, making me angry right away.
"Excuse me whore I would like it if you took your filthy hand off my boyfriend's shoulder." I snapped at her, Embry turned towards me with wide eyes, but I wasn't looking at him, but at Christy.
"Boyfriend? Embry you said you were single? I mean how else do you explain what happened in the boys locker room last period." Christy said with a coy smile on her face. I turned towards Embry who had a very shocked expression on his face. I picked up Edward's orange soda and threw it Embry's face.
"Fuck you Embry DeGray."

I stood up and ran out of the cafeteria, I could hear two people running after me so I pushed myself harder and ran out of the school and towards the park. Tammy had been following me and being the full vampire she was caught me and we slammed into the ground ripping my leggings up the side. Edward came to a stop beside us.

"Aya…" Tammy only got my name out before I let out loud sobs, she wrapped her arms around me as Edward sat down next to us and rubbed my back with his hand. "Honey he's just a man and Christy is a huge slut. She's slept with half the football team, besides Masen."

Still her words didn't help, finally Tammy said she had to get back to school and she would also have Masen drive Embry home. Edward went back to the school and got our things and the car. When I saw him pull up I was laying on my side in the grass, thinking about how I did this at home, only in the sand. Edward came and picked me up placing me in the passenger seat, he knew I was not okay to drive.

When we got to the house Edward helped me inside the house and up to my room. He had to carry me up the stairs. I didn't know why it felt like this, I just thought Embry would never do this or betray me in some way. He sat me on my bed and began to walk out, but stopped when he saw that I just fell down and didn't take any thing off. He pulled off my boots and helped me with my leggings, he threw them in the trash.

He pulled off my head band, my necklace, and earrings putting them all on the desk next to the laptop. He hugged me and pulled the covers over my head. I laid there until my eyes started to water and I became tired.

--2 hours later--

I woke up to Edward and Embry screaming downstairs, Edward was doing most of the yelling. I got out of bed and noticed that I was still wearing what I went to school in, just minus the leggings. I got out of bed slowly and made my way to the dresser trying not to make any noise so I could hear what they were saying.

"WHY ARE YOU STANDING UP FOR HER? YOU'VE ALWAYS ACTED LIKE YOU HATED HER NOW YOU'RE ALL CARING! GET OVER YOURSELF AND MAKE UP YOUR MIND!" Embry yelled at Edward, I flinched he wasn't denying what Christy had said at all.
"I'VE NEVER HATED AYA! I HAD TO MAKE IT SEEM THAT WAY FOR STACIE! YOU'RE A FUCKING DICK FOR WHAT YOU DID TO HER! ALL SHE EVER DID WAS LOVE YOU AND YOU WENT AND BROKE HER HEART! I DON'T GET YOU! SHE DESERVES SO MUCH BETTER THAN YOU AND I HOPE SHE FINDS IT!" Edward yelled back, but then I heard a sound of someone punching someone.
"SHE'S MINE! NO ONE ELSE'S. YOU BETTER REMEMBER THAT EDWARD!"

I pulled off my tunic quickly and pulled on a tank top and sweat pants quickly. I heard the front door open and two people walked in. I opened my door and looked down the stairs, Gerard and Jade were standing there in their usually black outfits.

"We can hear you screaming all the way outside, Embry let go of Edward. Edward come over here and get calm. Where is Tori? There is something we need to discuss with her." Gerard said, Edward walked over a black circle already forming around his eye.

I sifted my weight and a floorboard creaked, Jade and Gerard both looked up and started up the steps I ran into my room, Gerard began to run up the stairs. I wrenched open my window and climbed out. Gerard came to my door and ran to the window. I looked back once and jumped, I landed with a soft thud and a smile on my face. I began to run, I heard Gerard jump as well and Jade open the front door.

At the end of our drive way sat Marcus with an evil smile on his face, I could hear Gerard catching up with me. Marcus opened the back seat and waved his hand motioning inside. I knew there were choices. I could go back to Embry and tell him I forgave him for whatever he did with Christy in the boy's locker room or I could get in Marcus's car and show him that I could make up my own mind.

But my mind wasn't working right that day, it choose the second choice and I jumped into the back seat, Marcus shut the door behind me. I peeked out the window and saw Gerard come to a stop where I was standing moments before. Marcus sped the car away and I realized my mistake. I tried ripping the door open, but he had it look from the outside.

"You made your choice Aya, now live with it."

Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I though I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

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