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The Perfect Storm

We had a case in Florida. One of the young women's parents received a DVD of her being tortured and raped. The father had a heart attack and died while watching it. You should have seen Hotch's face when I told him. It must be so hard for him to stay objective when it comes to cases like that. I can see how he's put himself in the place of the parents.

Gideon was the one to point out that there were two killers. It's not bad enough that we had one psycho out here, but give him a partner. I decided to stop asking myself what is wrong with people. The body of their latest victim was found as we made our way there. I don't want to think about what she looked like.

Hotch and Elle had the unenviable task of talking to her mother, and trying to get more information about her. Morgan and Gideon went to the dump sight, and Spence and I went to the police station so he could work on the victimology and could smooth the way.

It was strange to be there alone with Spence. It was the first time since I asked him out. We hadn't had a chance to go yet, and I was a lot more nervous than I thought I would be. He was all business and he wouldn't look at me while we were working.

We found more possible victims that were also beaten and strangled. I realized that the DVDs were sent to the mothers, and Spence said that the killers were angry because the mother pleaded on the air for their daughter's release. He said that they didn't want forgiveness or have remorse. It made me shiver to hear that.

Another girl disappeared around the time that Garcia found out that the killers were destroying the missing cars of the victims and selling the parts over state lines. Gideon, Morgan and the cops found a possible suspect, but he committed suicide by cop before they could question him.

We found his cell mate a guy named Tony Canardo. They arrested him and tried to get him to talk. He wouldn't say anything to us. His wife Amber came into the station looking like he'd beaten her and wearing a ring that had belonged to one of the victims. She looked pretty upset when Spence told her where it came from. Gideon talked her into going into talk to Tony. It turned out that she and Tony were the killers. She was abused, and raped, by her father and her brother, her mother refused to help her, so she turned into what her father was and killed those girls.

I know I said I wasn't going to say this again - but what is wrong with people? How could a woman do that to another woman? I'm just glad that we found that girl before she was killed.

So… here I am at the part of this entry that I've been avoiding. Spence and I met for coffee and he wasn't happy with the fact that we were there alone. He came right out and asked me why the others weren't there with us.

I told him that our friends didn't need to chaperone us on a date. So he said, "Why would you ask me out?"

I was a bit taken aback, but I tried not to show that I was really confused by his tone. "I really like you Spence. I wanted to spend time with you outside of work."

He said, "Is this about Lila?"

I was completely caught off guard by this and didn't know what to say.

We were sitting in a booth at the back of Sam's and I didn't want to have this conversation in public, but he didn't leave us any choice. He looked really pissed at me and all I could do was sit there.

"I told Garcia that it was over with Lila and me. I knew she'd tell you. I've seen the jealousy in your eyes every time Morgan mentioned her and teased me about her. I knew you'd ask me out."

"I hate profilers," was the only thing that I could say.

"And I hate jealousy," He said. "I hate seeing it in your eyes, and mostly I hate that now after almost a year, you decide that we could go out."

I was getting really mad by this time. I couldn't believe he was reacting this way. "I wasn't the one that said I only wanted to be friends." I was trying not to cry at this point.

"I said that because I knew that's what you wanted. You only went out with me because it was football and you wanted to go to the game," He said.

"That's not true… I really liked you and I still do." I tried to tell him.

"Do you really expect me to believe that when you jump right after my relationship with Lila ends?" He said

"Okay, I was jealous. What else do you want me to say?" I asked him and there was something in his eyes that warned me to be careful and it scared me a little.

"I don't want you to say anything. I just want you to come and talk to me when you want to know anything about me instead of going to Garcia, or listening to what Morgan has to say." He said.

"I'm sorry," I said.

He said, "I know you are. I really like you JJ and I have since the first day I saw you. I don't know how to act around you most of the time. I'm always afraid I'm going to do something to make you laugh at me."

"I'm sorry," I said again.

"I know," He said again. "I don't know what to do now."

"Can we just have a cup of coffee and talk?" I asked him and I was so afraid that he would leave and I'd never have another chance.

He stayed and we had several cups of coffee. It was three o'clock in the morning before we left the café. I asked him if we could get together again and have dinner or go to the movies. He said that he'd have to think about it and he just drove away.

I really messed things up…