Harry was having a hard time when he was released. He had got upset when he came home and found the nursery they had started setting up had been removed. Severus had thought it would be too painful a reminder for his husband right now. It had taken a week of assuring his husband it was all at home waiting and it had not been meant to hurt him to bring Harry home as he had fled in tears to his fathers. He had been released three days after the specialist had seen him. He threw himself unhealthily in the opinion of everyone who loved him into his work and coaching. Severus hoped once the procedure was done which he knew Harry was seriously spooked about, he might slowly start healing.

The weekend before the last week in November Harry was checked into the hospital. "This way you'll be home and recovered in December."

Harry sighed. "I guess I should be feeling well enough for Hermione and Aunt Petunia's weddings. I wish Aunt Petunia had not postponed hers for just me."

Petunia and her fiancé were to have been married two weeks before but with Harry barely out of the infirmary he could not have come. Tom was the one who had suggested waiting a month till mid December. It was just their kids and when his heard, they agreed to come December instead. Harry had protested but Petunia and he both said that they wanted their entire family there. And Harry was part of that.

Petunia had come in the door. "Besides Tom and I are not going on a honeymoon till a cruise at Christmas. This way our honeymoon is nearly right after."

Harry was surprised to see her for he had thought she was not coming till after. "I feel bad you are putting it on hold but I do want to be there. Thank Tom."

Petunia kissed his head. "Tom and Dudley are coming on Tuesday Harry. My boss gave me a few days off so I could come. Your dads are putting us up."

Really she was entitled to two days off so she had just combined the two from last week with the two from this and took one extra day so she could come for the days he was in the hospital. He had argued she had not needed to come that long but she had reminded him she had friends in London. As well it had been some time since she had been to the city for shopping and such. Most of that he knew was excuses to make him feel less guilty but he admitted it felt good to have her there.

Severus wanted to get his husband's mind off of the surgery so he turned to her. "Where are the two of you guys going?"

Petunia smiled. "We are booked for a two week cruise of the Caribbean. I have never been over to North America before so he thought it would be special."

He had arranged for them to spend a few days in New York on the way back as well. He knew that her last honeymoon had been a caravan trip into the lake country for three days for even then Vernon had been frugle.

Petunia saw her nephew's face drop. "What's wrong sweet heart?"

Harry looked at his husband. "I just feel bad I made Sev cancel our trip. We were supposed to go to Morocco..."

Severus had been the one actually who suggested it. He had told his husband if Harry still wanted to make the trip they would go. He just thought Harry would not be up for a trip a few weeks after surgery. Because of the treatment they could not be sexually active till January. He would have gone away anyways but Harry agreed. Harry's dads had worked it out with the travel agent for the couple to go for Easter, break, taking an extra day from classes so to including the weekends, have ten days. By then Harry and he would be able to be intimae again and he hoped maybe Harry would be comfortable trying for another baby.

Severus kissed him. "None of this is your fault my love. I want to go on the trip when you are up to it. I'll be happy to go in April I swear."

Harry settled back a bit. "I know we could have still gone as I'll only need a week to recover from this. But with the weddings and Emma's first real Christmas..."

It had been one of his reasons for Harry to consider it okay to postpone. He reminded his husband they would be out of town in a few weeks for his Aunt and then attending a wedding of Hermione and Viktor who were to marry here in the UK since it was both their homes now, on Boxing Day. Emma was finally old enough to enjoy her first Christmas as well so they would have a busy enough Christmas.

A nurse came in. "I need to start the magical IV's. Some of the medications take some hours so we have to start giving them to you tonight."

Petunia marvelled as she saw they were using a device basically like muggle IV's though there was no needle thankfully. "I never thought."

Smiling Severus distracted his husband who was no more fond of the wizard version of a needle then a muggle, that a lot of the wizard equipment was run off of magic and more advanced but every similar to muggle. With these medicines they needed to be slowly administered so could not be given as a basic potion like most.

The nurse finished. "You won't be knocked out till morning but I would not be surprised if you started getting tired. Don't fight it, you need the sleep."

Harry kept his eyes from his arm. "Thank you."

It was one of the things that Severus and Petunia both hated for they knew the procedure would be easier then muggle for it was magic and not invasive surgery but still Harry had been scared of hospitals and doctors for years. The IV was a constant reminder to him. As he slowly drifted off they continued talking and distracting him. Petunia left after he fell asleep but Severus was staying at the hospital and a second bed was added to the room. Being married to a Malfoy came in handy.

When Harry woke later the next evening his dads and brother were there too and the doctor had good news. "I was able to repair all of the scarring damage Harry."

Harry looked relieved. "That means I should not have trouble carrying next time?"

The doctor smiled and nodded. He said that if Harry had went as far as he did in pregnancy with all that scarring, with it repaired he'd be good. Well he'd have to watch what all pregnant people did, any stress or physical labour. He suggested while he could be intimate by January to hold off trying for a baby till at least February though to give his body some more time to recover from both the miscarriage and procedure.

Severus reached down and kissed him. "When you're ready even if not before our trip in April we will start trying again. I swear you'll have a baby in your arms."

Harry looked at Emma who his dad had passed to him. "I already have one in my arms but one of my own I want so bad."

Hugging his husband as best as he could without crushing his sister in law, Severus assured him they would. His dads and Aunt looked on and prayed that this time the Gods would truly bless them. The odds were even more in their favour this time. They were glad the boy had decided to postpone their trip. They did not think Harry could handle being away in Morocco so soon. Besides the romance of a trip in April would help them when ready, try for another. It would be still hard as Easter was the last weekend in April that month and only two weeks before Harry's due date. The fact he should have been over eight and a half months pregnant by Easter would be a painful blow to their son. They were happy he'd be home in May for them to help him through it.

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His recovery from the procedure had not been very long and though he was still burying himself more into his work then his husband felt healthy he had been in good enough shape to attend his Aunt's wedding in mid December. It had actually done Harry some good to spend a few days on the coast getting to know Tom's kids and him better for he had only met him two days when in the hospital. It had been a small civil ceremony followed by dinner at a fine restaurant but romantic. Petunia had the formal church wedding and reception once before as Tom had for he was a widow and this suited them both better. Harry had marvelled at how different the house she lived in was now. A very nice dethatched house, it had no plastic on furniture and her and her husband even had a dog and cat.

At Christmas time Harry and Severus went to the Manor. Draco and Blaise were spending Christmas Eve with Blaise's and Christmas day with the Malfoys. They would be leaving the day after Boxing Day for their honeymoon. They were invited and attending Hermione and Viktor's wedding on Boxing Day.

Harry was surprised when Draco and Blaise came over on the afternoon of Christmas Eve. "What are you guys doing here? I thought you were with Blaise's."

Draco hugged his brother. "We are for dinner but dad said the stone was ready and we wanted to be here with you Harry when you saw it."

Severus pulled his husband close for he saw the tears in Harry's eyes. His husband had not had a real good cry since the first few days. After the emotional basket case his husband had once been, it was starting to worry him at times. The memorial had been completed finally and was to be installed in the Malfoy family plot.

Lucius came and handed is son his cloak. "We are all going out there as a family. You know I had meant to show you before, when we spoke of my mother."

Harry's hands went to the pendent he wore about his neck to this day."I remember you telling me about grandmother the first summer you adopted me."

Harry still wore to this day two pendants around his neck. One was Sirius' marauder pendant and the other was the Slytherin pendant all snakes received though his was ivory and made as a gift from his grandmother to Lucius. Elaine Rossier-Malfoy had been a wonderful warm woman that Harry wished he had met. Even after Ginny had used the pendant during the framing after the attack, he had kept it. He felt a bone with Lucius ad his adoptive grandmother when he wore it.

Severus held tight to him. "I know this is going to be hard and if you want we can wait for a few days Harry."

Harry shook his head. "I want to see my little boy's stone. Waiting till after Christmas will not make this any easier."

Though he missed the baby as much as his husband he understood how different it was for Harry. Harry was the one who had the baby in him and who had that bond with the baby. Harry was also so young and a loss like that was so painful. Severus' own heart was broken as well but he could be strong for Harry. He agreed with his husband that waiting a few days would not be easier. They would just be thinking about it until they did.

Harry was surprised when Dobby appeared with bouquets, one of lilies and the other of pink roses. "For Masters to place. Dobby be sorry for loss."

Harry took the lilies. "Thank you Dobby this means a lot to me. Thank you."

Lucius was touched by the roses. They had been his mother's favourite. Dobby remembered that Lucius had taken roses to his mother every year as she had died around Christmas time. His father had not been an affectionate dad but he had loved his wife and son dearly. He had taken his son every year before he died. Dobby actually reappeared with a third bundle for Draco of daffodils. It was to place for his mother for her name meant daffodils. Severus promised his husband they would visit his parents' and godfather's grave before the Nee Year and his dads has said they would come.

When they got to the plot he went with his dad to see his grandmother for it was the first stone they came to. Lucius put down the roses. "I brought your grandsons."

Harry bent down and looked at the stone. "I wish I could have met you. Your pendant you gave father I wear even to bathe. I hope you watch over us."

Remus had accompanied Draco to his mother's stone. Narcissa could have been buried with the Blacks but Remus assured his husband there was room for both of his spouses next to him. Narcissa had been an amazing woman who had welcomed Remus as a brother. Since Draco was three she welcomed her husband's soul mate in her home eating at their table and playing with their son, sharing a bedroom with her husband. He probably mourned her death as much or more then Lucius. Lucius had been friends with her, forced into an arranged marriage and cared for her for the sake of the son she gave him. Like Lucius had always been close to his mother, Draco had always been very close to his. He had three dads, including Sev, all of whom unlike Abraxas had been warm caring dads but he still had her.

Draco, Blaise and Remus joined Harry, Sev and Lucius as they headed for the newest stone. Harry sunk down in front of it with the lilies in hand and reached out to trace the letters there. It was so cruel that this was the only thing he had of his son. If he had been pregnant another two weeks he'd have at least an ultrasound.

Harry was breaking down. "James Sirius Snape, his daddies' little angel, always in our hearts."

Severus held his husband close. "It is true Harry. I know it hurts, but he will always be with us."

Harry buried his head against his husband. "My little Jamie, Sev I can't do this. How do I do this?"

Not having words to comfort his husband he just held him as Harry cried. His dads and brother and Blaise were there with them and dinner that night was pretty subdued and Lucius wondered if Draco and Blaise were a bit relieved to leave. It was cruel to have to take their son to his baby's grave. As they watched Harry that night curled with his husband they thought how true the saying was, that no parent should ever outlive their child. No parent should ever have to visit their child's grave. The fact that Jamie was not born yet and Harry only two and a half months pregnant, did not reduce the pain.

Harry had a rough night and cried himself to sleep, Severus not only comforting but sharing in his tears but in the morning he seemed a bit better. They came down for gifts just after the boys got back. He managed some smiles as he helped his little sister unwrap.

Severus led him into the dinning room for dinner. "I know this had been a bit hard but you have done amazing."

Harry squeezed his hand. "I think going yesterday and not waiting was good for me. Seeing some sign my son actually existed, helped."

Severus had not planned on giving Harry the gift he had but he handed it to him. He had it made and was going to give it to Harry when they had their ultrasound but now it was not to be. He had it altered. It was a beautiful platinum rattle as most old bloods got at birth, and he had the name and an angel added to it with the crests.

Severus kissed his husband. "The angel is our Jamie, a little guardian angel who will watch over any others we might have."

He was worried when he saw a few tears again that he was wrong to give it but Harry pulled him into a kiss. "Thanks Sev. This means a lot to me."

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Boxing Day Harry managed to be in a better mood. He had woken up feeling better then he had in some time. He was going to see some of the Weasleys for the firs time that season for they had not gone to the Burrow at all for the holidays. Hermione and Viktor had invited some of them to come. Hermione and Viktor had decided to be married in a beautiful muggle setting. Viktor's parents were both wizards but in Bulgaria the wizards intermingled with muggles a lot. Muggle borns and marriage to muggles themselves were not uncommon in most countries. The UK was quite odd.

There was a beautiful park not far from where Hermione had grown up where there was a gazebo. Harry laughed for this kind of setting was usually for summer weddings but it was a short ceremony with an indoor reception and the couple had loved the snow and icicles, and the beauty out there. The muggle guests were all quite bundled up but the wizards and witches had warming spells on their muggle style clothes they wore, and heating spells in most cases. Hermione had opted for her mother's wedding gown and veil but for the ceremony she had a beautiful fur cloak over it. Harry stood for Hermione and Viktor's friend Alexei for him.

The minister started with Viktor. "Do you Viktor Boris Krum take Hermione as your wife, to love and to cherish, in good times and bad till death do you part?"

Viktor smiled. "I do."

The minister turned to Hermione. "Do you Hermione Jean Granger take Viktor as your husband, to love and to cherish, in good times and bad till death do you part?"

"I do."

Harry stepped forward and passed the ring to Viktor who as this was a muggle ceremony repeated a vow from the minister. "With this ring I thee wed."

Alexei handed the ring to Hermione. "With this ring I thee wed."

The minister united their hands. "By the powers given to me I pronounce that you are husband and wife. Viktor kiss your bride."

Smiling Harry could see Hermione was in tears as her husband drew her into his arms for a long passionate kiss before they and their witnesses went to the small table set up in the gazebo. They signed the wedding contract to make it official.

The minister called out. "Presenting for the first time Mr and Mrs Viktor and Hermione Krum."

Though the ceremony had been beautiful even the wizards were happy to wait for congratulations until they made it into the nearby hotel where the reception was being held in the large dinning room. The place had windows over looking the snow blanketed grounds and the room was done in blue and silver with a beautiful snowflake and icicle decor instead of Christmas. Hermione looked even more beautiful in just her gown and radiant with happiness in being a married woman.

Harry got her for the second dance as they had music first before the food. "I have never been to a muggle wedding before. It was odd to not have any lines."

Hermione kissed his cheek. "Muggle witnesses do not have to make any vows or pledges though you guys did sign the muggle and wizard contracts."

The Krums did business in the muggle world as well as in the wizard for Viktor's dad rented a lot of their land out to both kinds, so they had no problem with the muggle location especially since Hermione had more family then the Krums. There was a lovely sit down dinner of roast beef and the trimmings and there was a pile of gifts which again would not be at a wizard wedding but he was reminded of all the muggles.

As Hermione and Viktor were taking off for their honeymoon, well a night in a London hotel first Harry was curious. "Where are you taking my sister?"

Viktor smiled and hugged Harry thanking him for being there. "We are going to a house we rented on the Southern coast of Spain for the next ten days."

They had considered some more exotic places but it suited them both the best. He knew Draco and Blaise were heading off for two weeks to Tahiti the next day, the honeymoon planned by Lucius and Remus for them. Harry did not feel jealous. It was their honeymoons, he had two. Besides he was not ready to go away yet.

Severus kissed him as they danced one last time before they left. "This is the happiest and most at ease I have seen you in a long time."

Harry nodded. "Today reminded me life has to go on. I am trying Sev. I am sorry I was not ready for Morocco for tomorrow but I am getting back there."

Severus quieted him. "You only lost Jamie two months ago Harry, not even. Give yourself time. I'm still healing too. I promise. You know I am a patient man."

Sometimes Harry felt guilt he did not always remember his husband was mourning as well. Severus just told his husband Harry was helping him heal by allowing him to be there. By holding Harry and helping him through his pain, was helping him heal as well.

Harry relaxed in his arms. "Maybe Morocco will work the same magic that Ecuador did."