Severus was watching his husband sleeping. He was worried. Today was the day their son should have been born. It was a Friday but the Malfoys had left school the day before and all come home to the manor. They had not needed to ask the headmistress. She had known ahead of time Harry would need this. They had been intimate for months and actively trying for a baby for nearly a month now but today was going to be rough.

Harry slowly started coming around and he could see the surprise in his husband's face when he woke. "How long have you been watching me?"

Severus bent down and kissed him tenderly. "Not long my love. I just like watching you sleep."

Returning the kiss Harry had a smile but Severus knew Harry too well. As he watched his husband heading for the shower he wished he could reach Harry. He hated the pain his husband was suffering through. Harry had thrown himself back into his work the last week. He had to convince his husband to come away this weekend.

As they were heading for the manor for breakfast Harry sighed. "My teams have practices this weekend. I should be there for them."

Severus kissed him. "Harry we both need this weekend away. I won't force you to talk about it till you're ready but you need this."

Harry shook his head. "At least I brought some of the paper work with me. I mean I really should be marking and at practices."

His husband always ran from pain. He knew it would hit Harry like a load of bricks soon. All he could do was be there. His own heart was aching. But like when they lost Jamie he knew his husband's was worse. It was Harry who should have been in labour that day. He kept picturing the little boy his husband should have been holding in his arms that day. He should have been cutting the baby's cord and watching his husband nurse their son for the first time.

Lucius looked up from where he was trying to get Emma to eat her yogurt. "How are you feeling Harry?"

Harry bent down and kissed his sister on the head. "Fine father though I don't know why we are all here on a Friday. I should really be back at school right now."

Remus and his husband shared a look with Severus. They were really not surprised. They knew Harry would be avoiding this all day. Blaise and Draco would be arriving later that afternoon after work. They would be spending the weekend with their family at the manor. Severus was worried about their arrival. Harry was genuinely happy about the baby but he remembered his husband's pain when he saw the ultrasound. Seeing a six month pregnant Blaise would be quite a blow.

Remus watched his son during breakfast and after he asked. "How about the two of us head into London and maybe go and visit the twins?"

Harry was a bit surprised for they were having lunch on Sunday at the Burrow but he nodded. "I'd like that Dad. Unless Severus you have some plans for us."

Severus shook his head. "I think that sounds like a good idea. Besides I have some work I could do down here in the potions lab as well."

He had wanted to say no but he knew like Remus that Harry needed a distraction right now. Harry could not be forced to confront his pain right now. They were all hoping that he would come to it on his own. If anyone could help him open up it was his family. The twins he was probably the closest to.

Lucius put a hand on his old friend's arm. "He will talk about it. Maybe not today but this weekend. He knows you're here, we're here for him. And for you."

Severus sighed. "I know. And I should be happy he is not breaking down but I can't. I know this is killing him inside and I want to help him."

Sighing Lucius agreed with Severus. He knew his son was trying to be strong right now. It was what his son did. And part was protecting his family. Harry did not want his family worried about him. He did not want his husband to be upset either. He would burry his pain even if it was eating him alive inside. They had all believed they had got him past this stage. He had been opening up more and more. Now he was back to bottling things up.

Remus came into the room as Harry was getting his cloak. "I will try and get him to open up and the twins will as well. I am sure by Sunday night he will have."

Severus nodded. "Thank you for taking him Remus. I don't know what to do for him. I had thought when we tried for working for another, he might..."

Remus gave the same assurance to Severus that Lucius had and went to join his son. They did some shopping in the morning and after lunch went for the twins. He had hoped the twins could get him to talk but Harry barely managed a small smile. Harry had made no progress at all and when they returned to the manor Remus was as worried as Severus had been.

When Harry saw his brother and Blaise though when they came home it hit him like a ton of bricks. He turned to leave. "I am not feeling well. I need air."

Severus reached for him. "Harry, come on talk to me."

Harry looked at his brother's husband and what he had been refusing to think about all day struck him like a train. Blaise was over six months along and showing beautifully with his son now. Harry struggled against his husband's arms. He needed to get out of here. He had to get away. He could not look at Blaise right now. He needed to get out of here or he would break down.

Severus held him though. "It's okay Harry. It's okay to cry. I know it hurts. I know it hurts because I am in pain too. You can cry sweet heart, you can cry."

Harry saw his husband's tears and his own were coming. "It should be me. It should be my son. I should have had Jamie in my arms. I should have my little boy."

Collecting his husband as close as he could Severus held him as they both cried. Jamie, their son, their little boy who was never to be. Harry clung to his husband for dear life as he finally allowed Severus to comfort him. The family moved into the sitting room. Harry needed them there for him as much as his husband now.

Harry eventually drew away. "I'm sorry. I don't know why it hurts so badly. I thought I had moved past this. We are trying for another baby. But it hurts."

Lucius answered. "Today is the day your little boy was supposed to be born. No one could doubt it would be hard. It is why we came to be here with you both."

Dinner was a bit late that night as they spoke. Harry was ready to move on. He was happy they were trying again for a child. But the pain was understandable. His family needed him to know that. His husband's tears had made him see that at least in part. If Severus could cry so could he. They knew no matter how Harry had healed and started moving on, today was going to be rough. They had got him through today and they hoped it was the last hurtle for him.

Remus squeezed his hand. "Tomorrow we will all take flowers to your son's stone and then we're going to go out for dinner. This weekend is for the family Harry."

Harry managed a small grateful smile. "I would like that a lot. Thank you for being here. I don't think I could have done this weekend without you guys."

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Harry and Severus had both had another rough night. They had both spent most of the night in tears and had fallen asleep in each other's arms. The morning had been a throw away and it was not till lunch they appeared in the manor. It was after lunch that the family took him to see his son's stone again.

Harry laid the lilies down in front of his son. "My little Jamie, your daddy loves you. You should have been in my arms yesterday. I will never forget you. Ever."

Severus was by his side and kissed his fingers and put them to the stone. "Neither of us will little man. You will always be with us. Always in our hearts."

The dads and brothers all looked on. They were relieved to see though there were some tears it was no where the tears the last time they had been there. Harry had managed to come here without a full break down. Though he had not ventured from the gate house till after breakfast Severus assured them the morning was better. He and Harry had spoken about Jamie but also the baby they were trying for. He had seen a few smiles and he knew this weekend was good for Harry.

Severus reached down to help his husband to his feet. "We have reservations for dinner. Hermione and Viktor are going to join us as well."

Harry actually had a bit of a smile. "It will be nice to see them. I know Draco gets to see her all the time at work but it has been some time for me."

He received owls from Hermione a lot but she had been busy with her training lately. He knew next year would be even busier. She and Draco were starting their new jobs and their second year of training then. He had seen Viktor actually a week ago. He had a bit more of a flexible schedule then his wife. He had come to see quidditch at the school and to cheer Harry on as a coach.

Harry went with his husband to the gatehouse to get ready but he felt slightly light headed. "Sev I am not feeling very well."

Severus was worried for his husband did not get sick very often and he hated to admit it unless it was bad. "Maybe you should sit down for a bit."

He tried to direct his husband into a chair but Harry's light headed feeling turned into worse. He grabbed for his husband just before he passed out. Severus had luckily been right at his elbow and caught him before he hit the ground. Scared he scooped his husband into his arms and headed for the fireplace. First he summoned the house elf. He did not want Harry's dads to worry one way or another.

He was surprised when Dobby appeared but only for a moment. "What can I do for master? What be wrong with Master Harry?"

He sighed. "My husband is not feeling well. I don't want to worry his dads. Please just tell them we will meet them at the restaurant a bit late."

Before the elf left he made him promise not to tell Lucius that Harry was unconscious. He was not sure what was wrong. He hoped his husband was a bit over whelmed from the weekend. If there was something actually wrong with his husband he would contact the Malfoys. He took his husband through the floo.

When he got to the hospital he called for a nurse. "My husband has passed out and I don't know what is wrong with him,"

She ushered him into an exam room where he put Harry down on a bed. "I will have a healer in here soon."

He was worried about Harry. He had been telling himself that it was nothing more then exhaustion from the hard day the day before. But as he watched his husband who was still out he was not sure. He had not been this scared since they lost Jamie. When the healer came in his husband was starting to come around.

Harry was confused. "Where are we Sev?"

Severus kissed him. "I have brought you to the hospital Harry. You passed out and you have only now woken up."

The explanation was as much for the healer as for Harry. Harry was a bit shocked and he was looking scared. They both knew if he had simply fainted he should not have been out that long. The healer sent a reassuring smile and said it was not that unheard of. He started running a diagnostic.

He looked up finally. "Have the two of you been trying for a baby?"

Severus nodded. "For about a month now."

The man smiled. "Well I am happy to tell the two of you that you look to be about three weeks pregnant. I'd say you conceived at the end of Easter."

They realized with shock that the baby would have been conceived at the end of their trip to Morocco. The doctor assured them the pregnancy was progressing fine and that Harry must have just been a bit light headed. When he heard about the first miscarriage he added a few extra potions. He confirmed the baby would be due around the end of January.

As they were leaving Severus kissed him. "Remember my love the procedure will make it easier. We will have that baby in our arms this time. I promise."

Harry held to his husband. "I know. I can feel it. I know Jamie will watch over this little one. I will do everything to ensure this little one grows safe and strong."

They both would. There were still the usual worries of stress or physical labour. They would avoid all they had to. Harry would have a baby in his arms this time. They decided they would not tell his dads until they were all at the Burrow the next day. But they did tell Hermione and Viktor after dinner.

He kissed Hermione as they were leaving and whispered. "I jus found out I am three weeks pregnant. We're telling the family tomorrow."

Hermione was shocked but held him close. "Oh Harry I am so happy for you. If any one deserves a baby it is you and Severus. That is such amazing news."

He assured her she could tell her husband. He felt bad telling her first but she would not be at the Burrow the next day. He wanted the family together to tell. He had thought that it was a blessing to find out that weekend. Perhaps it was the Gods way of making him smile. This weekend had been a hard one. But in the mourning for his little son he was given the best news.

Severus was feeling the same way as they went to bed. "The silver lining on the greyest cloud. To find out the day after Jamie was to be born about this one."

Harry kissed his husband. "We will have it all this time won't we? I will have the ultrasound pictures and the baby showers, and the baby in my arms."

Pulling Harry against him he assured his husband they would. The nursery furniture would be found and brought out of storage. For a moment they had considered like Draco and Blaise, waiting this time to tell everyone till the three month mark but they wouldn't. This time things would work. They wanted to share the news.

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The Weasleys were happy to have the Malfoys and Snapes for dinner the next day. They had known how hard the weekend would be for Harry. The twins had told their parents they had seen Harry and had been worried. Remus had contacted them to assure them Harry had finally let down the boundaries. He had known Harry's brothers were really worried. He had also known they would share those worries with their parents and did not want the family to be panicked either.

Molly came over and hugged Harry. "We're glad to see you smiling Harry. We were a bit worried about you this weekend."

Harry returned the hug. "Friday was pretty hard. But I was reminded I had my husband and family. And the twins reminded I had all of you as well."

Being surrounded by his extended family Harry knew how lucky he had been of late. He had never had family like this when he was growing up. He and Severus were planning on heading to see his Aunt next weekend. He wanted to tell her in person about the baby and not simply in the mail. He knew she'd be so happy. It meant a lot to him she had been there when he lost the baby and then when he had the procedure later.

Fred came over. "You know you look like you're glowing little brother. I didn't notice on Friday but today I have. Is there something you are not telling us?"

Harry had been planning on waiting a bit but he shared a look with his husband. "How about we wait till everyone arrives and then we have some news?"

Though he had confirmed it for Fred no one else had heard or guessed. Fred smiled and pulled him into a second nod. He promised not to tell anyone. Harry had a feeling Fred might not have been the only one who had guessed. He was happy when the other guests finally arrived.

Lucius looked at his son and son in law. "You two look like the cats that ate the canaries over there. What is going on?"

Harry smiled. "It seems the Gods wanted to dry our tears this weekend, over the loss of Jamie. I found out yesterday that I am three weeks pregnant."

The news sent ripples through everyone. For a moment they stared at him wondering if it was true. They were all so thrilled for him. They agreed that the timing of finding out about the baby was definitely perfect. They understood why unlike Draco and Blaise they did not wait till the three month mark either.

Draco was the first one to hug him. "I am so happy for you guys. You'll have the baby this time Harry. I know you will have them in your arms soon enough."

Blaise hugged him as well. "And your son or daughter and our son will be the best of friends. To bad they won't be in the same year in school."

The rules were changing so that you had to be eleven by Christmas instead of the end of July, to start at school. Harry and Draco's babies would not go to school in the same year as each other. He knew they still would be as close as siblings. He and Draco would raise them together. There were no doubts in their minds.

Lucius pulled his son close. "We are so happy for you Harry. I told you it would be when it was ready. You know this family is all behind you."

Harry was in tears but for happy reasons this time. "I know. Thank you father. You have no idea how much the support of everyone here means to me and Sev"

He shared a look with his husband. Severus was never fond of the Weasleys before Harry but he agreed. He had no family to offer the baby. The Malfoys had been his family. This baby would have so much family to love and watch it grow up. But most importantly it would have two loving doting fathers to watch over them.

Remus raised a glass to make a toast. "To the memory of James Sirius who will never be forgotten. And to the news of the beautiful baby to come and their dads."