AN: I am sooo sorry for the wait! I have been sooo busy and I had a chance to write a chapter, but since no one was VOTING ON MY POLL, TELLING ME WHAT STORY TO UPDATE, I updated the most neglected, Singing to the Breaker. So sorry again, I am not completely sure if this is good, so tell me please.

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Chapter 24: Forever Broken

Previously:

I saw Edward. Lying on the ground, ghost-white and stock-still. His eyes were horror-filled and it looked like he was seeing nothing.

Just looking into those eyes…it reminded me of what I saw. Then, all of a sudden, it all clicked. He left me. He loved me one second, and the next he didn't. He had pretended to love me for his own amusement. Wait, no, he just fell out of love with me. I am confused.

I felt myself getting angry that he left me. I looked at his face, stone-white, but slowly returning to his normal pale complexion. I saw my memories again, all the happiness etched on my face. I haven't been that happy in a while. I haven't felt that happy since he left. He left and took my fragile heart with him. He always said I was fragile, but my most fragile part was the one he shattered into millions of pieces. My heart. And I am Iz now. I am not fragile anymore. Bella was the weak human who wasn't loved. Iz is the tough vampire who doesn't need love.

I felt my eyes fill with tears that would never fall. I might not need love, but I want it. Edward took the chance of love with him when he left.

Edward's eyes were focusing. What if he told me to leave again? Before he could break me completely, I did the only thing I could do, I ran.

I turned and ran through the forest surrounding the house. I ran faster than I have ever run before. I needed to get away, I finally figure out what happened to me, and I find that I was left behind. To die, alone. I am forever incomplete, forever broken. I now realized why Hiz and my own memory had tried to keep me from my past. It hurt to much. My subconscious was trying to keep me from living in the past. But when I decided to do it anyway, Hiz decided to show me. I guess I can call Hiz, Bella, now. Bella is human Iz anyway.

I was thinking and getting some good distance from me and the Cullens. When, with a blast of intuition, I realized that I really was alone. I didn't have the Cullens…Oh. My. God. Charlie is dead and so is Renee! And I killed…Jacob. And the rest of the pack. I mentally went back to that time to see if I felt remorse. I saw myself killing out of rage, I felt remorse for Jacob and Quil…but I killed so many…

I hit something hard and ran right through it. Out of surprise, I tripped over something too. I looked behind me and saw that I tripped over a log and ran through a tree. So that was the huge crash, humans will think it was an earthquake.

I got up and went over to examine the tree. I smelled blood. As I slowly circled the tree, I tried to fight down my fear that I crushed someone. I found the source of the blood, it was a chipmunk, no wonder I smelled a small amount. I sighed out of relief, when I saw, with horror, another chipmunk come over and sniff it. Then the alive chipmunk was poking the dead chipmunk with it's nose, trying to get it up. I swallowed down a sob, they probably loved each other. I was about to scream when I covered my mouth.

What was I thinking, THEY ARE CHIPMUNKS! It's no different than hunting, Iz. I looked at them again and had to stop myself from falling, for some reason, I was seeing the love in the alive chipmunk's eyes. And nothing in the dead one's. It reminded me of Edward and me. I was the dead one of course, except he was the one who killed me and he had no love in his eyes. His sorrow and pale-face was probably result of seeing his dead ex-girlfriend come back to haunt him.

When I thought of this, I did break down sobbing. I crumbled and cried. I cried for Edward, for the Cullens, for Jacob and the pack, for my mother and my father, for all my dead friends who helped me cope, for everyone I lost. I cried for Nicole, who I abandoned and left with people she didn't even know. I cried for all my friends who thought I had died, for everyone who care or cared about me. And lastly, I cried for myself, I was alone and everyone who wanted to be with me was dead or thought I was or I abandoned them. Everything I did was wrong. And my ruined life was all Edward's fault, the Cullen's fault.

No, it wasn't their fault that they couldn't love a dumb human. I was just a human, right? Why should vampires care to talk to me, let alone love me and want me in their family? They shouldn't, but that didn't keep me from hoping, or them from crushing that hope.

I stood up, brushing off my clothes. I was glad even more now that I couldn't cry tears, I would have drowned and my clothes would have been soaked from the sobbing I just did. When I looked up, I found the pale god that bent me and crushed me beyond repair.

"Edward."

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He was staring at me, openly. Like if he blinked, I would disappear. I wasn't fully looking in his eyes, I didn't want to see the emotion, I was afraid I would fall apart.

Looking anywhere but him was impossible, but it hurt to look at what I lost. I closed my eyes and focused on anything else. Willing the world to swallow me up, I scrunched up my eyes really tight.

I heard him come towards me, but I just squeezed my eyes tighter. Unconsciously, I had been holding my stomach tightly, trying not to tear at the seams. I heard him come all the way to where I was standing, and then I was airborne.

My eyes flew open and I noticed the stone arms around me. My eyes started closing in pleasure, until I realized that he was carrying me. My eyes were open again and I struggled to get loose, but he was holding on tighter than Ivory had. I was weak from my emotional break down, so I sighed and let it go. I noticed we were going the way I had come, of course, he was bringing me back. Not for me, but because he is the fastest and can catch me. I still had a lot to explain and they want to know. Then they will let me go, or leave themselves. And I will go to those vampires in…what is it called? Edward said…Volterra! The Volturi, you bother them if you want to die!

Edward suddenly stopped. We were in front of the house and everyone. Everyone immediately snapped their attention to the two vampires who had come back. Us, wonderful.

I looked up at the sky and noticed the sun was going down. The Cullens took the hint and ushered us inside. Once everyone was seated like before, everyone, including Nicole, looked at me expectantly. Here we go.

And I told them everything, no interruptions, they were too shocked. I told them everything I remembered, from when they left me. Including the details of the extent of the fights I was in. they listened silently. Once I was finished, I waited for the response that would decide the rest of my time on Earth.

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What do you think? I wrote all of this, but I am not sure if I should continue. I am not getting much positive feedback, the most reviews I have gotten for a chapter was 22. Did you know that some require at least 25 reviews? And the most I have gotten is 22? I feel unloved…L

Song of the day/week:

Oh it's deafening
The bitter truth
I'm doing everything for the first time again without you
I pretend I'm ok
But it aches inside
There's got to be a way that's better then just getting by

-Edwardjustproposed