Chapter 37

Everyone looked up at the voice in the doorway. There stood Jeff with an expressionless look on his face. KC looked at her friends and new what she had to do.

"Guys, can you give me a few minutes with Jeff. I think its time we talked."

Chris and Matt were both reluctant to leave but Amy knew it had to happen. "Come on guys, let's give them some space." KC looked gratefully at Amy as she led the two men from the room. She was still nervous though and Jeff had not come into the room completely.

"Are you going to stand there all day or are we going to talk?" KC asked.

Jeff slowly entered the room. While, yes, he had been with Trish, he couldn't help himself for thinking about his ex. While in rehab he started to think about everything he did to her over that last months of his relationship. He laid his hands on her. Matt told him that she said he hit her once by accident but he knew it wasn't an accident. This girl opened her heart to him and he fucked it up. He knew the relationship with Trish was over, especially after she hit KC tonight. It was time to really get his life back.

He sat next to KC on the couch and turned to look at her, his eyes drifting to her hands that were slowly stroking her belly.

"Were you ever going to tell me?"

"Yes Jeff, I was." KC sighed, knowing this wasn't going to be easy. "I had to make sure you were clean. I couldn't, no I wouldn't put our baby in danger if you were still using."

"I can't blame you Kace," Jeff said. KC looked up at Jeff, for months she had been longing to hear her nickname from him.

"I want you to be a part of this child's life but if you start using again you will never see him or her again. Is that clear?"

"Crystal," Jeff agreed. He started playing with his hands. "I've been thinking about how things were before you left. I'm sorry I put you through all that. The stuff Trish showed me was so convincing. When you all were at Matt's house, I just wanted to hurt you for hurting me." Jeff looked thoughtful for a moment. "You knew that day, you knew you were pregnant. When you said I was going to lose 'both of us' you meant you and the baby, didn't you?"

"Yes Jeff, I did. I found out the Wednesday before. I didn't want to use the baby as a reason for you to straighten up. I wanted you do to it for yourself."

Jeff looked over at KC, still thinking. "How did you get pregnant? We hadn't had sex in so long."

KC closed her eyes; she was hoping he wouldn't ask that question.

"Think back Jeff, remember when you hit me, and try to remember what caused that fight." KC stared intently at Jeff whose eyes became as big as saucers.



"Oh my God KC," Jeff began crying. "I never wanted to hurt you, let alone force you to do anything."

KC tentatively placed a hand on his shoulder. "You didn't force me exactly Jeff. We were fighting, it got heated, and we both wanted it. It was just a little to rough for me." When Jeff couldn't look at her she had to say what was left hung in the air. "You DID NOT rape me Jeff. I never told you no. In fact my body screamed yes. It was just a too rough for me. You didn't understand why I was upset. Yes you hurt me but you didn't mean to. It has taken me a long time to come to terms with that night. Yes, blaming you would have been easier. Hell, that's what caused the second fight. But we are both to blame for everything that went wrong."

Jeff looked at KC finally with relief and sadness mixed in his eyes. "How can we both be to blame when it was me getting high that caused all this?"

"Well, you certainly are the first one to blame but I turned a blind eye to it. I knew what was going on and I waited to long to do anything about it. In fact, I felt like a failure because I couldn't help you." At this KC began to let the tears she had been holding back begin to fall.

Jeff took her hand in his, relishing the way it always fit in his perfectly. "I failed you. You only tried to help me and instead all I did was hurt you. I have been clean over 60 days. I'm not going to lie, everyday is a struggle."

"I'm proud of you for being clean. I hope you stay that way this time. I need to know, do you think I am a whore?" KC looked into his eyes and new the answer before he spoke.

"Absolutely not."

"Good," KC said with a yawn. "Today has worn me out."

"I am going to leave you now," Jeff said. "But I think there are some other things that we need to discuss."

"Let me guess," KC said with a smile. "Does it have to do with the small basketball I'm walking around with?"

Jeff laughed. "Yes that's part of it. But first I need to do some house keeping of my own."

KC knew he was talking about Trish. "Take it easy on her. She is probably punishing herself worse enough."

Jeff looked at KC and smiled. "You amaze me. With everything that happened, you still show concern for her. Call me when you're ready to talk."

"Will do." KC sat back relieved. There was a gentle knock on the door. "Come in Fozzy!"

"How did you know it was me?" Chris walked in, wanting to see how his best friend was doing.

"I know you; you were pacing outside waiting for Jeff to leave." KC laughed when Chris scowled.

"Fine, I was pacing. I was worried. Can you blame me Skeeter?"



"No I can't. Just so you know the talk went well. It's a start. We are going to continue talking but I am setting the pace." KC smiled. "I saw my Jeff tonight."

"That's great just promise me you'll be careful."

"I will. Too much is at stake now." KC slowly rubbed her stomach and Chris knew what she was thinking about.

The Hardy locker room…

Jeff walked into the locker room feeling the best he's felt in months. He was smiling as he saw his brother and Amy fooling around on the couch. "Get a room," he yelled.

Amy and Matt both jumped. Shocked at the interruption but more shocked at the smile on Jeff's face.

"I take it the talk went well?" Matt asked.

"It went better than I hoped. I have a lot of repairs when it comes to relationships. Matt, I have a lot to repair when it comes to that girl I just left. There is too much at stake not to."

Amy got up and wrapped an arm around Jeff, glad to see him happy but still concerned none the less.

"How do you feel about the little bombshell KC dropped?" Amy herself was rocked over KC being pregnant. She could only imagine what Jeff could be feeling.

"Yeah man, how are you taking the whole daddy thing?" Matt asked as well.

"Well, at first I wanted to be pissed at her. I mean how could she keep my baby from me but after listening to her tonight, I'm surprised she let me know at all. If I was her I would have ran and never come back. That girl has more guts than anyone I have ever met."

"Jeff you sound surprised but think about what happened with her and Rey. She did that as a straight match. Whoever won, won. She fought till she was out of breath. I still don't understand how she pulled it out, man. Rey couldn't say shit to her after she won. What's scary about that is I don't think any of us thought she would win but she did."

"I know Matt. She was amazing that night. I fell in love with her even more that night. I know that if I was ever in match with her, straight like that one, I would probably get my ass kicked."

All three laughed because they knew it was true. KC was so tough. Silence quickly followed until Jeff looked up and spoke.

"I'm going to be a father."

Matt clapped his hand on his brother's back. "I know man, I know."