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Rating: Mentioning of sexual abuse and some swearing

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Chapter 7

"Alex? Alex can you hear me?" Dr. Bailey almost shouted at him. They had managed to move him to an empty exam room, undetected by anyone else. He was currently covered with about a ton of heating blankets that were supposed to raise his body temperature, so that it would soon be back to normal.

He had just started to kick slightly with one of his legs and was slowly regaining consciousness. He was still so fucking cold though. Too damn cold. This icy sensation had invaded his brain and so that all he really was able to feel was the pain from being a human pincushion. He just wished he could go back to sleep because it seemed as every inch of his body was being penetrated with pointy needles again and again and again. The piercing feeling seemed to evolve around his body from the top of his head down to his feet. Everything fucking hurt and why the hell wasn't anyone doing anything about it?

He moaned faintly and tried to roll onto his side to relieve at least some of the pressure on his spine, because it felt like it had already broken into a thousand pieces. However, he was immediately pushed back into the uncomfortable position.

That's when he though he heard her voice call his name and he tried in a desperate act to open his eyes.

"Laura" He mumbled almost inaudible without realising that it wasn't his little sister standing next to him, rubbing his shoulder. But instead of opening his eyes he once again fell into a restless sleep.

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"Laura, why did you do this to yourself?" Alex asked his little sister, who was still on psychiatric hold, since she refused to talk to anyone about what had happened and what she did to herself. He tried to lock eyes with her, but she started pacing through her room again, back and forth, like some caged animal that desperately tried to find a way to escape its keepers.

"Laura please talk to me." He pleaded with her but she kept quiet until he had enough and was about to stand up and leave. That's when his little sister turned around to face him.

"Why the hell did you save me Alex?" She asked with malice in her voice. He could tell immediately that she was being serious.

"Why would you ask that Laura? I'm your brother for crying out loud. Do you honestly think I'd just let you lie there on the fucking bathroom floor bleeding to death?" he asked back, taking a few steps towards her.

"Yeah, well, I'd rather be dead than going through this!" She pointed her finger around the room. "But thanks to you I'm stuck in here now!" She almost cried out.

Alex couldn't believe it. He potentially saved her life and all she could think about was how she'd rather be dead and how it was his fault. Apparently, everything was now his fault. Every damn thing. And he couldn't believe how much that actually hurt him. It was probably even worse than when he saw her covered in her own blood. At least now he knew that it wasn't all an accident and that she'd done this to herself on purpose.

Wasn't he reason enough for her to stay? Everything he did for her? Every time he tried to protect her? It made him feel kind of angry and he hated it. He seriously didn't wanted to be mad at his little sister, especially not after what she'd been through, but right now he could feel his temper rising.

"Why?" He asked in a hurtful voice but Laura apparently still didn't intend to answer it, so he tried again.

"It's a simple question Laura: Why?" he asked again, louder this time, causing Laura to stop pacing and stare at him.

"Because I wanted to escape that freaking hell we're living in each and every day. Is that enough for you?" She asked sarcastically before she started walking though the room again.

"I know we're covering this up because they would separate us and put us in different foster-care families, but for me it's not worth it anymore."

Those words stung Alex in the midst of his heart. She was basically saying that she didn't care about him at all. Apparently, she didn't love him the way he loved her.

"Fine" He simply replied and stormed out of her room, escaping the constricting smell of the hospital as fast as possible.

He didn't know that the night of the suicide attempt was also the night that their father had robbed Laura of her virginity in the most cruel and hurtful way.

Two hours later the hospital called. Laura had suffered a nervous breakdown.

Three hours later he was back in her room, holding her hand while she was sedated.

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"What are we gonna do now?" A concerned Meredith asked, looking at Dr. Bailey and Addison whom were both standing on either side of Alex's bed. 30 minutes had passed since he'd last mumbled something incoherently and she was really starting to grow worried about his condition. After all, it wasn't every day that she'd find one of her friends in a state like this.

"His temp's slowly rising Grey. Maybe we could get him another warm saline bag." She mentioned and George immediately left the room to go and warm up the requested fluids. "His heart rate looks fine for now, but we're gonna keep him here for observation for at least a day. It was a good thing that you found him when you did. I can't imagine what would have happened, had he stayed out there all night." Bailey explained to the younger resident.

They all had returned their attention towards Alex's sleeping frame, when suddenly Meredith broke the silence with the question that had bothered her ever since she's found him sitting in the rain, looking like a ghost.

"Do you know why he was out there? Did something happen today?" Meredith questioned the chief resident. She was sure that something had to have triggered his action to sit in the ice-cold rain for what she assumed to be hours. At this Addison, who had taken a seat next to her former intern's bed turned her head slightly and exchanged a meaningful glance with Miranda.

"Dr. Grey …..I…" Dr. Bailey began when Alex started to kick off the heating blankets without a warning. Miranda was more than thankful for this distraction, because she didn't want to be the one to tell what she'd found out to Alex's friend. He would have to do this himself. Even though she doubted that that was going to happen

She quickly lifted Alex eyelids and checked his reaction to light. Addison put a hand on his shoulder again and talked to him.

"Alex, can you hear me? It's Addison…..Dr. Montgomery…..Alex please say something." The redhead almost begged, quickly shaking his shoulder to get his attention.

"Laura?" Alex asked. It was the first name that popped into his head, because he'd just been dreaming about her.

"Who's Laura?" Meredith asked curiously but was cut off by Dr. Bailey

"Shut up Grey! Alex this is Dr. Bailey. Do you know where you are? Do you remember what happened?"

However, he was still unable to answer their questions and slightly lifted his eyelids only to close them again, because of the bright neon light that shone down on him. Thank god the coldness was slowly subsiding and he started to feel his arms and legs again. He tried to move around on the table but was held in place by the 3 women in the room.

"Alex I need you to wake up." Dr. Bailey said again and this time her resolute voice pierced straight though his still clouded brain and he opened his eyes, which cost him an awful lot of energy. Energy that he didn't really have at that moment.

"Where's Laura?" He demanded to know, still not being aware that this time he was lying on an examination table and not his sister. He struggled to sit up and suddenly realised that under the heating blankets he was only dressed in an ugly hospital gown, with nothing underneath.

"Where's Laura? I have to check on her!" Alex said again, this time even more determined. Addison and Dr. Bailey desperately tried to get him to lie back down, but didn't succeed when he threw off the blankets and pulled out his IV in the process.

"Alex you need to lie back down. You were hypothermic. Meredith found you sitting in the freezing rain. Do you remember any of this?"

The whole inquisition was getting on his nerves. He wasn't sick and he also couldn't remember what had happened only a few hours ago but suddenly Meredith's pleading voice filled the room, requesting him to lie down again and let them do their jobs, and he remembered that she'd found him.

Outside. In the rain. Which was exactly where he wanted to be again now that all the feelings and all the revelations came racing back. He wanted to sit in the ice-cold rain again right freaking now. He didn't want to feel anything and the rain had helped with that but right now he was seriously trying his hardest not to show any emotions at all. Which wasn't as easy for him as some might think it would be. He always had to try so hard and today was even worse, with the constant reminder of his childhood in the same hospital that he worked in.

His sister had been raped. By her father. By his father. By her own flesh and blood. How could he not have noticed this? How could he have been so stupid? God why was everything so fucked up in his life?

"Get out!" he half screamed with all the power he could muster at the three females who were staring at him and added a quiet "please" when he saw how Dr. Bailey's eyes assessed him.

"We'll give you a minute. But only a minute Karev." Dr. Bailey agreed and Alex nodded slightly, propping himself up on his elbows.

After they had left he couldn't hold it in anymore. It was just too much, almost unbearable. He couldn't help but think about how this was all his own damn fault when a silent tear slowly made it's way down his hot cheek. By the feel of it he was already running a fever. Great.

He should have stopped him from hurting them earlier. Should have done something about it before it got this far. Right now he really, seriously hated himself. Even more that usually and he felt the need to hurt himself because of it. However before he could think about this any longer he was startled by someone re-entering the room.

He quickly brushed away the tear with his hand and then looked at who it was that had come back that quickly.

"Alex, Dr. Bailey's still waiting outside but I just wanted to let you know that Laura's doing fine. She's sleeping in the ICU."

"Thanks" he mumbled a little to harshly, but somehow it just seemed that he couldn't turn the rudeness off whenever she was within 10 feet of him. Although he didn't really wanted to sound that way.

Addison nodded slightly and turned to leave again when she heard a quiet and sincere "Thank you Addison" coming from the other side of the room. She was quite taken aback by the change in the sound of his voice but not as impressed as the person who had spoken the words. They had been said against all instinct and therefore were probably the most genuine words she'd ever heard.

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