Chapter 32

Later that night…

KC had successfully avoided Jeff since their kiss. She made Chris take her shopping. Chris knew something was bothering her but he didn't want to ask out right but finally on their way home he had to know.

"Skeeter, what's wrong?" Chris asked glancing at his friend.

"Nothing Fozzy," KC replied. "Something happened and I am confused by it is all."

"What did Jeff do?"

"Why do you assume it was Jeff?" KC sighed when she saw the look Chris gave her. "It was me ok. Jeff kissed me this morning and I freaked out, ok!"

"Calm down KC," Chris said noticing how agitated she was. "Why did it freak you out?"

KC drew a deep breath. "It felt right Chris. It felt like it was when we were at the best spot in our relationship. I'm scared. What if this is all wrong? What if he starts using again? I can take it but I can't put my son through it."

Chris slowed the car down as he pulled into her driveway. He turned and looked at her as the car stopped. "You want to know what I honestly think? Can you handle it?"

"Since when have we pussy footed around each other? Spit it out."

"Well, you are using that baby as an excuse. You love Jeff. I was the one that was with you when everything went south. I know how twisted you were. I think you are petrified of feeling all that again. I think you and Jeff still need to talk. But I think maybe this morning was a step in the right direction."

"Was it Fozzy?" KC asked getting out of the car.

"Only time will tell Skeets." Chris grabbed the bags from the car and followed her towards the house.

KC was so preoccupied she didn't notice the four visitors sitting on her front porch. When she did she just shook her head.

"Am I operating a flop house or something?" she asked the group assembled before her.

"Well, if you let me I can move in tonight," Shannon replied playfully.

"Shannon, you're not housebroken yet," Amy replied from the swing making Shannon frown. "Besides KC is entitled to her own house with out you always in it."

"Why does everyone keep referring to me as a dog lately?" he pouted causing KC to giggle.

"Maybe because you try to hump every woman's leg you see Reject," Chris replied from behind KC.



"Or maybe because you constantly yap like an annoying Chihuahua," Matt added causing everyone but Shannon to laugh.

"Oh leave him alone," KC responded when she was able to control her laughter. She sat next to Shannon on the stairs. "Hey boyo, don't let them get you down. No matter what I still love you and you are welcome here anytime." She leaned over and rested her head on his shoulder.

"See Jeff, I told you she liked me best!" Shannon crowed happily.

KC lifted her head and looked at Jeff who was the only one who hasn't said a word.

"Now Shannon, you can't make KC play favorites, cause if she did, I would win," Chris said with a smirk.

"Enough of this," KC said. "I am assuming you are all here for food." Everyone looked down guiltily except for Jeff who still kept his eyes on KC. "Frankly, I'm pregnant and too tired to cook. Here's the plan, Chris take my shit I bought up to my room and take a shower. You smell. Matt and Shannon I want you to go order some pizzas and pick them up. I don't care what the rest of you want but I will have a pie with pepperoni, olives and pickles. Amy stop making that face one day you will understand. Ames please go into the kitchen and see if we need anything else from the store that the boys can pick up. Jeff, come take a walk with me." With that KC got up and began walking not waiting for Jeff to follow. She left the group in stunned silence.

"Is it just me or is she scary?" Matt asked in a whisper.

"Dude, that isn't even scary for her," Chris replied just as quietly.

"I don't here movement." KC shouted from where she was walking never turning around.

"Now that is scary," Amy said shuddering as everyone raced to complete their assignments.

Jeff ran to catch up to KC. Both kept walking not saying anything. Finally Jeff had to speak.

"I am sorry about this morning."

"Nero there is nothing to be sorry about," KC said. "It took me by surprise is all."

"We have been doing so well lately; I didn't want to mess things up." Jeff hung his head.

"Lift your head up. You did nothing wrong. I was serious when I said I wanted us to go slow, but I don't know if that is possible for us. I talked with Chris." KC stopped walking as she reached the front yard fence. She turned around and leaned on it, rubbing her belly as she faced Jeff.

"What did you guys talk about," Jeff asked not taking his eyes off of hers.

"Well, I told him about this morning and that I was scared that everything that happened in the past could happen again." KC couldn't help but feel bad as she saw the hurt look cross Jeff's face. "I know you say you won't use again or sleep around but no one can blame me for being gun shy."



"I know Kace. I refuse to let that rule my life again. When I lost you, I was so drugged out, I didn't realize until later how much I fucked my life up. In reality Trish and I were only together while I was high. I never want to put you or anyone else I love through that again."

"I need to know Nero, are you still going to meetings?"

"I won't lie; it's hard on the road. However I phone into my sponsor two times a week and attend a meeting whenever I'm home."

KC looked at Jeff and put her hand on his cheek. "You have know idea how proud I am of you. I wanted to see you and be with you the last few months. I had so much to share with you. But I knew you needed to straighten up on your own."

"Kace, you are the most important thing in my life. I will do whatever it takes to get back in your good graces and stay there."

KC lifted her arms and placed them on Jeff's shoulders. "I don't know about my graces but you are definitely in my heart." KC leaned in and kissed Jeff gently on the lips. As she pulled back she smiled. "Now, how long do you think it will take Uncle Mattie and the Reject to bring me my damn food?"

Jeff laughed and kissed KC gently. "I don't know but why don't we head back. I'm sure they will be here soon, lord knows you scared the shit out of us."

KC and Jeff laughed as they walked back to the house hand in hand.