Okay, I thought I wouldn't put this up to al least toorrow, but i got bored and it was already written and said "Why not?" So please reviw I just put up like 4 chapters, If you cout my chapter for Paris. I know Rose is OOC but so what. I like this Rose better.

R&R Please?

BELLA

I awoke from my sleep and I felt somebody's arm around me.

"Edward, I had the worst dream." I said, rolling over so I could face him, it was so dark, and I couldn't see his face.

"I'm sorry, it wasn't a dream." It wasn't Edward's voice that answered me.

"Jasper?" he pulled me closer to him. It felt so right. I felt so much safer than I did when I had been in Edward's arms. I wish I could Jasper how I have always loved him. Maybe not as much as I had Edward- when he was…alive- but I still always loved him. Even when he kept his distance I couldn't help watch him sometimes. He was beautiful. Yet, I always loved Edward more, but now he's…gone, and even though I still love him there's just something about Jasper that makes me incapable of keeping my mind from thinking about him. No, as much as I want to tell him I can't, it's too early and I'm just not quite ready and he probably isn't either.

"Please don't ever leave me."

"I couldn't do that if I tried." He softly whispered. "Are you hungry?"

"Not really," but my stomach betrayed me.

He laughed and said, "Come on, dinner time!" it sounded so right but there was something I needed to hear.

"Oh so what will you be have? I didn't know that you guy kept fresh blood in your refrigerator."

He laughed once more, "Dinner time for the human." He said exaggerating the word human. I sighed contently, it seemed just like yesterday it was Edward who was holding me, but this seem so much better… more right. As I was eating Emmett came bursting in with Esme.

"Esme, Bella talked to me yesterday, and I also heard her in Jasper's room talking to him!" Esme came over and hugged me lightly after Emmett finished his rant.

"That's wonderful sweetie, how are you feeling today?" she was so kind to me, she was the mother I needed during a time like this. I then looked over at Jasper, her gaze followed mine, and I looked back at her.

"I'm feeling a lot better than I did yesterday." She looked at Japer once more.

"I'm so very glad." Esme kissed me on the fore head and left. Rose came in then. She kissed Emmett briefly and came over and hugged me. Rose and I became closer when I was…not well. It had surprised me the first time she held me. I had looked up expecting to see the face of Esme, but instead I found hers. She looked at me and smiled that day. She told me tons of stuff; she just sat there talking to me, telling me how she wanted to be my friend and how she knew I needed somebody to be there, to be my girl friend. And even though I never talked back then, I didn't even nod, she knew I understood and had accepted.

"Oh Bella, I'm so happy! How are you feeling?" I again looked at Jasper; her gaze followed mine like Esme's did. She smiled when I looked back at her I smiled too.

"I feel much better."

"Do you think you could handle a trip to the mall?"

I hesitated, was I ready for that? I looked at Emmett, he smiled, I looked at Japer then, he too smiled, and I smiled in return. "I think I am" She looked at Jasper again, just like Esme had.

"We'll talk about it then." She whispered in my ear, do low that only I could hear, not even the people with super hearing could hear. As soon as I was done eating Rose dragged me out to the mall, some how she managed to find one that was open all night. I told her everything about Jasper. She squealed and told me I should go for it, but I told her I would, when I was ready and she dropped the subject. I bought a whole new wardrobe with my credit card. The next two years went just about the same. I continued to heal and Jasper and I became closer and closer. He sang me to sleep every night, and every morning when I woke up his arm was around my waist. I went shopping with Rose, and I eventually was back to my normal self.

Sorry about skipping around like that but it's something that will happen in the future for this story as well, but don't worry because somethings will happen that you will be glad i skipped over the just plain usual boring parts. The skips are no more then at least 3 years. If you think that i shouldn't skip years in the future then tell me in a review.