I APOLOGIZE FROM THE BOTTOM (and top) OF MY HEART! Unfortunately a lot has been going on with me. I had a couple of seizures (never had one before in my life) and then I had to pack up and move three states over to move back in with my parents. It's been crazy and my brain malfunctioned, but NOW, I'm back... and here's what you've been waiting for. - In this story "Bella" and Edward decide to make a little music. LEMONTASTIC!

Chapter 4: Cacophony of the Heart

My heart was beating wildly in my chest. I couldn't seem to catch my breath. "Why are you doing this?!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. But instead of it coming out full of authority as I intended, it came out in a mousy squeak.

My hair was starting to get damp and some of it was sticking to my face and shoulders. I cried out again but was met with a gleeful laugh. Anger bubbled up in my chest and then was pushed out again in a whoosh. The blue of the sky mixed with the green of the trees that mixed with the yellow of the sun. My stomach churned.

"I think you should put her down Emmett." Alice called out to him in a calm voice.

Emmett's raucous laughter rang in my ear as the air whooshed past. The world seemed to stand still after what seemed like ages, but my head continued on it's roller coaster ride. "Okay, fine." He laughed again.

My feet were set down on shaky ground and my eyes couldn't focus on anything. I reached my hands out to balance myself, and I found a smooth large, broad chest. "I think I'm going to throw up."

More laughter rang through the air as Emmett took a small step back. The world tilted unwillingly to the left and I went right along with it. But before my face and the earth could reunite, I was snatched up and almost flying through the air.

"Emmett, I would appreciate it if you could stop spinning her around, just to watch her stumble about." Edward said with the slightest bit of malice in his voice as he cradled me to his chest.

"Yeah, she does enough of that on her own." Jasper called out with a laugh. Emmett joined in the laughter and a severe frown graced my face.

"I'm not a doll, Emmett." I called to him when I was sure my stomach wouldn't slide up through my esophagus.

"I know, I know… But how else am I supposed to get entertained?" He asked, quite seriously, with a broad smile. His white teeth shone brightly in the light, clashing with the sparkling glow of his skin, and it seemed to stretch clear across his face. To anyone who didn't know the big lug, they would probably pee their pants. But I can't help but smile back whenever I see his dimples.

"You have a lovely wife, right there." Edward said gracefully pointing a long wintry finger at Rosalie, who sparkled in the light of the sun. She was stretched out in the grassy knoll just beside the bubbling brook of the meadow.

Emmett grinned widely and Edward chuckled. Rose's head darted over in our direction. "Don't even think about it." She warned.

"Think about what?" Emmett asked taking a slow exaggerated step towards her.

"Emmett… I mean it." Rosalie said not moving from her relaxed position.

"Honey, I have no idea what you're talking about." He said with an innocent expression. How he pulls off innocent, I'll never understand. Suddenly he was at her side and she was up on her feet and before I could blink they were gone. A sparkling blur disappearing into the trees.

"We'll see them tomorrow." Alice said in a bored matter-of-fact voice.

Edward chuckled again and then sat down in the grass, still holding me against his chest. "Still feeling nauseated, love?" He asked looking into my eyes and smoothing my hair back from my face.

"No." I answered. For some reason I still couldn't formulate words when he looked at me like that.

"Good." He said with a satisfied smile. He brought his lips down and kissed the area right under my jaw.

"Mmhmm." Was all I could manage. I cuddled up closely to his stone chest and rested my face in the crack of his shoulder and neck, inhaling his sweet scent. His arms encircled me and I shivered despite the blaring warmth of the sun.

It was an unusually sunny day in Forks, so the vampires decided to take a day and relax in the sunshine that this town so rarely sees. Jasper and Alice leaned back in the grass side by side on their elbows, heads touching. They watched the clouds go by and tried to make out shapes. But before Jasper could name any one of them Alice would give her opinion on it.

"I'm telling you. It looks like a guitar." Jasper argued.

"I say it looks more like a vase." Alice countered. "And don't even think about trying to make me change my mind." Jasper chuckled lightly.

"I don't see how they do it." I whispered into Edward's neck.

"Do what?" He asked distractedly.

"How they can be so at ease knowing what the other can do…"

"Well, we've all had a very long time to get to know each other."

"I know that… I just mean. How you all can stay so calm and not get annoyed by one another."

"We get annoyed, believe me we do." He corrected with a laugh. "We just figure we have all eternity and it would be pointless to get angry about little things."

"What about big things?" I asked quietly, tracing circles with my fingers along his shimmering arm.

"Big things too, I assume. We're a family. It would take a lot to tear us apart."

"What about us?"

Edward gently nudged my head up with his shoulder, so that he could look into my eyes. "Why don't you tell me what you really want to ask me?" His breath blew across my face and tears stung my eyes.

"It's nothing really. I was just thinking…" I started blinking them back.

"About…?"

"About us. And the fact that we plan on being together forever. But… what if something happens? What if something, big, ends up tearing us apart before we can even begin forever?"

Edward looked at me for a long time, searching my eyes. His, golden from a recent hunt, were full of so many questions. "Again, it would take a lot to tear us apart." He said with a sincere smile hinting at key words.

A smile spread across my own face in response to his, but I'm sure it didn't reach my eyes, because I didn't feel it. I didn't feel the same sense of trust and security that he felt, because I knew for a fact that I didn't deserve it. Not one single, solitary, ounce of it. I had broken my promise to him, twice. And feared deep down that it could very well happen again, despite my mind being dead set against it.

When Edward had come back from his trip my nerves were all in a jumble. Fear prevented me from smiling or getting too close to him, but love kept my face light and my hands linked with his. I was afraid to sleep at night because of what I might have dreamt about… and what I could have said...

"Are you all right?" Edward had asked that night, his arms wrapped securely around me.

"Fine." I had mumbled, my eyes wide open. But I was sure that he could hear the sound of my heart thundering in my chest. I had fought sleep until he started to sing my lullaby into my ear. And with that I dreamt of nothing but him.

That was almost a month ago. I hadn't heard from Jacob, nor did I try to contact him. Keeping a safe distance was key and it was also torture.

"What are you thinking?" Edward asked breaking into my thoughts. I didn't realize that I was still staring at him.

"Nothing." I said. My face flushed and I could almost bet that he took it as a blush.

"Well, nothing suits you." He said as his cool fingers came up to brush my cheek from temple to chin. That made me blush. He stared deep into my eyes for a while, dazzling me yet again. Then suddenly he looked away and to Alice.

A wide smile crossed her face and she nodded once. Jasper looked up at Edward with a smirk and Edward laughed out loud. It all happened in the blink of an eye, I was surprised I caught any of it.

"What was that about?" I asked when Edward's laughter died down.

"You'll see." He whispered with a lopsided grin. Then he was up and slinging me onto his back. "Hold on, love."

"Wait a min-" I tried to protest, but he was off like a shot. I wouldn't have been surprised if we were running along side a bullet. I shut my eyes tightly, and held on for dear life. I felt and heard the wind rushing past and nothing more. I cracked my eye open just a bit to see us flying through the trees, nearly missing them, like always. I hurried to close it back.

Soon the rushing wind came to a stop and Edward was chuckling softly. "We're here." He said lightly touching my arm. I could feel how tight they were around his neck when he touched me.

I looked up to see that we were at his house. I uncoiled myself, while he helped. But instead of setting my feet on the ground, he slung me up into his arms. "Oooh, more service." I laughed as I gently wrapped my arms back around his neck and kissed him lightly on the lips.

He laughed with me, "Your wish is my command."

"I've all ready got my wish." I cooed kissing his nose. Or did I? I felt doubt pulling at the strings of my heart while Edward held me closer and bounded up the stairs to his house.

With one hand he opened the door and then set me on my feet. He quickly placed a kiss on my lips and then spun me around covering my eyes.

"Whoa!" I cried as I felt the room spin. "I think I've had enough of that for one day."

"I'm sorry," He laughed. "I just wanted to surprise you."

"Uhh… Edward…" I groaned. "Did you buy me something?"

"No," He said, his voice covered in defense. "I bought me something." Edward cooed as he shuffled me forward. He dropped his hands from my face. "Ta-da!"

"You got a new one." I breathed as my eyes zeroed in on the brand new grand piano.

"Yes, I did. It was just delivered. When I saw it I immediately thought of you." His eyes danced when he said this. I caught sight of the inscription as we were heading the rest of the way towards it. "Bella Sinfonia. It means 'Beautiful Symphony' in Italian." My heart all but sank to the bottom of my feet. I wanted to kick it as he grabbed my hand and I was dragged along behind him to the piano.

"Ah." Was all I could manage as I admired the glossy black finish. My fingers lightly trailed over the expensive and large instrument. "Most have cost a pretty penny."

"It cost enough." Edward said with a dismissive shrug, the perfect picture of ease as he smoothly sat down on the stool. Of course he didn't worry about the price of a piano. Who would when they had all eternity? "I wrote you a new song. Would you like to hear it?" He asked, his eyes reminded me of a small child wanting desperately to please.

"Of course." I smiled sincerely. I could never turn down a musical concerto from Edward.

He smiled at me, his teeth flashed in the gleam of lights reflecting from the piano. His long smooth fingers stretched out about the keys and he closed his eyes as a beautiful symphony of sounds careened through the air. The intricate melody seemed a bit rushed, less melancholy than my lullaby. His fingers moved fluidly across the keys, each sound spiraling into the next.

I felt myself drifting toward him as I watched the movement of his fingers. His eyes opened slowly and landed on my own. He stared deeply into my eyes as the song seemed to envelop us in the moment. My heart soared as I felt the love flowing from his fingers. "What's it called?" I whispered.

"Resa Silenziosa." He murmured, his fingers perfectly coaxing the sounds into music.

I smiled and cocked my head to the side, hinting that I had no idea what he had just said.

His own smile widened. "Roughly translated, it means 'Silent Surrender'. Or, to be more accurate- My Unspoken Surrender. "

My smile faltered a bit and I struggled to keep it in place. I felt the tears threatening again, the beauty of the moment, tainted by thoughts of my indiscretions. A few escaped as the song floated to an end.

Edward sat and watched me as the tears flowed freely. Searching my eyes once again. He continued to watch as my face fell and a sob escaped my lips. He calmly reached out his hand, offering it to me instead of just taking my own hand.

I looked at his hand a little longer than I intended before placing mine in his cool grasp. He slowly pulled me to him, lifted me up, and then sat me on his lap. I swallowed and looked off into the wide expanse of the living room. "Do you need words?"

"What?" I asked, finally dragging my tear laden eyes back to him.

"Do you need words?" He asked again, wiping the tears from my eyes. "Do I need to tell you?"

"Edward…"

"Because I do. I surrender everything that I am to you. This shell, this still heart… every facet of this deplorable creature that I am… belongs to you. And you alone. I love you."

"I don't deserve you." I whispered.

"And I don't deserve you." He laughed. "But haven't we been through this? Haven't we been through enough to know that we can not be without each other?"

I didn't have to think to know that almost every word that he said was true. But I was sticking to the fact that it was I that didn't deserve him. I simply nodded my agreement, too despised with myself to hear my own voice.

Edward curled one finger under my chin and turned my face back towards him. "I need you."

A chill raced up and down my spine as he breathed the words across my face. Before I could answer him, his lips were devouring my own. The cold truth of his words pressing tantalizingly against me. I leaned my hand back and onto the keys, a cacophony of sounds rang in the air, as I shifted to straddle him on the stool.

I shivered again as his cool hands slid underneath my shirt, then he encircled my waist pulling me closer to him. My body melted into his chest, my arms wrapped around his neck, and my hands engaged in the hair on his head. I breathed him in with each breath, dizzy with a growing lust. "I love you…" He whispered breaking the kiss.

His lips found the skin around my mouth, my chin, my throat… inhaling, as he caressed. "And, I love you." I whispered back. I lifted my arms as he began to raise my shirt up and over my head. His lips then quickly found the hollow at the base of my throat. I leaned back against the piano to give him access, once again hitting the keys. The notes lingered in the air as Edward breathed my name against my skin.

He trailed kisses down to my breasts. His hands cupped each one over the fabric of my bra. My fingers gripped tighter in his bronze hair and my elbows continued to slide across the ivory keys, as the chill emanating from his body ran through my own. Edward's mouth found its way to my nipples, soaking the fabric that lay between.

My head fell back onto the piano reveling in the feel of him. His mouth, his hands, his strong legs beneath me, his own growing lust pressing against that now aching part of me. "Mmm, Edward…" Even his name rolling off of my tongue made me senseless.

He kissed his way back up to my lips, all care gone as he plunged his tongue into my mouth. I reached for the hem of his shirt and tugged up, with one lithe movement he sat back and removed it, then was back at my lips like he had never moved. His cool arms encircled my waist again, pressing me impossibly closer to his chest. "I want to do this right. Voglio fare l'amore con te."

"What?" I asked breathlessly, looking up into his scorching, golden eyes.

"I want to make love to you."

I felt the ache in the very core of me grow more fiery at his words. I also felt the tears threaten my eyes again. I placed my hands on the sides of his face and sighed deeply. "Edward…"

"Do you want me to make love to you?" He asked, sincerely, searching my eyes.

I nodded.

"Then say it." He prodded, a smile playing at his cold lips.

"I…" I started running my fingers over his bottom lip.

"Yes?"

"Want you…"

"Go on." He smiled sucking my finger into his mouth, carefully keeping his teeth away.

I leaned in, removing my finger and kissing him fully on the mouth. "To make love to me." I whispered.

A spark of something dark and beautiful flashed through his eyes as he smiled again. "With pleasure." He added before he attacked my mouth. He wrapped his arms securely around my waist, as I wrapped my legs around his. "Mmm.. ti desidero..."

"And what does that mean?" I asked with a small laugh between kisses.

"That I want you." He whispered.

"Tell me again."

"Ti desidero... Creiamo la nostra melodia." He cooed.

A soft moan escaped my lips as I let them travel around his mouth and chin just as he did the same. I felt our breathing become erratic as we continued to ravish each other. His arms tightened around me as I felt his hips slowly begin to press harder against me. I wanted to feel him inside of me right then and there, but I also wanted to prolong the moment. Don't rush it.

A small tremor erupted through my body as I felt his icy fingers shimmy up my spine and then to the clasp of my bra. He quickly unhooked it and I unwrapped my arms from around him to take it off, then threw it behind him and it fluttered to the floor near the bottom of the stairs.

I felt the tremor grow a bit stronger as he stood and placed my body on the keys, sending more notes resonating throughout the room. He leaned over and pressed me up against the cool glossy finish of the piano, kissing me more ardently than before.

His hands cupped my now bare breasts, squeezing them lightly and pinching my nipples between his fingers. The moan that started against his lips soon was let out as his head dipped and his tongue found the skin on my chest. He licked his way down to the very tip of each nipple, causing them to harden considerably, continuously repeating the action. I could feel the moisture gathering, and I knew he could sense it by the way my heart fluxed. The cool sensational feeling of his tongue zigzagged through that valley between my breasts, then kissed the area over my heart. "Mine." He breathed.

My heart beat increased slightly as the room spun a little. My hands gripped under the keys, trying to find some balance, some stability, even though I knew he would never let me fall. His hands soon gripped under me and he lifted me up higher and higher, trailing kisses down the middle of my stomach until he placed my feet on the piano stool. I ran my hands through his hair as his graceful fingers worked the button and zipper on my jeans.

He laid his hands on my hips, then slid them around to the back. He then slid his entire hands in to the top of my jeans, pulling me closer as he gripped my buttocks. "Mine." He said possessively with a smile, kissing the top of my panties, then slid them and my jeans down.

I laughed, but it was cut short as he slung me over his shoulder. While my feet were in the air I tried, unsuccessfully, to kick my jeans and shoes off. He laughed as he gently brought my now naked body down and sat it on the top of the piano. He brought his face down to my thighs and kissed each one, letting his hands slide down the length of my legs. I was instantly aware of the fact that I hadn't shaved, as his smooth hands caressed the stubble there. I blushed scarlet.

He looked up as he easily pulled off my failed attempts, then placed my bare feet on the keys. His smile widened as he caught my embarrassment. "I'm almost surprised that I'm not bleeding." He murmured in mock shock, as he inspected his hand.

"Shut up!" I giggled, kicking at him. But, of course, he was quicker than me. He caught my leg and brought it up to his angelic face and rubbed his cheek against it.

"If I could bleed, I would bleed happily for you." I blushed again as he turned his lips to it, placing gentle kisses on my stubbly leg. I leaned back on my elbows on the piano and smiled as he kissed his way up my leg, to my thigh. "I think this is one of my favorite parts of your body, besides your face." He said leaning on his hands over me.

"Oh really?" I smiled, crossing my legs.

"Oh yes." He said with a very serious face, uncrossing them, but letting his hand linger on the inside of my thigh.

"And why is that?" I asked, even though I was pretty sure I all ready knew the answer.

"Because..." He whispered leaning in closer to my face. "You just taste so good here." He slid his finger in and swirled it around that spot, delving into the moisture there, and then placed it into his mouth. "It's the only way I get to really taste you."

Another smile broke out across my face and I bit my bottom lip as my body reacted with a small jerk. I could think of another way, but I wasn't going to ruin his mood.

A satisfied smile spread across his face. "Delicious." He ducked his head and put my leg over his shoulder. He kissed the area around my opening and then swiped his long cool tongue along the length of my clit. I leaned back as he continued to sensuously tease and caress me. Circling around and around. His cool breath adding to the sensation.

My body arched off the piano as I felt his hand grip tighter on my thigh and his tongue got more involved. His lips moved against me as he began to growl. I could feel the vibrations flowing from his chest up to his mouth. Edward's other hand eased up, dipping into me, wetting his fingers. He caressed it gently, making the arch in my body much more prominent. I couldn't take it anymore...

"Come here." I breathed as I sat up. I reached my hands down and pulled his face up to mine. The smirk on his lips glistened from the excitement that he had caused, which made me all the more eager to feel him. I pressed my lips hungrily against his, tasting myself on his lips. "Make love to me." I moaned feeling his hands on my back.

Edward took a step back to remove his pants, which he did at his human pace. My body writhed as I watched, in complete awe of his glory, yet again. His smile widened as he felt the anticipation rolling off of me. I couldn't keep still. "You ready?"

"You have no idea."

He lightly sniffed the air and then licked his lips. "Oh... I think I have some." He took that one agonizingly slow step and closed the gap, I felt his stone cold skin rub against my legs, as his face drew slowly closer to mine. His sweet breath, coming just as fast as my own, was smooth as silk across my face. He inched closer and closer until our lips were a mere breath apart. His hands moved up my legs, past my thighs, and onto my hips, then he slid my body off the piano. I wrapped my legs around him and sighed with utter contentment.

He guided himself into me, holding me as tightly as he dared. His lips grazed a trail from my cheek, down my neck, and then across my shoulder. Slowly he moved our bodies together, melding into one another like ice into fire and then back again. He continued to move us, our mouths finding the other's again. My hands gripping around his shoulders, holding on to my everything.

Our breathing increased even more, as I wanted more of him. And just as if he could hear my thoughts he set me on my feet and spun me around. As he bent my body over the piano, I felt him re-enter me. Filling me to the brim. A deep moan escaped my lips, as my hands smacked the surface of the piano. My skin slapped against his, slowly. Again the comforting sound of flesh hitting stone filled my ears. The strings inside the piano echoed with each meeting, each thundering pound, of our bodies. His cool lips once again grazed the skin on my shoulder as he sucked on the skin there.

A growling moan ripped its way from Edward's chest, sending the vibrations along my spine. His movements began to increase as my breathing became louder and more shaky. My body was wedged between him and the piano, my breasts smashed against it's surface, while his hands gripped it, on each side of me. I held on while he continued to surge into me. My face pressed against the top, now slick with my sweat.

The piano began to shake, almost violently, the strings inside echoing loudly. The distinct sound of wood threatening to split caught my ear. My hands quickly found his. I pushed my body roughly against his and tried to pry his hands from the piano. I turned my head and kissed his jaw.

He caught control of himself and wrapped his arms around me, pulling us away from the piano. Before I knew it, I was kneeling on the stairs with his arms still wrapped around me. Edward's hand slid down and he pressed his fingers against the part of me that made me crazy. I felt the pressure increasing. "Oh God..."

"Come on... Canta per me..." He breathed heavily into my ear. He sucked my lobe into his mouth and bit down softly, careful not to break the skin.

The feeling of his teeth on my skin sent my senses spiraling. His movements sped up as he sensed my upcoming release. My body shook as another moan poured it's way past my lips. I braced my hands on the stair above me.

Edward's arms soon left my body and his hands gripped the railings on either side of us. He continued to pound into me, sending my teeth knocking and my breath short. I was no longer in control as the screaming moans tore from my chest. My nails scratched, then my fists pounded at the stair.

My heart screamed and my body reacted as I felt Edward's shaking body vibrate through me. The sounds of our frenzied screams mixed with a cracking sound as he spilled into me and I came all around him. Our bodies continued to shake as we both came down from our high. I sighed as my legs gave way and I went crashing onto the stairs, with Edward's cold wet body on top of me.

Soon I felt his arms wrap around me again and then he lifted me into the air. I found the source of the cracking sound, the now splintered railings, and chuckled. "Well, at least it wasn't your new piano."

"If I wasn't all ready dead, I would be in trouble." He laughed. He lay down on the rug near the piano, draping me over his cool body. My muscles relaxed completely as we settled on the floor. The sweat from my body mixed with the temperature from his skin, making me shiver. "You're cold." He stated preparing to move.

"Nooo." I whined as I grasped at his stony skin. "Don't move. I'm fine."

"Are you sure?"

"Positive." I smiled, lying my head in between his neck and shoulder, sighing as I breathing the mixture of us in.

He began to rub his hands along my bare skin, trying to cause the friction to warm me. "I love you."

"I love you too." I said with a smile.

"Se battesse ancora, saresti l'eco del mio cuore."

My smiled widened, not knowing what he said, but loving the sound of it. I listened to our breathing and felt myself drifting into a state of calm. Something I hadn't felt in a while, lying in the alabaster safety of his arms.