~*AN*~
Sometimes life just isn't the way you hope it to be. But I am a writer, so the story must go on whether or not I am happy. Enjoy.
~*Chapter V: Old Friends*~
Facing my own fears, I wonder if I can manage to find enough courage to do so. By now, I should've learned to move on with my own life. It's just so hard when you look back and see how horribly wrong your life went when you thought things were going great. I still can't accept the fact that the love of my life turned on me with a person who I considered to be my best friend. I honestly don't know what to do anymore. Should I tell someone my problems or just push them to the back of my mind again. I couldn't sleep, so for the remainder of the evening, I sat outside on the balcony thinking about my troubles.
~Andrew's Place~
'I wonder how Sere will react when she runs into Darien again?' Andrew thought to himself, pacing back and forth in his bedroom. Things just couldn't get any worse for him at this particular moment in life. On one hand, he has been a friend with Darien for so many years, and on the other hand there is Sere. The woman who he has grown to love and car about so dearly, not to mention he practically grew up with her. Choosing between a friend and a possible love was just not something he saw himself doing. 'Darien did break her heart though, so I have a right to be angry with him,' he argued. 'Then again, how can I go after one of my best friend's ex girlfriends? And it's against an understood bond between friends,' he argued back. "God, I feel like I'm going insane thinking about this! What on earth was I thinking in the first place?" he yelled, pulling on a few locks on his hair.
Suddenly, the phone rings, interrupting any other thoughts in his mind. "Hello?" answered Andrew tiredly.
"Hey Drew, what's up? Sorry to call at such an hour, but I have a favor to ask of you," said the voice on the other end of the receiver. Just when things were driving him crazy, Darien Shields of all the people in the world had to call him.
"What is it now?" asked Andrew, rolling his eyes as he sat down on his bed.
"Well, I was wondering if you could meet me up at the café downtown to discuss some things," replied Darien stoically. Ever since Sere had left him all those years ago, Darien Shields had devoted himself to his work and had not kept in touch with Andrew much. Only on those occasions when he would obsess about getting Sere back would he call him up.
'Oh lord, what now?' muttered Andrew inwardly. "I'm a little busy this week, can't it wait?" answered Andrew, beginning to get annoyed with his friend.
"Well, not really. But since you're busy, we can reschedule I suppose," replied Darien. "So hey, have you spoken to any of the girls lately?" he asked suddenly. Shaking his head, Andrew knew this conversation had some other point to it.
"Not really, I'm not as close to them as you are remember?" retorted Andrew. Sometimes he thought Darien was mindless. "Besides, why would I keep up to date with them, the only person I ever held dear to me was her," he added, just to agitate Darien a little.
"You're right, sorry I asked," said Darien, stirred up by the topic. "You wouldn't have heard from her have you?" he asked, curious as to know of how she was doing.
"Even if I did, I wouldn't let the likes of you know. You truly don't get it do you Darien? You messed up, so live with it," yelled Andrew angrily, slamming the phone back onto its receiver and storming out of his room. He couldn't believe Darien would think he would ever have another chance with Sere. After all he put her through, he doesn't even think about how she feels and what it has done to her life. "If only you knew Darien. If only you knew," whispered Andrew, staring blankly out the window.
~Next Day~
"Mama, wake up! It's time to go see the city!" cried Keith happily as he jumped up and down on my bed. Sometimes I wondered what the boy had in his body that enabled him to get up at such ungodly hours. It never ceased to amaze me if he was up by 7am ever morning, psyched up about the day ahead of him.
"Okay sweetie, give me a few minutes to wake up and we'll go," I replied, slipping into my fleece robe and heading over towards the restroom. After washing up and getting dressed, Keith and I ordered up some room service for breakfast. We finished around 8:30 and gave Jason a wake up call around the same time.
"So what do I get to see first?" Keith asked me excitedly. He had this huge smile on his face and his eyes sparkled like stars on a dark night. It was so cute looking at him that I couldn't help but laugh.
"We'll stop by Tokyo Towers so you can get a view of the whole city where I grew up, then we can go to the mall and do some shopping, maybe buy grandma and grandpa some presents?" I told him, seeing his smile spread even wider as he took of jumping with glee. It took Jason about half an hour to get dressed before we could head out.
"You look tired Sere," whispered Jason when he saw me sitting there with an overly cheerful Keith in my laps. I nodded, knowing what he was referring to. There were bags under my eyes and I was looking more pale than normal. "Something on your mind?" he asked, looking at me with concern in his eyes.
"No, just a little worn out. Must be the jet lag and readjusting to the time changes," I lied, knowing that he wouldn't buy my excuse but would accept it for now. We visited all the places I had told Keith we would see and then went to the mall to get gifts for my family. He decided to buy a big picture frame, so that we could all take a picture together and place it on my parent's mantel next to one of our old family portraits. That was he would have something to take home with him as a reminder of his family. I thought it was a sweet idea and urged him to buy some other gifts for everyone as well.
After we decided that we had bought more than enough gifts, I dropped Keith off at my parents' house so he could spend some alone time to get to know them better and headed out to the park with Jason. I wanted him to see the place I always came to when I had things on my mind. It was something I thought he would like to see, since it was a remarkable place with great scenery surrounding it. We talked over a few things dealing with the company back home before I decided to let Jason know about my entire past.
"So all this time I had thought that Keith was the son of the person you used to love, but he really isn't?" asked Jason still a little confused. I suppose he really didn't think I was that type of person, but after I explained to him the situation, he understood everything. "Do you at least know who the father is?" he asked, concerned that Keith might have to live a life without knowing his father. Jason had took the place of Keith's missing father ever since I had brought him into the world, so it was only natural that Jason be concerned for Keith's future.
"Yes, I do actually. I'm just not ready to let him know thought, it would be so awkward, since I still have so much unsettled business," I answered, smiling sadly.
"So why don't you try to get in contact with those people and get everything over with so you can let Keith see his father for the first time, I know it would mean the world to him," replied Jason, gripping onto my hands tightly. "You know I will support you no matter what the outcome will be," he added, hoping I understood what he was trying to do.
"I know, I plan on doing that soon," I told him, looking out at the lake as the sun was starting to set. "You know, this very bench was the one Darien and I used to spend so much time at," I said absentmindedly. "It stills looks the same, everything was just the way I left it," I whispered, looking all around at the park.
"Let's go, I think you need to get some rest. It's getting cold out anyway," said Jason, heading back toward the car before me so I could have some quiet time to myself.
After we got into the car, I gave my mom a call and asked her if Keith could spend the night. When she heard the news, she was delighted and instantly agreed to my idea. Jason and I headed back to the hotel afterwards.
"I think I'm going to go for a drive," I said just as we both got out of the car. Jason turned and looked at me worriedly. "Don't worry, I just wanted to stop by an old friend's house for a little," I told him, taking the keys from his hands and getting back into the car. "You should get some rest, I heard you have a lot of paperwork that is going to be sent over tomorrow morning," I suggested, laughing when I saw the look on his face.
"Why didn't you tell me?" Jason asked, shocked that his work had been piling up this entire time. I shrugged, hoping he'd forgive me for delaying his messages. I took the liberty of giving him some time to relax, since he never gets a vacation, I thought he should actually rest on his first time away from work.
"Thank me later dork," I laughed. "Better get a move on," I said before starting the engine and taking off. Looking back through the rear view mirror, I could see him still standing there as I drove away. 'Sometimes he was just a little too much for me to handle,' I thought, shaking my head with a smile. "I guess it's time to give Miss Mina a visit," I said to myself, taking a deep breath as I headed over to her house.
After all these years, I had realized that I had hurt a lot of my friends, the ones who would never think of hurting me in the first place. I felt so bad, I wasn't sure if asking them for forgiveness was the right thing to do anymore. After all, I had abandoned them, why should I deserve to be forgiven right? Yet I feel that I at least owe them a visit, after all they've done for me. So, swallowing my own pride, I decided to visit my three closest friends. Amy Mitchell, Mina Ashton, and Lita Kingsley; I had met them my first year in middle school, and we had quickly become friends.
~*AN*~
Sorry it's so short, but that's all I'm capable of doing in this state of mind.
Sometimes life just isn't the way you hope it to be. But I am a writer, so the story must go on whether or not I am happy. Enjoy.
~*Chapter V: Old Friends*~
Facing my own fears, I wonder if I can manage to find enough courage to do so. By now, I should've learned to move on with my own life. It's just so hard when you look back and see how horribly wrong your life went when you thought things were going great. I still can't accept the fact that the love of my life turned on me with a person who I considered to be my best friend. I honestly don't know what to do anymore. Should I tell someone my problems or just push them to the back of my mind again. I couldn't sleep, so for the remainder of the evening, I sat outside on the balcony thinking about my troubles.
~Andrew's Place~
'I wonder how Sere will react when she runs into Darien again?' Andrew thought to himself, pacing back and forth in his bedroom. Things just couldn't get any worse for him at this particular moment in life. On one hand, he has been a friend with Darien for so many years, and on the other hand there is Sere. The woman who he has grown to love and car about so dearly, not to mention he practically grew up with her. Choosing between a friend and a possible love was just not something he saw himself doing. 'Darien did break her heart though, so I have a right to be angry with him,' he argued. 'Then again, how can I go after one of my best friend's ex girlfriends? And it's against an understood bond between friends,' he argued back. "God, I feel like I'm going insane thinking about this! What on earth was I thinking in the first place?" he yelled, pulling on a few locks on his hair.
Suddenly, the phone rings, interrupting any other thoughts in his mind. "Hello?" answered Andrew tiredly.
"Hey Drew, what's up? Sorry to call at such an hour, but I have a favor to ask of you," said the voice on the other end of the receiver. Just when things were driving him crazy, Darien Shields of all the people in the world had to call him.
"What is it now?" asked Andrew, rolling his eyes as he sat down on his bed.
"Well, I was wondering if you could meet me up at the café downtown to discuss some things," replied Darien stoically. Ever since Sere had left him all those years ago, Darien Shields had devoted himself to his work and had not kept in touch with Andrew much. Only on those occasions when he would obsess about getting Sere back would he call him up.
'Oh lord, what now?' muttered Andrew inwardly. "I'm a little busy this week, can't it wait?" answered Andrew, beginning to get annoyed with his friend.
"Well, not really. But since you're busy, we can reschedule I suppose," replied Darien. "So hey, have you spoken to any of the girls lately?" he asked suddenly. Shaking his head, Andrew knew this conversation had some other point to it.
"Not really, I'm not as close to them as you are remember?" retorted Andrew. Sometimes he thought Darien was mindless. "Besides, why would I keep up to date with them, the only person I ever held dear to me was her," he added, just to agitate Darien a little.
"You're right, sorry I asked," said Darien, stirred up by the topic. "You wouldn't have heard from her have you?" he asked, curious as to know of how she was doing.
"Even if I did, I wouldn't let the likes of you know. You truly don't get it do you Darien? You messed up, so live with it," yelled Andrew angrily, slamming the phone back onto its receiver and storming out of his room. He couldn't believe Darien would think he would ever have another chance with Sere. After all he put her through, he doesn't even think about how she feels and what it has done to her life. "If only you knew Darien. If only you knew," whispered Andrew, staring blankly out the window.
~Next Day~
"Mama, wake up! It's time to go see the city!" cried Keith happily as he jumped up and down on my bed. Sometimes I wondered what the boy had in his body that enabled him to get up at such ungodly hours. It never ceased to amaze me if he was up by 7am ever morning, psyched up about the day ahead of him.
"Okay sweetie, give me a few minutes to wake up and we'll go," I replied, slipping into my fleece robe and heading over towards the restroom. After washing up and getting dressed, Keith and I ordered up some room service for breakfast. We finished around 8:30 and gave Jason a wake up call around the same time.
"So what do I get to see first?" Keith asked me excitedly. He had this huge smile on his face and his eyes sparkled like stars on a dark night. It was so cute looking at him that I couldn't help but laugh.
"We'll stop by Tokyo Towers so you can get a view of the whole city where I grew up, then we can go to the mall and do some shopping, maybe buy grandma and grandpa some presents?" I told him, seeing his smile spread even wider as he took of jumping with glee. It took Jason about half an hour to get dressed before we could head out.
"You look tired Sere," whispered Jason when he saw me sitting there with an overly cheerful Keith in my laps. I nodded, knowing what he was referring to. There were bags under my eyes and I was looking more pale than normal. "Something on your mind?" he asked, looking at me with concern in his eyes.
"No, just a little worn out. Must be the jet lag and readjusting to the time changes," I lied, knowing that he wouldn't buy my excuse but would accept it for now. We visited all the places I had told Keith we would see and then went to the mall to get gifts for my family. He decided to buy a big picture frame, so that we could all take a picture together and place it on my parent's mantel next to one of our old family portraits. That was he would have something to take home with him as a reminder of his family. I thought it was a sweet idea and urged him to buy some other gifts for everyone as well.
After we decided that we had bought more than enough gifts, I dropped Keith off at my parents' house so he could spend some alone time to get to know them better and headed out to the park with Jason. I wanted him to see the place I always came to when I had things on my mind. It was something I thought he would like to see, since it was a remarkable place with great scenery surrounding it. We talked over a few things dealing with the company back home before I decided to let Jason know about my entire past.
"So all this time I had thought that Keith was the son of the person you used to love, but he really isn't?" asked Jason still a little confused. I suppose he really didn't think I was that type of person, but after I explained to him the situation, he understood everything. "Do you at least know who the father is?" he asked, concerned that Keith might have to live a life without knowing his father. Jason had took the place of Keith's missing father ever since I had brought him into the world, so it was only natural that Jason be concerned for Keith's future.
"Yes, I do actually. I'm just not ready to let him know thought, it would be so awkward, since I still have so much unsettled business," I answered, smiling sadly.
"So why don't you try to get in contact with those people and get everything over with so you can let Keith see his father for the first time, I know it would mean the world to him," replied Jason, gripping onto my hands tightly. "You know I will support you no matter what the outcome will be," he added, hoping I understood what he was trying to do.
"I know, I plan on doing that soon," I told him, looking out at the lake as the sun was starting to set. "You know, this very bench was the one Darien and I used to spend so much time at," I said absentmindedly. "It stills looks the same, everything was just the way I left it," I whispered, looking all around at the park.
"Let's go, I think you need to get some rest. It's getting cold out anyway," said Jason, heading back toward the car before me so I could have some quiet time to myself.
After we got into the car, I gave my mom a call and asked her if Keith could spend the night. When she heard the news, she was delighted and instantly agreed to my idea. Jason and I headed back to the hotel afterwards.
"I think I'm going to go for a drive," I said just as we both got out of the car. Jason turned and looked at me worriedly. "Don't worry, I just wanted to stop by an old friend's house for a little," I told him, taking the keys from his hands and getting back into the car. "You should get some rest, I heard you have a lot of paperwork that is going to be sent over tomorrow morning," I suggested, laughing when I saw the look on his face.
"Why didn't you tell me?" Jason asked, shocked that his work had been piling up this entire time. I shrugged, hoping he'd forgive me for delaying his messages. I took the liberty of giving him some time to relax, since he never gets a vacation, I thought he should actually rest on his first time away from work.
"Thank me later dork," I laughed. "Better get a move on," I said before starting the engine and taking off. Looking back through the rear view mirror, I could see him still standing there as I drove away. 'Sometimes he was just a little too much for me to handle,' I thought, shaking my head with a smile. "I guess it's time to give Miss Mina a visit," I said to myself, taking a deep breath as I headed over to her house.
After all these years, I had realized that I had hurt a lot of my friends, the ones who would never think of hurting me in the first place. I felt so bad, I wasn't sure if asking them for forgiveness was the right thing to do anymore. After all, I had abandoned them, why should I deserve to be forgiven right? Yet I feel that I at least owe them a visit, after all they've done for me. So, swallowing my own pride, I decided to visit my three closest friends. Amy Mitchell, Mina Ashton, and Lita Kingsley; I had met them my first year in middle school, and we had quickly become friends.
~*AN*~
Sorry it's so short, but that's all I'm capable of doing in this state of mind.