Don't worry although when Shinji resets he starts over at the phone at the train station the next chapter will start later and this is probably the last time at least for a while that he starts at the train stating on works his way forward instead of a time skip.
Someone pointed out that Shinji seems to be pretty ok with dieing and yah, that's a problem but I'm not sure how to fix it.
Start
# of repeats at start of chapter: 3
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"Due to an emergency all trains are currently…"
Shinji let go of the phone and grabbed his chest.
"No pain," he said in surprise releasing his chest. He then started planning on what to do this time around.
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"…and I want you to pilot it." Gendo finally said, but Shinji was ready this time.
"ok"
"You can't just send him out like that! It took Rei months to be able to sync to a usable level and you're just going to send your own son out there without any training!" Misato burst at the Commander as she realized what was happening.
"Know your place Captain, he is the only valid pilot we have at the moment. Now attend to your duties." Gendo sternly warned Misato.
During this conversation Shinji had walked to Unit 01's entry plug and entered.
Shinji sat down, hating the bloody taste of L.C.L as it filled the plug.
Ritsuko was shocked when Shinji didn't panic about the rising L.C.L and started breathing it.
"Sempai, his sync ratio is at 80!" Maya shouted to Ritsuko.
"What?! Check it again that can't be right."
"Already done Sempai. All three Magi are in agreement."
"We just might have a have a chance then," Misato murmured to herself before shouting orders to prep and launch Unit 01 to the surface.
Misato was about to tell Shinji how to make his Eva walk when he ran off the platform.
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"That was amazing Shinji, how did you know how to do all of that?" Ritsuko asked.
He had just been checked out by doctors after being recovered from Unit 01 and was still sitting in the exam room.
"Um…it just felt right." Shinji lamely explained hoping Ritsuko would think it was his mothers doing.
"Well you did a good job out there Shinji, just next time listen to what I have to tell you," Misato said ruffling his hair.
"Aye aye Major" he said will giving her Misato a silly salute.
"I wish, I'm only a Captain. Any come on I've been made your guardian so I'll show you to your new house.
Shinji wanted to ask if he could see Rei before they left but realized he had already slipped once with calling Misato a major and he didn't want to mess up again when he wasn't supposed to have even met Rei this time around yet. He silently promised himself he would visit her as soon as he could.
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A week had passed since Shinji had defeated the third angel and he was finally told he had to start going to school again.
It was nice to spend time with Misato and Pen Pen again, Shinji thought. Even though he was stuck with all the cooking and cleaning again he didn't mind that much as it gave him something to do to occupy his mind, and their apartment really needed cleaning.
Shinji was suddenly brought out of his thoughts as he heard the other students at school whispering when the saw him, letting him know he had finally arrived at school.
Ignoring the whispers he calmly walked to class 2-A where he met Hikari.
As soon as he entered the class room she walked up to him and bowed saying " Hello I am Horaki Hikari. I am the Representative for class 2-A. Do you have your school laptop?" seeing his nod she continued on "Good, then you can take the empty seat over there. If you have any questions feel free to ask me." Hikari said with a smile bowing again, then walked off to another part of the classroom.
Turning to face the room the first thing Shinji thought was that all these kids must be pilot candidates. He wondered if they were all missing their mothers like him and Asuka. Looking some more he spotting Rei sitting in the back of the classroom looking out the window like normal but decided now wasn't the time to try and talk to her.
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"Are you a new pilot? Y/N" Shinji's computer beeped at him during the teacher's long speech on Second Impact.
Remembering the results of last time Shinji answered "No" then closed his laptop so as not to receive any more messages.
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Walking out of school once it was over, Shinji was confused that Kensuke and Toji hadn't confronted him yet, when he heard the tail end of an argument.
"…re careful. Because of you my little sister was hurt. You think just because you're in a robot means you can romp around?!" Shinji hears Toji yell.
Rushing toward the yelling he see Kensuke standing next to Toji as he Shouts at Rei and it looks like Toji's raising his arm to hit her.
Rushing forward Shinji grabs Toji's arm surprising everyone there. Toji stairs at Shinji for a moment what both Shinji and Rei's cell phones go off.
Releasing Toji's arm Shinji turns to Rei and says that there must be an emergency and they should head to NERV.
As Shinji and Rei are walking away Kensuke suddenly turned to the still stunned Toji. "Dude, he must be the new Pilot! How else did he know Ayanami and he said they should go to NERV. You were attacking the wrong person."
Hearing this Toji turned and punched the nearby tree in frustration. Promising he would get that new kid for hurting his little sister.
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Shinji was unable to get any sort of conversation out of Rei besides a small nod of thanks for stopping Toji and as soon as they arrived at NERV they prepped for battle and launched.
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Shinji in Unit 01 had just avoided on the Fourth Angel's tentacles when he was able to throw the angel in at a nearby hill.
"Watch where you throw the angel, there are civilian shelters in the hill near where you just threw the angel." Misato's voice warned him.
"Huh" Shinji said focusing in on the ground the angel just had stood up from when he noticed to small red smears on the hill. Looking farther he noticed a shelter with a destroyed shelter. He suddenly remembered how the last time he fought this angel he was the one who had been thrown into the hill and had almost killed his two friends.
"NNNNNOOOOOO!!" Shinji shouted realizing what those two smears meant and that also meant the rest of his class mates where in that shelter. "I'm the only one who needs to repent! I'm the only one who should have to suffer! I'm the only one who can't die!"
"Shinji what are you talking about?" Misato asked worry evident in her voice, "Just calm down. Whatever is bothering you we can deal with once you defeat this angel."
"NO don't you see! I need to save them, I must save them!"
"MA'AM! Shinji's activated the self destruct and some how locked me out of Unit 01"
"What! Shinji calm down. This won't help anything. Killing yourself will only make things worse."
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"Due to an emergency all trains are currently…"
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA" Shinji yelled even though the pain had ended. He yelled as if in defiance of the very heavens themselves. Then he broke down crying.
He didn't want this. To keep having to deal his bastard of a father, seele, people who called themselves his friends only to use him. It was too much. But wait, why did he have to put up with them? He was in a time loop. He'd already died four times so obviously death didn't affect him. He could put this to use. He would watch. He would observe. He would listen. Then he would act and if that didn't work he could just try again and again until he got it right, but what is 'it'.
What did he want? Well he wanted to friends, real friends not like Toji and Kensuke. He wanted to be loved and to have a family but he wasn't sure how to go about those two. He wanted to stop his father and SEELE from succeeding. It wasn't much but it was a start for now.
Finally calming down from the traumatic events of the last reset he rubbed the tears from his eyes and waited for Misato to show up.
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Notes:
I so was not expecting Shinji to commit suicide. Origianly he was going to be so distraught over either falling or having the angel fall on toji and kensuke that the angel would be able to kill him but then I realized I was planning on having shinji not like those two which wouldn't give him a good enough reason to let the angel kill him. That's why I made the shelter over there and destroyed by the angel and also why instead of being killed by the angel he blew himself up so they would all be alive again.
I've always had problem with L.C.L. There are real liquid breathing system but one of the main problems is while you can throw up the contents of your stomach you can't throw up the contents of your lungs so they have to be pumped to clear them.. Also I would think your breathing muscles would get tired quicker because L.C.L is thicker then air and so takes more effort to breath in and out.