Leafpool looked into Crowfeather's eyes. She felt as if she was melting under his gaze, her love for him welled up inside her and she felt like if she moved it would overflow, spilling into the lake. Amber eyes met amber eyes and strings of starlight connected them in dancing, swirling chains. Her fur stood on end at the bolt of feeling that ran through her.

"Leafpool... You shouldn't be here. We're over. There is nothing we can talk about." Crowfeather looked as if he was forcing himself to say these words yet longing to push his muzzel against hers.

"Yes there is Crowfeather. There is so much to talk about-" Leafpool knew she had to tell him now. She bit her lip in a desperate attempt to comtrol the way it quivered with fright. But before she could work up the courage to say anything a loud yowl broke in on them.

"Crowfeather what are you doing!" Nightcloud was pelting down the slope, her fur ruffled tail straight out behind her.

"It wasn't me I-" Crowfeather began but Nightcloud interuppted

"I know, don't worry I know. I'm not blaming you I'm blaming this worthless, disloyal, half kittypet excuse for a medicine cat!" Nightcloud raged her eyes burning with hatred for Leafpool. It burnt into her making her legs quiver. She hated the idea of someone not liking her, and she felt very hurt to be called such terrible names.

"I am not disloyal! I-" Leafpool wailed. Nightcloud was echoing her own thoughts.

"Oh yes you are!" Nightcloud yowled "You are the reason Crowfeather is distrusted. You are the reason he broke the warrior code. You caused Crowfeather to be a low rank in his clan. He was a high rank before he met you. And you stole all hopes of him becoming deputy from him when your eyes met. It's all your fault, if you didn't tell him to go away with you he woul be okay!"

"Thats enough Nightcloud!" Crowfeather bellowed.

Leafpool started to shake. Was Nightcloud really right. Guilt flooded her, so much she thought she would collapse again. She felt quesy, ill her head span. She thought she might through up. How could she tell Crowfeather now? How could she even let him know?

"No it's not!" Nightcloud fired up again "He's not with you anymore Leafpool. He doesn't love you! He loves me! When he's with me he's not risking his trust! We're having kits together now, and that is that!"

Leafpool looked at Crowfeather, and he looked away. "Crowfeather... Oh Crowfeather is that true?"

Nightcloud looked rather pleased with herself and Crowfeather shifted uncomfortably. "Yes- But Leafpool-" Crowfeather pleaded

" So soon. No you're right Crowfeather. We're over, and there is nothing I can say to you. Ever again. As Nightcloud said, you're with her not me. However much that hurts I have to accept that you've moved on."

She didn't wait to see what Crowfeather did. She didn't care anymore. How could he find another mate so soon. Is this how you felt Feathertail? I'm so sorry for the hurt I have caused you. She felt sick. Crowfeather didn't love her anymore. He didn't even feel anything for her. His loyalty was to one set of his unborn kits. His unborn kits that wouldn't be consisdered 'bad blood'. His kits that he would know and love, like he loves Nightcloud. Leafpool slumped down in her nest, the scent of herbs all around her. She felt wretched, and ever so guilty for what she caused Crowfeather. She gazed down at her belly. What was she going to do now. How could she go undiscovered? How could she mother the second set of Crowfeathers kits? Especially when he had no clue he had these kits!