Okay, so I couldn't help but add another chapter. I think this will build up to a longer story but I'm not really sure at the moment. If anyone has any ideas it would be much appreciated for you to send them in a review. This chapter is in Jasper's point of view and I forgot to mention that this is set before they meet the Cullen's, soon after Jasper and Alice meet.
Disclaimer- I don't own Jasper or Alice or the Cullen's.
Blank Stares
Even now, lying with my loves arms wrapped around me, our steady, unnecessary breathing filling the silent room, I could not feel at peace. Maybe it was because I wasn't used to having someone next to me as I relaxed, someone who dropped a kiss on my bare, scarred chest every now and then. But deep down I knew it was because even with Alice, I could not hide the fact that I was a monster. Whenever I said this to her she always laughed her beautiful wind-chime laugh and said that it didn't matter because we were together. I did believe her, and I did believe I could stop my human diet all together and join the Cullen family but I was only doing it for Alice. I didn't mind, I would do anything for Alice but I still felt like an outsider when she was excited about a new vision of the Cullen's. The fabulous, beautiful, generous Cullen's who had no problem controlling themselves around humans; just like Alice. I was the outsider here and no matter how much I tried I couldn't shake off that feeling. I guess my anxiety had bubbled over and into my Alice because she opened her eyes suddenly and looked at me with an expression that made me forget every worry I had ever have. God I love my Alice.
"Don't worry," she whispered, her fingers tracing the lines of worry on my forehead until they had disappeared completely and my emotions had returned to peace and love. Peace at having eternity to lay like this with my Ali, and love at the sight of her beautiful face so close to mine.
"It'll be fine, trust me." She whispered before I caught her lips with my own, the room suddenly silent as we both stopped breathing.
As we pulled away, staring deep into each others eyes, I could only forestall the worry that someday I would snap and Alice would not want to be with such a weak monster as me. But no matter how hard I tried I could not banish it from my mind completely.
As I thought of Alice leaving me, I felt my eyes go blank, devoid of emotion and I felt the familiar aching feeling in every part of me.
"Jazz…" Alice whispered, quieter then ever before. I looked at her as she let out a small whimper and I realised I had scared her when the light in my eyes had died; when I had thought about leaving her.
"I'm sorry Alice" I whispered, nearly as quiet as her, pulling her closer to me so we were two stone figures melded together.
I can't believe I had scared her like that. How could I ever face myself if I did that to her again? I felt her start to trace my horrible reminders from my life before I had met her. I did not understand how she could not find them repulsive; not find me repulsive. But she didn't, she loved me and I could feel it in everything she did.
There you have it, I really hoped you enjoyed it and so I know you enjoyed it could you review?? Please. I am not above begging
Jules.