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No, I Don't Own Life With Derek

Love was hard. Not only for Casey, but for everybody.

Casey hated when people talked about how amazing love was. Love was NOT amazing, and everybody knew. She would watch them gush about how 'they've fallen head-over-heels' and just roll her eyes. She knew they were full of shit. They all were. You have to work at love, and put trust into your boyfriend or girlfriend. It was anything but easy.

In Casey's eyes, it was horrible.

She wanted to run form it. She wanted to throw it out. She wanted to become a nun. She wanted to avoid it completely, but she just couldn't. Everything second of the day, she was wondering what Kendra was doing, or if Derek had another girlfriend. Or if she was even a 'girlfriend' to him.

Things were getting harder and harder each day. Casey found herself in tears every night, and she hadn't talked to her mother in three days. This wasn't the way she wanted it to be. All she wanted was to be happy.

"How was school?" Lizzie asked, plopping down on Casey's bed.

She wished she could tell her sister about how Kendra smiled at her at least fifty times, and how Derek carried her books to 3rd period, but the truth was, her sister had no idea what was going on with this bizarre love triangle.

"It was good." Casey said, pasting on that fake smile that fooled the world. "How did that test go?" Casey asked quickly, trying to cover up the 'I'M NOT HAPPY' writing all over her pale face.

"Um, It was alright." Lizzie said, she didn't really want to talk about it. She would rather talk about something more interesting and fun, which Casey used to always talk about, but not these days. Not anymore.

After a few minutes of listening to the typing of Casey's keyboard, Lizzie got bored and left the room. As the door shut, Casey was left in complete silence. She could hear the strokes of the clock hanging neatly on the wall, but she just wished they would stop.

Time was passing too fast. Time that she could have spent with Kendra or Derek, she was spending trying to decide which one means more to her.

She turned off the computer and crawled into her bed. Immediately the tears started to fall. She feared that they were never going to stop. Casey was supposed to be perfect. That's what everybody expected from her. If she screwed up, they would wait for her to get right back up. They all knew she would, and they knew she would never loose her way.

But right now, she was falling down into an endless pit, and she was lost beyond belief.

She didn't bother to wipe the tears from her face as she heard the bed room door open. Who ever it was was going to hae to see her like this. This was who she was now. She was broken.

"Dinners ready, are you hung..."

She heard him stop as he saw her tears and soaking wet shirt and pillow. She turned her body over and stared out of the window, watching the sun fall behind the perfectly lined up houses.

"No." She whispered as she slowly closed her eyes. "Please go away." She knew those were the words that came from her mouth, but she didn't want him to leave. She wanted the exact opposite. And he knew.

She listened to his footsteps as they came closer and closer to the bed. She felt a warm hand on her shoulder. "I'm not leaving." He whispered.

She felt him sit on the edge of the bed, and listened as he talked.

"Shit happens. We cant sit around and cry about it. We have to move on, get over it." Derek shrugged his shoulders, and let his head fall back against the bed post. "Life isn't easy. Neither is anything we do. In one way or another, everything is hard, and requires work." He said.

"I dont know who I wanna be with." Casey whispered as another tear slid from beneath her eyelid.

Derek crossed his arms and sighed. "I say you should be with me." He said vainly.

"Shut up." She whispered through a small chuckle.

Derek smiled, but as the smiled faded, he got more serious. "Kendra's nice, and sweet. Shes pretty, gives great advice, and is an amazing girlfriend." Derek rolled his eyes. "Me-- I'm super sexy, funny, great hockey player, and fun." Derek said, as his infamous smirk grew bigger and bigger.

Casey slowly sat up and looked him straight into the eyes. "All I want it somebody who cares." She whispered.