This chapter was challenging to write, I can picture the story in my head but figuring out what words to put to set across the pain and loss he feels is hard! I do not own Bones or any of its characters but would love to meet the writers of the show to tell them to show more of the personal sides of the actors...though I am not sure if I really want that because then there would not be as much left up to my imagination...anyways...TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK!!

Booth and I left the community center a little after midnight. He had carried the twins out to Carol and Phil's car since they had fallen asleep on the couches. Booth agreed to call the next time he was in town and he vowed to visit them more than once ever seven years.

Instead of driving all the way home just to come back a few hours later we got a small hotel room overlooking the city. I changed into sweats and a t-shirt and sat on the edge of the bed. Booth stood by the window staring at the two beams of light in the distance. He was holding the letter in his shaky hand.

I walked over and put my arm around his waist. "I want to read it you know." He said to me with sad eyes, "Gina was Brittany's best friend. That is how Adrian met her. The four of us grew up together. It was almost harder to lose her than it was to lose Adrian but it kind of all blended together they all died at the same time. I went to see her that night, the night she had the twins. I told her what happened. She was the only person I talked to about what happened. I tried to talk to Cam and couldn't. That is why I left New York. Gina's parents died when we were still in high school, that is why the boys are with Adrian's parents."

"You will read it when you are ready." I told him sitting back down on the edge of the bed giving him a little space. He stood there for a few more minutes before coming over and sitting on the bed next to me.

"Will you read it to me?" I hated seeing him so vulnerable. He is always the one taking care of me, protecting me from getting hurt and holding me when I was. I nodded a yes and he handed me the letter.

I opened it slowly and looked at the first few lines, "Booth are you sure you are ready?" I asked before reading it out loud. He thought for a minute before nodding. He laid his head down using my knee as a pillow and holding a pillow to his chest.

"Dear Seeley," I started, I put one hand on his shoulder and held him while reading. "This letter is one that I never dreamed of writing but cannot go without doing so. You have been my best friend since we were seven. You and Jeremy were Holy terrors, always stealing my dolls and catching us with squirt guns. The older we got the closer to you and Jeremy I became. I never thanked you two enough for introducing me to Adrian. When you came here to tell me that he died I knew that you did all that you could to keep him safe. You always did. I never imagined that you came to tell me that all five of them died. I cannot even imagine what you are going through right now. Seeley, Jeremy told me about some of your missions and the lengths you went to in order to bring them all home safe. I may have lost my husband today but you lost your best friend, your entire unit and if what the doctors say is true I will not be here much longer. I named the twins after the four of you. Adrian and Jason of course for their father and his best friend, and you and Jeremy. I knew it is what Adrian would have wanted. The boys will grow up with the names of four heroes." I ran my finger across his cheek wiping the silent tears that were falling.

"Booth do you want me to go on?" I asked. He nodded, "Seeley, I want you to promise me you will teach my boys about you guys. I know Adrian's parents will take care of them but I want them to know who their parents really were, not just who their parents thought they were. I want you to tell them stories of their mom and dad being crazy teenagers, newlyweds, all of that. The good and the bad. I know that you will do your best and that is why I am making you their God Father. Brittany will be their God Mother so the two of you better take care of them. If you don't I will hunt you down and haunt you. I know this is not easy for you and am not sure how long it will be before Carol decides you are ready to read this even. I just want you to know that I love you with all of my heart and soul and cherish you for giving me the time I had with Adrian. Do not blame yourself for what happened the last few days and live for the future. You have always taken the blame when bad stuff happens and you need to break the habit. I love you Seeley Booth and always will. Thank you for everything you have done and everything you will continue to do for my boys."

I folded the letter and tucked it safely back in its envelope and set it on the night stand. Seeley rolled over and put his face into my stomach. I ran my fingers through his hair and wrapped myself around him and held him.

After a few minutes he got up and walked over to the window. "Bones?" He said looking over at me, I got up and walked to him. He put his arm around my shoulders, I felt him gently kiss the top of my head and instantly got goose bumps down my arms. "Will you hold me tonight?"

I gently wrapped both my arms around him and slid them up his back holding him in a tight embrace, "Because there has always been heartache and pain and when its over you'll breathe again, when you feel all alone and the world has turned its back on you. Give me a moment please to tame your wild, wild heart…" I said reciting lyrics to my favorite song, one that always reminded me of him, Crash and Burn by Savage Garden, somehow the lyrics seemed to fit tonight.

"Come lay with me Seeley." I said using his name, something I almost never did. I led him over to the bed and pulled back the covers. He pulled off his shirt and took off his shoes and slid off his pants and crawled in laying his head on my chest, arm held tight around my waste. I leaned my head down so my lips were rested against his forehead. "Sleep now Booth." I said letter my breath breeze through his short hair.