All Over Again Chapter 4: Month Four, an all my children fanfic

Month Four:

Liza holds her head in her hands. She wipes the tears from her face and tries to control her emotions. What am I going to do, she asks herself. She stands up from the side of the two and looks into the mirror. After touching up her makeup, she carefully wraps and throws away the home pregnancy test. I can't tell Adam until Sarah confirms it. She hears a knock on the door and can't help smiling through the worries. She turns on the radio as she walks to the door.

You've got your ball,

You've got your chain.

Tied to me tight,

Tied me up again.

Who's got their claws,

In you my friend.

Into your heart,

I beat again.

Adam slips into her arms when the door opens and immediately kisses her. "Hello." He says breaking their kiss and closing the door.

Sweet like candy to my soul.

Sweet you rock and sweet you roll.

Lost for you. I'm so lost for you.

"Hi. Are you hungry?" He nods and pulls her back into a kiss.

Ah, when you come.

Crash into me.

Come into you.

In a boy's dream.

"But for you, not food." He answers and removes his jacket.

Touch your lips,

Just so I know.

In your eyes, Love,

It glows so.

I'm bare-boned.

And crazy for you.

As Adam kicks off his shoes, Liza unbuttons her shirt and drops it next to his jacket. He begins walking her back.

If I've gone overboard.

Then I'm begging you to forgive me.

In my haste, when I'm holding you.

So, girl, close to me.

Liza runs into the wall. She begins to unbutton his pants as he takes off her shirt. He bends down kissing her neck and chest then reaches under her skirt to pull of her panties.

Oh and you come,

Crash into me, baby.

And I come into you.

Hike up your skirt a little more.

And show your world to me.

Liza smiles a little before he reclaims her lips as he lifts her legs up around him.

In a boy's dream.

He enters her and she cries out in pleasure.

Oh, I watch you there,

Through the window.

And I stare at you.

You wear nothing,

But you wear it so well.

He begins to slowly but aggressively enter and reenter her.

Tied up and twisted.

The way I'd like to be.

For you, for me,

Come crash into me.

I'm the king of the castle,

You're the dirty rascal.

Crash into me.

Please, crash into me, baby.

Liza squeezes her legs tighter around him as he brings her to the edge.

For this I see the wave go,

Crash into me.

I see the wave comin'

Crash into me.

They hold each other close, both trying to catch their breaths. After a few minutes, Adam lowers her feet to the floor. She leans back against the wall to cool off and watches him re-

zips his slacks and buttons them. He reaches down for both their shirts. Before he gets his buttoned, she steps closer and finishes for him. "Sorry."

"For what?" She smiles and finishes her shirt.

"I didn't mean for that to happen so fast." She kisses him.

"I don't mind. Unthinking animal lust is just fine. And more than a little flattering." She picks up her panties off the floor and puts them back on. Before she can walk away, he pulls her to him with his arms around her waist and hands resting on her stomach. Her heart flutters knowing that their baby is growing there.

"Colby and I had a short talk about you." Liza turns in his arms and fiddles with his collar.

"Don't. Don't give me hope or…just let's not talk about anything outside of this time and place." He kisses her nose..

"Ok. When you do, let me know. I do want to say before we drop the subject, she seems to want to know more about you and us." She nods and slips out of his grip to get a glass of water.

Adam watches her sleep wondering what is going on with him and why he has let her back in so easily. And why she has seemed a little more distant than usual. Something is distracting her. Liza wakes with a start. "Colby!" She says breathlessly. Adam sits up and holds her close.

"What's wrong?" She wipes tears from her eyes. "Liza, break your rules and tell me." Her resolve breaks.

"I miss her. I wanted her there with me. I needed her and she wasn't there. I miss my baby. It hurts so much." She moves away from him to lay back down and sobs into her pillow. He has mixed feelings about her actions and words. Laying on his elbow spooning against her, he rubs her arm soothingly. Her crying lessens and he drapes his arm across her stomach pulling her closer to him then kisses her neck, then ear.

"Come home. Come home to Pine Valley and see her."

"No, Adam. Please? Just hold me."

"Ok." He slips his arm under her pillow and takes a hold of her hand. I can't believe he's the father of my baby again, she thinks. Closing her eyes, she focuses on his warm hand on her stomach. Where their baby is growing. Should I go back to Pine Valley? Will he be able to keep this casual after he finds out? Maybe I should take the out in our rules and just not be here next month. Slowly, she begins to fall back asleep.

Adam sighs looking over the city from her balcony. Tomorrow, I have to go home. Maybe I can convince her to come back. Maybe not right away but I think I can do it. I'll have to be very carefully. Liza wraps her arms around him placing her chin on his shoulder. He turns around in her arms and leans against the balcony. "Liza. I've been doing a lot of thinking this week." She starts to speak but he stops her. "Wait. Just listen. I've made a lot of mistakes, more than enough but I don't want to repeat them, for once. I am willing to give you as much control in this relationship as you want. A lot has happened to me since you left, most effective was being haunted by Dixie. I know it sounds crazy but I was made to see things about myself that I finally understand. I took control of mine and Stuart's lives so early that its hard for me to let go. But I end up losing more. Whatever you need from me, you'll have."

"Sex. The sex is wanted." She smiles. He kisses her.

"I will give you that as much as possible. And I'm willing to try more adventurous acts in that arena." Her smile widens.

"You? I might take you up on that. Nothing with restraints." He sighs. "I'll think about something to make you do." He rolls his eyes.

"Ok. So, dinner?"

"Room service, something decadent."

"Definitely!" He takes her hand as they walk back in. Liza feels even more unsure about her possible pregnancy, wondering if he will keep his promise.

Adam walks through the door whistling, he doesn't notice JR and Colby sitting on the couch watching him. He turns around and stops whistling. "Hello, my two youngest. I love you both." They exchange a look as he walks to the bar to pour a glass.

"Dad, where have you been?" JR asks as he stands up.

"And why are you so happy?" Colby asks right after her brother.

"Haven't you seen the news?" JR asks before Adam can answer either question. "Chandler Enterprises has been sold." Adam's smile leaves him as he puts down his glass.

"What? To whom?"
"No one knows. Zach is keeping it on the DL." Colby answers. "Cambias announced today that an agreement had been reached with the buyer and that was it."

"Some contacts within Chandler said that an hour after went to the twenty-third floor. People are scared, this happened fast." Adam resumes drinking. "Dad, where were you?"
"That's not important. JR, this is distracting you from your life I'll look into it myself."

"Dad, this is our family corporation. It carries our name. My son's name."
"I built it. I will get it back. You concentrate on your family."
"I'll help." Colby offers. "Whatever I can do." Adam brushes back her hair.

"Since when do you have business experience. Colby…"

"Dad, I know I've never cared about being a mogul but I can make phone calls for you, etc." She's a little hurt by her father's mistrust in her abilities.

"Ok, you can help me a bit." He smiles at her then heads to his home office alone to make some calls.

"Where do you think he was? He stays on top of the news all the time." JR sits down.

"Its not the first time." She sits next to him. "Ever since his stay in London, he has been leaving for at least a week every month. He won't talk about London or where he goes. And considering what happened a few weeks ago…I think Dad has a girl." JR scoffs at the thought.

"If he did, he would be flaunting it, Colby. Especially in front of Krystal." Colby raises her finger to stop him.

"No. He said that he has realized that he was never in love with Krystal. He no longer cares what happens in her life." He leans back.

"Maybe there is a woman involved." They both come up with theories.

Sarah walks into the bar and straight to Liza, who is pacing the dance floor. She stops, facing Sarah. "Well?"
"Well, you should have stayed. Couldn't you wait a few minutes? You are my worst and most impatient patient."
"Sarah!" Liza yells frustrated.

"You are pregnant." She whispers. "I need to examine you. How have you been feeling?"
"A little morning sickness. It was the soreness that made me first consider it then I realized I didn't have my period." Lisa's focus shifts to the man who just walked in. his black hair, a little shorter than Billy's and his same dark soulful eyes, make her stomach flip. Sarah follows her eyes.

"Are you going to tell him?" She nods.

"Now that it's confirmed, I have to. He's Billy's brother." Liza almost makes it to him then ducks into the bathroom for a bout of morning sickness. After rinsing out her mouth, she makes her way back out and to Bobby.

"Hey girl, how's my favorite sister-in-law?" She half smiles at his friendliness.

"Well, actually that is what I want to talk to you about." His face changes to serious. He pulls her to a table and they take a seat.

"What's wrong? What can I do? Do you need anything?"

"Stop, stop." She laughs. "Since Billy…died I have been seeing him. Talking to him." He takes her hand. "But lately that has been happening less. I don't dream about him as much either." She absent-mindedly wipes away a tear. "Its not that I love him less or that I'm forgetting him or all he gave me. But …"

"Liza, when he died, you became my responsibility. I promised him. Whatever you want to tell me, tell me." She squeezes his hand.

"I've been seeing someone in the past few months. I needed…"

"Liza, I didn't expect you to stay celibate for him."

"I'm pregnant. It wasn't planned. It happened."

"Do you love him? Could you love him? Will he be there for you?"
"He'll be there, that I know. I don't know if I'm ready to give my heart, yet." He moves closer to her.

"Ok, we haven't really talked about this but…I was the last to talk to him before he died." She sits up a bit. She didn't realize he had time to talk before he died. "He…his last words were about you. He was sorry he couldn't give you the love you needed and deserved for the rest of your life. He said that you shouldn't settle for less than his love and to help you find love again." Liza leans in to rest her forehead on his shoulder. He kisses her head and holds her close.