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Chapter Three: Meredith…?
Meredith was lying beside Ellis on the hospital bed, staring at the ceiling with her hands resting on her stomach. She was deep in thought which was becoming a habit lately; it seemed she always had something on her mind. She had really messed up her life, 6 months ago she was the happiest person the planet but now she had screwed everything which came as no surprise she was after all Meredith Grey.
After what seemed like a lifetime, Ellis was the first to speak. "I'm going to take a wild guess and say this is more than just finding out that you're pregnant." There was concern in Ellis' voice, she hated seeing Meredith upset, even if she didn't agree with her decisions all of the time.
"Yeah it does, I don't have time off work, I don't actually…. have a job in New York anymore, I really messed up Mom, and I didn't mean to. I worked so hard to get to where I am, well was."
The look on Ellis' face said enough, no words would sum up her shock and disappointment, but for Meredith's sake she needed to be supportive. There was only one question on her mind. "Meredith, why?"
This was something that she had never wanted to tell her mother, but Meredith knew that Ellis would be mad, but ultimately she would just want to help and support her in any way she could.
"Its more of a how, I stuffed up a surgery, and the patient died. It was after I had talked to you on the phone, I was mad and upset over the whole pregnancy thing, I shouldn't have even gone to the hospital but I did, and well that was my punishment."
Ellis just looked at her daughter and shook her head. All she was worried about was Meredith's career and what this meant in terms of that.
"This is going to totally ruin your career Meredith, it will be so publicised that you will never practice as a doctor let alone a surgeon ever again, not to mention the law suit the hospital is going to face."
Tears had started to slide down Meredith's cheeks, she pushed them away, trying to stay brave, she had known Ellis would be disappointed but she had never used this tone with Meredith before, not even in all the times she has messed up as a teenager.
"Mom, its all been sorted, the hospital is not going public with what happened, the chief was very adamant in the fact that I would never work in New York again, and the family were told there was complications….the patient had little chance but still I'm to blame. Chief Walker and I are the only ones who truly know what happened. I'm a good surgeon Mom, who made one mistake, it could have cost me my whole career, but it didn't."
"Mark, doesn't even know?" Ellis was surprised by this, Meredith was not one to hide things from her husband, their openness was what made their relationship and marriage work.
Meredith shook her head. "I couldn't tell him Mom, he would have been so angry and disappointed, I couldn't handle that, we are supposed to be happy not worrying about my career. He um, doesn't know about the baby either, only you do so can we not shout this out to the world, at least not until I have had a chance to talk to Mark."
"If that is what you want, you should tell him though Mer, I think he will be very pleased, he has often talked about children, it is rather soon, and I admit I was concerned about it, but I'm sure you will be a better mother than I was, you will make the time, whereas I didn't. And I still regret that. But seeing the wonderful young woman you have turned out to be I know that you didn't mean to harm that patient and you will make an excellent mother."
"Thank you Mom, that means a lot to me, and I don't hate you for not being there, you have made up for that over the years. Its water under the whatever."
Meredith continued to lie there on Ellis' bed, there was nowhere else she would rather be right now, she knew being with her Mom she would be able to talk about her problems, and that she would help come up with a solution. If it wasn't for all the pain that Seattle represented to Meredith she would move back in a heartbeat, but she had made a new life for herself, even if she couldn't be a doctor in New York that was where her life was.
Ellis looked over at her daughter; she knew there was only one thing that could be done. Meredith would have to come back to Seattle; she knew it was going to take
some convincing but it was the only way that Meredith was going to get her career back on track, and it would have to be done quickly especially if Meredith was planning on having her child.
Meredith sat up and climbed off her mother's bed. "I'm going to go get something to eat, maybe find Cristina, I saw her briefly before and told her I would catch up with her later. Do you need anything?"
"I'm fine, if its okay with you I'm going to talk all this over with Richard, he will know what to do, I won't mention the pregnancy, I will let you do that."
"Okay, I just hope he takes it as well as you did; I must say I'm proud of you." With that Meredith placed a kiss on Ellis' forehead and headed for the door. As she closed the door she ran straight into the person she had been hoping to avoid for a lot longer.
"Meredith" the voice exclaimed with surprise.
She just stood there, frozen.
Who was it!! There are a lot of cliffhangers throughout the fic so beware!! Review….you know you wanna!!