Yours
Chapter Three – Lunch and Good Mistakes
The next morning Jude woke up early and spent the better part of two hours trying to figure out what to wear to lunch. She decided on her favorite pair of tight fitting jeans and a loose white summery shirt with spaghetti straps.
Tommy was already there sitting on the front deck of the café at a table for two when she arrived. He smiled as she sat down. "Hey." she managed trying not to get lost in his eyes. This was bad; that he was here. She felt completely off kilter already.
They made it halfway through breakfast without damage avoiding subjects that weren't safe, like the 'engagement' and memory lane. But as the food on their plates dwindled Tommy brought it up.
"What did you mean when you said 'not exactly'?" he asked trying to sound like he was merely curious.
"I haven't exactly said yes yet."
"Oh, why not?" He tried to sound nonchalant but inside he was doing a happy dance.
"I don't know." Jude avoided his gaze.
"Do you love him?"
"Why do people keep asking me that? Why would I still be with him if I didn't? Wouldn't I have said no already?"
"That's not an answer." Tommy said with a half smile.
"Yes it is!" Jude had nearly melted at that smile before she remembered to be angry.
"He's not right for you anyway." Tommy said as if it were the most obvious non-offensive thing in the world.
"Excuse me?!" The hand holding her coffee stopped partway up to her mouth and she stared at him in disbelief.
"Well he isn't." He was matter-of-fact.
"You," she set her juice down angrily, "do not have the right to tell me who is or isn't right for me!" she nearly yelled at him.
"I have a right to my opinion. Besides I know you well enough to know the difference."
"You don't know me anymore, Quincy!" they were slowly leaning closer to each other unconsciously.
"Yes I do!"
"Why isn't he right then? Huh, Tommy?"
"You know exactly why." Those familiar words washed over her and she froze, the anger flowed out of her and was replaced by another feeling; the intense desire to kiss him. The exact same one she'd felt the last time he'd said those words, on her seventeenth birthday. She saw it in his eyes too and unlike six years ago, this time he acted on it. He half stood and bent over the small table, one of his hands reaching out and wrapping around her neck. He pulled her to him and as their lips touched softly but firmly Jude's eyes slipped closed.
Tommy pulled away and sat back down. Jude's eyes were still closed and she was breathing deeply. When she opened her eyes he had that look on his face. The one he saved just for her. "I have to go."
"Jude-"
"No, this was bad. Well it wasn't bad but… It wasn't right." She babbled and then suddenly stopped and looked him in the eye. He watched as the frantic guilt she was feeling faded quickly into the want to kiss him again and then quickly back to guilt. "Oh god, I have to go." And she disappeared before he could stop her again. He really wished she'd stop doing that. And he really wanted to kiss her again. He wanted to do more than kiss her. He wanted her back and knowing she still had feelings for him, which let's face it was pretty obvious upon seeing her reaction and expression after he'd kissed her, he would do almost anything he could to make it happen. Rob be damned.
He put enough money to cover their meals and a tip on the table and left the café. He needed to record a decent amount of material with 1-2-3 ROCKET if he intended to go to the concert tonight, which he did.
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Jude spent a good while pacing in the living room of her apartment, fighting with herself and trying to keep her feelings for Tommy at bay. She didn't have much success with the last thing; her feelings for Tommy were crashing back to her like a tsunami over a tiny island and memories of them together were playing in her mind like a Tommy and Jude through the years video.
When she was done pacing she grabbed the bag she carried with her everywhere and pulled out her song journal. She scribbled down a first draft of lyrics in pencil on a blank page and then took her guitar out of the stand by her couch. She sat down and experimented with notes and melodies until she came up with music that fit. She sang as she played and rewrote the lyrics as she went. The words changed as her mood calmed and the final draft was drastically different than the first.
Jude jumped as her phone alarm went off. She'd set the alarm to make sure she wasn't late getting to the concert site to get ready. She almost couldn't believe it was already 5:30 PM the time had passed so quickly. She grabbed her bag and her keys and headed out.
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The second she walked through the front door Dania was on her like a moth to light. "Oh Jude, sweetheart." She said with obvious sympathy.
"What's with the sympathy act?" Jude wondered what Dania was thinking.
"You've got Tommy face." Dania said.
"What Tommy face?"
"The only face you've got. He got to you didn't he?"
"No." Jude said indignantly. "We just had lunch."
"Jude, good, you're here." Simon led her toward the stage as an intern took her things to her dressing room. "We need you for sound check."
"We will talk later." Dania said walking off in another direction.
"Talk about what?" Simon asked curiously.
"Nothing, girly stuff. What song do you want for sound check?"
"The Life." The second single off her last CD.
"Kay." Jude dropped her guitar strap over her head and asked the sound guy if he was ready.
Forty five minutes later she sat in a chair as Mimi the new makeup artist did her face. "When I'm done you've got Leah for hair." Jude smiled her thanks. When her hair was done Dania met her in her dressing room.
"So, what happened?" Dania asked, handing Jude her outfit and pushing her behind the changing wall.
"When?" Jude tried avoiding the subject. Dania saw right through it but continued on anyway.
"At lunch, what happened?"
"Nothing happened."
"Jude."
"What?"
"I can tell when you're lying. Plus I've witness you zoning out thinking about him many many times." Jude came out from behind the wall, straightening her t-shirt and looking guilty.
"He kissed me."
"And?"
"That's it, I took off. But now it's all I can think about. I feel terrible."
"Technically you didn't do anything wrong. He kissed you."
"It doesn't matter. He is Tommy. It's never a one way thing with him. It always means something between us, no matter who kissed who."
"Yeah, I know." Dania pushed some hair behind Jude's ear with a little smile.
"You'll figure it out Jude Harrison." Then the stage manager peeked into the room saying Jude was on.
As soon as Jude got on stage she scanned the crowd for Tommy. She knew he would be there, watching. She found him standing on the balcony where the sound equipment was run from. He was leaning on the railing and he gave a little smile when he caught her staring at him as she sang.
As the concert neared its end Tommy disappeared from the balcony. He reappeared backstage as Jude was gathering her things for the after party. She was about to go talk to him when someone wrapped their arms around her from behind. She turned and forced a smile onto her face. "Rob!"
"Hey babe, great show." He said giving her a kiss on the lips.
"Thanks."
"Do we have to go to the after party or can we have some alone time?" Rob asked suggestively.
"I promised Dania I'd go." Jude pulled an excuse not to be alone with him out of thin air and tried to look like she'd rather be alone with him.
"Okay," he gave up easily. "Let's go." Jude smiled again and Rob grabbed her hand pulling her toward the door. Jude glanced back at Tommy almost apologetically and he shrugged his shoulders with a look of understanding.
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The party was being held in one of the party rooms on the first floor of the hotel that Rob lived in. Two hours had passed and Jude was beginning to feel uneasy. Tommy's eyes were burning into her and she could tell that Rob was anxious to leave, though he hadn't said anything or even noticed Tommy. She knew he hadn't noticed Tommy because she knew there was no way he wouldn't say something the second he did notice.
Finally she turned to Rob. "You can leave if you want. It's fine. There's no way Dania and Anna will let me leave yet but I'll come up later?"
"Are you sure?" he asked and she nodded. "Okay. See you later." He kissed her forehead and started to leave but then turned back to her. "I almost forgot. Anna gave me her keycard to hold on to incase she got too drunk and lost it." He handed her the thin piece of plastic. Anna had planned ahead and reserved a hotel room assuming that she would, as usual, get too drunk to want to go home.
"Oh, right. Thanks." She smiled at him. "Bye."
She'd made it seem as if she would rather go with him but really she just couldn't handle having Rob and Tommy around at the same time yet. It was too confusing and she figured it would be less painful for everyone if Rob was the one to leave so she could figure out what Tommy wanted from her. Jude sighed in relief as she watched Rob leave and then scanned the room for Tommy. Wasting no time, he was already coming toward her.
"You've been staring at me all night." Jude accused.
"Yes." He didn't try to hide it.
"You shouldn't be doing that."
"Why not?" His head tilted slightly to the side.
"Because I'm with Rob!" she whisper yelled and then started to walk away from him. Now that she had the chance to talk to him about this she didn't want to anymore. She was afraid of where this was going. She didn't want to hurt anyone. She made a beeline for the elevator trying to get away from him but Tommy was right on her heels. Her heels, unfortunately for her, were too high to run in and the material her dress was made of wasn't stretchy enough to allow for and large leg movements in any case.
"You were staring right back, girl."
"No I wasn't!" Jude denied pushing the up button for the elevator repeatedly.
"You were trying not to. It wasn't working all that well." Tommy said following her into the empty elevator as the doors finally opened. Jude pushed the button for the eighth floor and tried to ignore him. He just stared at her smugly.
"God, you are so full of yourself!" Ignoring him hadn't worked as well as she'd planned.
"Only when I'm sure of how the other person is feeling." It bothered her how calm he was.
"You have no idea how I'm feeling! You can't just assume you know what's going on in my head." The elevator reached the eighth floor and Jude rushed out the doors and followed the sign that pointed to rooms 801-845, Anna's room was 832.
"It's written all over your face, Jude." Too busy being angry she didn't even think to close the door behind her as she entered the room and Tommy followed her right in, the door banged shut behind them. She turned suddenly and punched him square in the gut. This time her thumb was outside her fist.
"Hey, you learned how to punch. Nice." He said one hand on his stomach.
"Screw you."
"If you insist." Jude made a face at him then turned away.
"Why did you have to come here?" she practically yelled at him turning back to him again. He was closer than she'd expected.
"Shush, you'll wake the whole floor."
"Damnit Tommy! I was fine before you showed up. I… Why did you have to come here?" He didn't get a chance to answer before her hands were pulling his face closer and her lips were on his. He didn't resist, he just wrapped on arm tightly around her waist and tangled his other hand in her hair.
Jude ran her hands down his chest and back up again. She pushed her body against his and kissed him passionately. He tilted her head and deepened the kiss as one of his hands ran down her side, up over her stomach and stopped at her breast. Jude moaned into his kiss and pulled back to breathe. Tommy just moved his kisses to her neck and ran his hands over her hips, hooked his fingers into the hem of her dress and pulled it over her head. His lips fell back to hers as her hands moved to unbutton his shirt and it was his turn to moan as she ran her thumbs over his nipples, effectively making them as hard as her own straining against her strapless bra. She removed her lips from his to push his shirt off his shoulders and let it fall to the floor. Her hands then moved to his belt and fly as his undid her bra. He pulled her thong down and slipped off her shoes in the same motion and then discarded his shoes, jeans and boxers.
Tommy looked her up and down, taking in her fully naked form. "God I've missed you." he said running his hands up her arms and down over her breasts and rested them on her hips as he stepped closer to her. His erection was already poking her in her lower abdomen. One of his hands ventured down further and Jude spread her legs automatically and leaned against the desk behind her for support.
"I've missed you too." and then she gasped as Tommy first slid a finger along her slit and then slipped it into her wet core. She steadied herself by holding onto his shoulders. He kissed her, slipped in a second finger and pumped them in and out of her slowly, letting his thumb teasingly brush her clit a few times making her whimper. When she was about to go over the edge he pulled his fingers out of her and licked them clean. She whined in protest but he silenced her with a kiss. She could taste herself on his tongue and she was desperate to have him inside her. She pushed him backward toward the bed and once he was settled with his head against the pillows she straddled him.
Tommy ghosted his hands over her thighs and then held on to her hips firmly. Jude leaned down for a quick kiss and then eased herself onto him slowly. She had only moved up and down twice before Tommy took control. He wrapped an arm around her waist and flipped them over so he was on top without pulling out of her. He kissed her deeply and pulled almost fully out of her he pushed into her slowly and paused to revel in her warmth. After a moment Jude rolled her hips against him and he pulled out and slammed back in. Jude moaned loudly as he thrust back into her and Tommy covered her mouth with his to swallow the noise.
Jude quickly climaxed and Tommy slowed to build up her pleasure again. He moved a hand in between them and rubbed circles around her clit as his mouth found her breasts. He nipped and sucked at her breasts and flicked at her clit until she was begging him for release and then he began to plunge in and out again. His thrusts began to become more erratic and soon they were both tensing and falling over the edge together. Jude's walls squeezed him until Tommy was sure there was nothing left and he stopped thrusting and rested his forehead against Jude's shoulder. They were both sweaty and struggling to breathe.
They were still for a few moments then Tommy rolled off her and rested beside her on the bed, one arm trapped beneath her back. Jude was exhausted and she curled herself into Tommy's side with one arm over his chest and her legs tangled with his. She laid her head on his chest and quickly fell asleep to the sound of his heartbeat and the feel of his hand running softly through her hair.
She woke up hours later as the sun was beginning to rise, still wrapped in Tommy's arms. She looked up at his face and smiled, he looked so peaceful. Her smile faded as she realized exactly what they'd done the night before.
"Oh god." She whispered quietly. She slowly began to untangle herself from Tommy, trying not to wake him. She quickly collected her clothing from the floor and redressed herself. "Crap." She could only find one shoe. Just as she found her shoe in the dark room she stubbed her toe on the bed post and cursed loudly. She clapped a hand over her mouth and looked to see if Tommy had woken. He was stirring and then he yawned though his eyes were remained closed. She watched as he reached out an arm to find her and knowing he would open his eyes when he didn't find her she quickly grabbed her shoe and without putting it on hurried toward the door.
"Jude." She froze and turned toward him. He was sitting up with his back against the headboard and the bed sheet was dangerously close to revealing too much. He was looking at her and he wasn't completely awake yet. "What are you doing?"
"I have to go." She said quietly.
"No you don't." He was much more awake now and his eyes were filled with realization.
"I can't stay." She was pleading with him to not argue and just let her go. The effort was futile. He was up off the bed and in front of her with the sheet wrapped around his waist almost before she could blink.
"Yes you can, Jude."
"We shouldn't have done this." She looked him in the eye. The look in his eyes changed to hurt and then anger. He gave her that look and she averted her eyes knowing if she looked into his for too long she wouldn't be able to leave. "Don't-" He cut her off with his lips.
Her lips had already been parted giving him access to her warm mouth, which he took full advantage of. She started to respond and then pulled away and turned to open the door.
"Jude, don't run away from me again." She glanced back at him.
"I'm going to say yes." He froze; he did not have to ask what she was going to say yes to. She turned away from the pain on his face and left quickly. He couldn't make himself move to chase after her or even go back into the hotel room. She was gone.
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