Author's Note: I am so unbelievably sorry it has taken me this long to update. I totally left you hanging and I suck. I've been so busy and sometimes I didn't have time and sometimes I just forgot and I am so SO sorry.

Yours

Chapter 4 – Four Days, Eight Hours, Twelve Minutes and Thirty-Six Seconds Later

Once Tommy succeeded in making himself move again he went back to the house he and the boys had rented for their stay in London. He ignored them when they asked what was wrong as he stormed past them and up the stairs into his room. He locked the door behind him.

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Jude spent a day and a half avoiding everyone, especially Rob. If she saw him, she'd have to tell him what happened between her and Tommy. She'd also have to actually say yes to his proposal (if it still stood after her confession), which was making her uneasy. Hoping no one would bother her at home she hid out in her apartment with the door securely locked.

Half way through the second day, as she was pacing in her living room, Jude pulled out her phone and dialled a number she knew well.

"Hello?" The voice on the end was comfortingly familiar.

"Sadie."

"Jude?" Sadie was surprised. "Oh my god, how are you?"

"Not so good." Jude said flatly.

"What's wrong?" Sadie's voice was edgy with worry.

"Nothing life threatening."

"Oh good, you scared me." Relief flooded Sadie's voice.

"Sorry."

"So what's up?"

"Tommy's here. In London."

"I know. You've seen him then?"

"Oh yeah, I've seen him." Jude said, the double meaning perfectly clear in her tone.

"Oh, Jude! You didn't?"

"We did. And then I told him that I was going to say yes to Rob-"

"Say yes to Rob about what?" Sadie's tone said she probably wouldn't need three guesses.

"He proposed. Jeez, Sades, don't you watch TV?"

"Haven't had time the last few days. He proposed?!"

"Yeah."

"And we're not happy about this?"

"No, we are. Maybe. I don't know. I just need you to tell me I'm making the right choice here."

"To marry Rob." It was a statement not a question.

"Yes."

"I don't think I can."

"Why not?" Jude whined.

"Because you slept with Tommy after being around him for less than twenty four hours after being apart for four years. And you aren't even sure you want to marry him. And you're asking me to tell you its right which means you aren't even the slightest bit sure it is." There was a long pause.

"Sadie, I don't know if I can do this."

"Marry Rob or be with Tommy?"

"Both." They were both quiet for a moment and before Sadie could say anything Jude began to speak again. "I can't marry Rob. I'm not in love with him. I'm just… not" she finished lamely.

"I know." Sadie said as comfortingly as she could. "What about Tommy?"

"I don't know. It terrifies me. What if it doesn't work again?"

"It was working Jude. You just panicked and ran." Sadie said softly.

"I gotta go." Jude hung up the phone quickly and dropped it on the couch before heading out of the apartment forgetting to even grab a jacket.

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Jude knocked impatiently on the door to Tommy's rented house until one of the members of 1-2-3 ROCKET opened it for her. "Hey."

"Where's Tommy?" She didn't wait for an invitation, just walked right in.

"First door at the top." He pointed up the stairs. Jude nodded her thanks and took the stairs two at a time not noticing three people follow her up. She knocked softly on Tommy's bedroom door and waited for him to open it. "Hey." She said quietly when he did open the door. He looked surprised then angry.

"Why are you here?"

"Because I'm sorry."

"Why?" he said turning and walking farther into the room as if to create distance between them. It didn't work; Jude just followed him.

"Because you only have to smile and my entire day is better. Just being near you makes me feel like I can do anything. When you're with me I feel like I could melt from the heat or just explode from the pleasure overload. You make the noise in my head silent. You fit with me. You balance me out. "

"Then why is it exactly that you keep running away?" Tommy's voice was a mix of anger, pain and scepticism.

"Do you know how scary it was for me to rely on you that much? You can hurt me so easily it's ridiculous. When you proposed I was eighteen years old, I was so young and I just kept thinking about all the other times we'd tried to be together and how much it hurt every time it didn't work. I thought 'what if it happens again? What if he changes his mind?' and I panicked and left you first."

"Jude-"

"And for a while I was so convinced that I'd made the right choice. Then, about six months after I'd left I was flipping through the channels and this gossip show had these pictures of you with another girl and I was so jealous it actually hurt. And I realized what an idiot I was but I was sure that angels would skate on a frozen lake in hell before you even considered forgiving me so I made myself get over it."

"Jude-"

"Until four days ago I was sure I was over you and then you walked into Burmansy and my heart nearly came out my mouth it jumped so high. I was never over you. I was never in love with anyone else; it was stupid to even think I could be."

"Jude-" she tried to continue but he cut her off by crashing his lips to hers. She melted powerless and willing into the kiss. When they realized the noise they heard was cheering applause coming from the doorway to the room they broke apart. The boys of 1-2-3 ROCKET were smiling at them through the door. Jude blushed and hid her face in Tommy's neck. Tommy let her go and closed the door on the watching band and he and Jude laughed as they heard a collective 'awww' from the other side of the door.

"That was a long way to go to say 'I love you'" Tommy said with a little half smile.

"I just-"

"I love you too."

"Yeah?" Jude smiled.

"Yeah." He smiled again and her smile went from hopeful to beaming.

"Forever this time, okay?"

"Deal." Jude would worry about telling Rob later. She pinched the front of Tommy's t-shirt and pulled him in for another kiss.

The End