Chapter 4

Tommy and Jude were just on the way to Judes father, the doctors appointment went well. While they were driving they both were lost in their own thoughts.

Tom couldn´t believe he just saw his baby...he saw it before but now you could recognize it and he would never admit it but he almost cried. It felt amazing to see this tiny figure knowing that it was there. That it was made out of the love of him and Jude it was amazing, perfect and for a while he just forgot everything but Jude and his baby. Seeing his father yesterday didn´t help at all. He was just as confused about everything than before. Would he be a good father probably every women he´s been with would say no and than they would tell him a few reason why not. To be honest Tommy´s not proud of his past. The sex, the parties, the alcohol and the drugs of course they made him who he is now but sometimes he wished he could turn back time, even if he would´ve never met Jude in the end.

Maybe it would have been better for her if they had never met, he never became her producer. It would have saved her a lot of heartache. The night before they got married he had a talk with Portia. Thinking back now he didn´t know why he actually went through with the wedding...

Flaschback

Tommy was sitting in the studio waiting for the guys to pick him up. Tomorrow´s the day he´s going to marry the love of his life. The only person he ever loved. At first a lot of people were against them. Stuart, Sadie (because she still loved Tom), Darius, Jamie, the only one who seemed to be happy for them was Kwest. But now they all accepted it. Tom looked up as he heard the door open and was suprised to see Portia standing in the doorway.

"What are you doing here?"

"I wanted to talk to you"

"About..." Tom trailed off.

"Do you hate her that much?" That caught Tom off guard.

"What?"


"Jude...do you hate her so much that you want to see her miserable...like you wanted to see me miserable."

"You don´t know what you are talking about"

"Oh really...Tommy you can´t make her happy even if you wanted!"

Tommy stood up and walked over to her.

"I love Jude and I´ll make her the happiest woman on this earth."

"Oh Tom I´ve heard that before, what did you say to me...Portia I love you and I would die for you, marry me and we´ll be happy!"

Tom sighed and looked on the ground before he looked her in the eyes.

"Portia I never loved...I might have thought that I love you but I didn´t, I´m sorry but I can´t change it."

"And how long are you going to think that you love Jude...a year maybe two.? Tom if you love her then you let her go, you let her be free...don´t cause her the pain you caused me."

And with that Portia walked out of the door leaving a nervous Tommy behind. Was he really doing the right thing in marrying Jude??

"Tommy!" He heard Jude yell and broke out of his thoughts just in time to see the red light. Tom pressed his foot onto the break and the car stopped, he put an arm in front of Jude to protect her and breathed heavily. She stared at him with wide eyes and asked.

"What the hell was that"

"Sorry I wasn´t looking."

"Oh really?" Jude asked looking at him, something was wrong...she just didn´t know what. He wouldn´t tell her and she knew that if she asked he would say he was fine.

"Tom what´s wrong!?"

"Nothing I´m fine." She knew it, Jude shook her head and said.

"Fine...could we drive now?" Tom nodded hearing her annoyed voice and drove off.

Tommy and Jude were lying in the bed both staring at the ceiling.

"Don´t you want that baby?" She asked scared of his answer.

"What..." Tommy asked as he sat up.

"Don´t you want that baby?" Sitting up with him.

"Of course I want that baby!"

"You sure because you sure as hell not acting like it."

"What´s that supposed to mean?"

Jude stared at him before she looked down at the sheets and wisphered.

"Are you having an affair?"

"NO!!" Jude jumped moved to the other end of the bed, seeing her reatction he said in a gentle voice.

"I´m sorry but you know I love you and this baby and I would never cheat on you."

She sighed and said.

"Yeah I know I´m sorry too...I didn´t mean it!"

"Yes you did!" Jude looked at him and he continued.

"Look Jude...I´m sick of it, sick of you being jealous, sick of you accusing me of things I didn´t do..."

"I´m sorry Tom!" She said tears running down her cheeks.

"Can´t we just forget it?" She asked hopefully.

"What do you want from me Jude?"

"I..."

"I´m not the same guy I used to be, I thought you knew that"

"I do...come on Tom I love you...I´m sorry!!"

"I don´t even know why you married me"

"What..."

"I mean you think I´m cheating you, you think I don´t want this baby why do you even love me Jude...WHY!!"

Jude stared at him still crying and holding her belly in a protectiv manner. Tom saw this and a tear ran down his cheek.

"And you are scared of me!" He sighed and got up.

"Where are you going?" Jude asked hoping he would stay.

"I´m sleeping on the couch." He walked out of the room and Jude looked down.

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