Chapter Nine
I took my seat next to my new group of friends.
Suigetsu on my right.
Karin on my left.
And Juugo sitting across from me.
Yes, Juugo, the school's biggest freak. It was almost out of pity that I became his friend. If I was the only one who could control him, I should be around him as often as I could.
As for Karin and Suigetsu...well, Karin sort of reminded me of Sakura before she became a complete bitch. And Suigetsu...well, I don't really know, he just sort of came along with the pack.
I turned to look at the table behind me where Sakura and Itachi were sitting.
I narrowed my eyes. Sure, Itachi said not to rush it, but wasn't a month a little long to wait? If my assumptions were correct, then Itachi should be about as fed up of Sakura as I was. How could he possibly be pulling it off? He looked like he was actually enjoying his time with Sakura.
"Hey, hey, I just thought of a joke," Suigetsu said excitedly. "What is FedEx and UPS combined?"
"I don't know," I said, uninterested as I still stared at Itachi and Sakura.
"Fed up! Don't you get it?"
Karin sighed. "I'm "fed up" with your jokes. I've heard that one before."
"Oh, suck it up," Suigetsu said as he rolled his eyes and took a bite of his sandwhich.
"Sasuke?" Karin asked out of concern.
"Sorry," I muttered as I turned to focus on my table, not Itachi's.
Karin looked back at Sakura and Itachi. "Didn't he say that you were his "dream girl"?" She asked.
"Yeah...but maybe he was just kidding me..." I said. I didn't understand any of it. What was going through Itachi's mind? Was he even thinking about my feelings all through this past month? Did he even care about my feelings?
"I don't think Itachi's that cruel..." Kisame said as he sat down next to Juugo.
Right, I forgot to mention that part.
All the people that were in my brother's group were now in my group, along with Suigetsu, Karin, and Juugo.
Well, everyone in my brother's group, excluding my brother himself.
"Are you hungry, Sasuke?" Kisame asked me.
I gave him a confused look. Why the hell did he want to know if I was hungry or not?
...oh.
"Do you want my gummy bears?"
"Hell yeah."
I handed Kisame the container.
"You owe me," I told him, just to be mean. I mean, I couldn't keep all this anger and frustration inside of me.
Kisame smirked. "What do you want?" He asked me.
Everyone already knew the answer to that.
"Itachi," I muttered.
"Sasuke, maybe you should give up on-"
"No, Karin, don't even go there," I interrupted her, "I won't give up...I would never be able to forgive myself."
"Wow...that was deep, man," Suigetsu said.
Well...my feelings were deep.
For Itachi, I mean.
For anyone else...not so much.
"Hey Kisame, can I have a gummy bear?"
Of course Tobi would be hiding behind Kisame.
"They aren't mine," Kisame replied.
"Sasuke, can I-"
"Yeah, go ahead."
I let everyone else talk as I looked back at Itachi and Sakura. Did I have to drill it into his skull that Sakura was the bad guy-or technically girl?
The rest of the day seemed to go by as slow as humanly possible.
It didn't help seeing Sakura and Itachi walking through the hallways together whenever I was going to my next class.
When the final bell rang, I hurried home. I didn't feel like riding the bus, because then I would have to face Itachi.
No, don't worry, I wasn't mad at Itachi. I was mad at myself. I was mad that I let my emotions take me so far.
I was expecting too much out of Itachi. I mean, he was my brother. He wouldn't so easily fall for me, even after I was so sincere to explain everything to him a month ago.
It was impossible.
Society was finally right about something.
It was impossible for brothers to fall in love with each other.
I couldn't believe it.
Maybe that whole "dream girl" to Itachi was all a joke, all an act.
I felt embarrassed...used, and nonexistent.
Obviously Sakura knew what she was doing to me...
But did Itachi realize that?
My hands balled up into fists.
This wasn't right.
This wasn't fair.
What did I do? Why as this happening to me?
Then a drop of rain hit me. I looked up to see that the clouds were dark and gloomy.
It was going to storm.
I didn't quicken my pace, I didn't want to go home.
I just wanted to be alone.
Just somewhere...without Sakura, without Itachi.
Just somewhere to think.
I looked ahead to see that there was a bench up ahead. I would stop there.
Every step felt like it would take years, and every breath a millennium.
I wanted to get away from it all.
I felt my eyelids falling down on me.
A couple more steps, just a couple more steps...
I felt myself falling...drifting away from life.
I barely even noticed how heavily it was raining now.
I collapsed on the bench and closed my eyes, waiting for my final rest.