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Bella Pov:
Over the next couple of days I had to get use to my new body. I was not use to the gracefulness I was able to do stuff. I had to call into work and tell them that I had family emergency back home and wouldn't be back for a long time. I gave up my position and they accepted but assured me I would always have a job if I needed to come back home. The Cullen's continued to go to school so my leaving didn't seem too suspicious. After school and before school I spent most of my time learning. Rosalie and Alice taught me how to act more human, blinking, moving my weight around, stuff like that. Emmett taught me how to work with my new strength of course he taught me a little to well and I beat him up most of the time. The whole time my mind was conflicted. There was Edward he was always an undeniable love in my life. After 7 years a normal human being would have gotten over him, of course I was so messed up that I couldn't. Then there was Jake he helped me out so much and I know that if I wasn't so messed up I would have been with him, safe in Forks. I had to admit to myself sooner or later I was in love with him, but I also had to admit to myself that I was more in love with Edward. Could I hurt Jacob the same way Edward hurt me?
"Momma," Maggie looked at me from my lap questioningly. "Momma, can you read to me before I go to bed?" I nodded and picked her to her room. Esme had figured that I would be spending a lot of time with them so would Maggie and she needed her own room. Since Jacob was still being protecting with Maggie she offered him a room too but he declined saying his place was in the woods. I took her favorite book from a top shelf and began to tuck her in, "Eddie," she squealed. I turned to say Edward leaning on the door frame, "Eddie will you read to me with Momma?"
He chuckled, "Sure sweetie." He sat next to me and looked at the book I had chosen, Goldie Locks and the three bears.
I opened the book and began to read, "This story is about a girl whose name is Goldie Locks, because of her gold locks of hair. There are also three bears. One day they made some porridge but it was too hot to eat. So they decided to go on a walk. One day Goldie Locks was walking in the woods and she saw a small house. She discovered that there was nobody home so she walked right into the house…" We kept trading off reading as Goldie Locks mad her way through the bear's house.
"Somebody has been sitting in my chair," Edward said in a big burly voice.
I giggled, "Somebody has been sitting in my chair too."
"Somebody broke my chair," Maggie replied automatically.
Jacob Pov:
They were perfect together, all three of them. I waited in Bella's room for her to finish tucking in Maggie. I heard her squeal at the sight of the leech, she use to do that for me. They began to read the story like a perfect family, Edward the protective father, Bella the beautiful mother, and baby Maggie. I had no place in this family; it was my time to leave.
Edward Pov:
"Then she woke up to see all the bears staring down at her. She was so scared of the bears that she ran all the way home." I closed the book and saw that Maggie was fast asleep. As I put the book back on the shelf Bella tucked her in tighter. "She's beautiful you know," I gave Bella an assuring smile, "just like her momma."
She smiled back and took my hand guiding me out of the room, "Thanks for that."
"Well you are beautiful," we were still holding hands but I was scared to have my hopes go too high.
She shook her head, "No not that well thanks too but for being so good with Maggie. The closest thing to a dad she's ever had is Jake and he lives miles away."
"Bella I will always be there for you guys, always. I love you both, but admittedly you more."
Bella Pov:
Ugh, that smirk no matter what I am vamp or human it still drives me crazy. "You don't have to feel obligated you know," I won't let myself believe this could work not yet at least. Later I will delude myself in my Edward fantasies.
"It's no obligation," he squeezed my hand a little tighter. "Bella I have never stopped loving you, and I fell in love with Maggie instantly. As long as you let me I will be here for you."
"Oh Edward," at that moment Jacob walked out of my room and I dropped Edward's hand out of instinct. Unfortunately I caught the hurt look that passed his eyes. "Hey Jake where you off to," I noticed the bag in his hand.
He smiled at me, but it wasn't a Jake smile. It was more like the smile he had when he first became a werewolf the one I hated so much because it reminded me of Sam. "I'm going home Bella, there's nothing left for me here."
"Oh Jake, you can't leave yet it feels like we have had no time together," I walked over to grab his hand but he pulled away.
"Bella, we can't do this anymore," he sighed in frustration. "I can't do this anymore, listen you have made your life here and Maggie is beyond happy that is all I cared about. I just wanted to make sure Maggie is safe and now I know she is. Now I'm going to go home, and go back to work and the pack. I have duties there that don't involve you Bella."
I didn't understand why he was acting like this, "is it because I'm a vampire now?"
He sighed, "Bella! I just finished telling you my life doesn't revolve around you. I ask the lee- Edward to turn you into a vampire do you honestly think I would ask him that and then leave you because he did it." He shook his head, "There is nothing left for me here Bells."
"How can you say that? What about me and Maggie?" I don't know why I was so hurt; I knew that he was going to get hurt if he stayed. "Ugh Jake I'm sorry, listen if you need to go back home I hope you have a safe trip. Tell the pack I miss them and love them all."
His bravado façade dropped instantly, "Bella I'm not leaving you guys for ever. I love you both too much and I'm way too selfish. This just isn't where I belong Forks, is where I belong and with the pack."
"I understand," I walked over and hugged him even though his skin was burning at touch. "Bye Jake, I love you," I knew that hurt him but I had to tell him the truth; I had a feeling that was the last time I was seeing him.
"I love you too Bells," then he walked into Maggie's room to say goodbye.
I turned to Edward, "I'm sorry."
"Sorry for what?" He looked puzzle, but I could still see all the hurt in his eyes.
How can I hurt both of them like this? "I just finished hurting Jake and in the process I end up hurting you too." I shook my head, "I swear I'm a menace to society… at least to this family."
Edward Pov:
I wrapped my arms around her, "You aren't a menace Bella love. Though you might have hurt me a bit, it will never match all the hurt I put you through. I know I hurt you immensely Bella, but I would love it if somehow you can find it in that beautiful and loving heart of yours to forgive me?" I know that was a cheap shot but I had to try I loved her to much.
"Of course I forgive you Edward I …"
Are you serious? Is she really, "You what?"
"I love you, I never stopped loving you." I kissed her in that instant and unfortunately at that moment Maggie's ear piercing cry cut the air.
"Maggie," Bella pulled away from me and ran into the room.
Jacob Pov:
I walked into Maggie's room and found her fast asleep. I sat at the edge of her bed and pushed a strand of hair away from her face.
"Birdie," she talked in her sleep just like Bella. I chuckled and kissed her forehead.
"Bye my sweet angel, I have to go home now. But don't worry I'm keeping an eye out for you always, and I don't know when we will see each other again but I don't want you to think I'm abandoning you."
She stirred in her sleep and then being the cutest thing alive rubbed her eyes and woke up, "Jake?"
"Hi princess, I'm just saying goodbye," her smile turned into a pout.
"Bye? Jakey why you say bye," her eyes began to fill with tears.
I picked her up and sat her in my lap, "It's time for me to go home. We talked about this remember, I will be back."
She wrapped her arms around my neck as tight as she could, "no don't go Jake pwease."
The tears began to escape her eyes, "Sweetie you have Momma, Edward, and all the Cullen's." I tucked her back into bed, "I love you princess, be good." She began to screech, "No Maggie calm down."
Edward and Bella came running into the room. Edward scooped Maggie into his arms, "what did you do?"
"Listen, I didn't do anything I told her I was leaving and she started crying."
Bella came over and started patting Maggie's back, "You had to wake her up to tell her Jake?"
Are you serious? "I didn't wake her up, she woke up by herself." I took a deep breathe, "I wouldn't intentionally hurt Maggie Bella. Listen I'm leaving obviously saying goodbye to me is to painful, that you have to be pissed off at me to even cope with the pain." I smirked, I know I was totally off base but if I told myself that then I could handle leaving. "Goodbye my little princess, remember what I told you. I will always be watching over you."
Then I left, I walked out the door with calls from Maggie and Bella behind me but neither of them came after me and that's how I knew I made the right decision.
Bella Pov:
I ran to the window and watched Jacob transform into a werewolf and walk away. I never understood how my body was going to cope with sadness since tears weren't able to be produced in this new body. I suddenly understood at that moment. My whole body shook with tearless sobs.
"Goodbye Jake," I whispered, "I love you." I felt two strong arms wrap themselves around me. "No don't comfort me, I don't deserve it."
He kissed my cheek, "You deserve this and more."
"Jakey really left momma?" Maggie was hanging onto Edwards's leg like she liked to do a lot. He hardly noticed at times the 40lbs of extra weight.
I picked her up and we all stood there together, "One day angel, one day."
Oh that jacob .. tsk tsk
Dont get me wrong I love Jake well New Moon was
a bit annoying but the character over all is complex on
so many levels and I can identify with him so much
The whole staying with a best friend you love even though
they dont love you back -- /
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