Disclaimer: Not mine, no matter how much I wish. As before, if it were, Cameron would be in the show a lot more than she is!
Cameron's Point of View
You wonder when things changed, when you stopped seeing him as just a friend, helping him grieve over his lost girlfriend. You had been doing the right thing, seeing as you'd been through it, helping him through the grieving process. Now, you sit there on what had become a regular thing for the two of you, watching a movie, laughing at the comedy you picked out. You notice his eyes have glazed over and know he's not really paying attention to the movie. You think to yourself, he has beautiful eyes, so warm. And then you snap out of it, you have a boyfriend, sitting at home, waiting for you, and here you are with your friend, watching a movie, enjoying yourself more than you have in a very long time. That's when you realize your feelings have changed, but there is no way in hell you will tell him. You think of Chase and become flustered, thinking you are in the same territory as those many years ago. You will not cheat on the man you are with, no matter how good the one you are actually sitting beside makes you feel. The movie ends, you ask him how he enjoyed it, but you can tell he's not paid attention. You get ready to go, and he envelopes you in a warm hug, before you head out the door. You hold onto him a little longer than necessary, then head out. You stop outside your door, desperately wishing you weren't leaving, but heading for home anyway.
You get home, and things just go downhill. You can tell that Chase isn't pleased that you still go to Wilson's for these movie nights, that he thinks Wilson has had more than enough time to get used to life without Amber. Rather than fight, you start getting ready for bed, and he comes to you, expecting more. Which would have been fine, except every time he kisses you, you are wishing it was someone else, and you eventually pull away, not wanting to tonight. Which leads to a huge fight that keeps you up half the night, and him sleeping on the couch. You drag yourself to work the next day, beat from the lack of sleep and sore eyes. You lose all track of time, and have no idea that it's way past lunch hour, until Wilson shows up in the ER looking for you. You have been lunch buddies with him for awhile now, and apparently he's grown used to it. You can't look him in the eye, your thoughts of wanting him last night instead of Chase embarassing you. He waits for you to finish up with your patient and then you head with him up to his office. Once there, you start crying, telling him of your fight, but not telling him of your feelings. He holds you in his arms, and you think how safe you feel, and in no hurry to let it go. Eventually you stop crying and head back to work, but are still unsettled and tired. Things are indeed changing, and you aren't sure you want to stop them.
Wilson pulls away from you after that, he thinks he's interfering with your relationship with Chase, so he backs off, gives you your space. You really try with Robert, but your heart isn't in it any more. You finally have a huge fight, and break up. You bemoan the fact that you had moved in with him, giving up your cozy apartment a few months ago, but take it as a fresh start. You coerce James into helping you look for a new one, and he does, you can see he feels a little responsible for you looking for a new apartment to begin with. You are actually quite lucky, it doesn't take as long as you think to find a new place, one that is bigger than your old one, and at the same time, more cozy. It even has a green space out back, so you do a little weekend gardening. An added bonus is the fact the apartment is quite close to James' and the hospital too, although you think that fact that it's closer to James' appeals to you more. As you are looking around the room that is to be your bedroom, you think of things you'd like to do in there with the man you are standing beside. You blush at your thoughts, and ask James what he thinks of your room. He mutters something, you laugh inspite of yourself, and realize how happy you are to be standing here, just doing this. In the back part of your mind, you wonder if you ever really loved Chase, because you don't feel the devastation of a break up quite like you thought you would. You decide to take the place, and can't wait to move in.
James helps you move into your new place. Chase made himself scarce the day of your move, which is a relief of some sort. He's taking the breakup harder than you are, but then, you think to yourself, he always had been a little more in love with you then you were with him. Back when it was just a physical relationship, Cuddy had said that you would be the one that would be devastated by a breakup, but she couldn't have been more wrong. You finally have everything packed, and the moved over to your new place. James stays to help you unpack stuff, and that's when everything does, indeed, change for you. You both reach into the same box, at the same time, and you hit heads. He's not as affected as you, you feel a bump starting to form. He goes to the kitchen for a cold cloth and when he comes back, he applies it to your head. The next second, you suddenly feel his lips on yours, and are overjoyed. You aren't the only one who's been thinking these thoughts. Your eyes fly open, and are looking into his big, brown ones, and the only thing you can think of to say to him is "What took you so long?" It's then that you realize that you aren't the rebound girl after Amber, only there to get him through. There is so much warmth and love in that kiss, it makes you blush, and you never want to let that go. You are glad you waited, and are overjoyed he feels the same way about you.
When everyone finds out about your relationship, people take it different ways. Chase is particularly harsh with you, and you think he has reason to be. Although you never cheated on him physically(which he thinks you did, helping Wilson get over his grief), you still feel you cheated on him emotionally. You couldn't love him like you did Wilson, and it's sad you didn't realize it sooner. House, of course, makes it in to a huge joke, telling everyone that he told you to make Wilson stay by having sex with him. He quits the jokes when he realizes he may be taking it a step too far, and doesn't want to damage his renewed friendship with Wilson. Cuddy gives you both the speech about not letting it interfere with your work, and the rest of the hospital rumor mill speeds up. You get strange looks here and there, but no one says anything of importance. A year into your relationship with Wilson, he asks you to marry him. You cry when he says he thinks he finally has it right, and you hug him as you say yes, many, many times. Two years after you marry, you give birth to your first child, a girl with her father's big brown eyes. A year later, a boy joins your family, with your eyes, and you fell very, very content. You look at the man you love, and think of Amber. You hope she is at peace, wherever she is, because for the first time, in a long time, you are.