A/N: Just felt like writing this. No relation to the previous chapter. Part 1 Only, though (: Please review! I know eyes isn't the opposite of heart . But, oh well .. I get a feeling i'm too long-winded. Anyway . Didn't i just say i was too long-winded? omg. what's wrong?
Disclaimer: I do not own DGM. I do not OWN dgm. I do not oWn DgM.
"Nom nom nom again, Allen!" Lavi gasped at the speed I was eating, I didn't understand what was so surprising, he's known me for some time now. "I wonder how you eat so much but still stay a beansprout!" Now, I couldn't stand that.
"It's Allen!" I took a few seconds break to say that, smiled, and then went back to gobble my food.
Ahh, Allen's always like that. He's keeping so much inside himself. Nope, I don't mean food. Why am I even joking when I think? This may be some kind of thinking disease.. Lenalee may not notice, but Allen's so pressured and stressed deep inside.
I finished eating my food and looked up. Why was Lavi staring at me? "What's wrong, Lavi?" I asked. Smiling once again. He looked shocked.
"It's nothing, it's nothing. I was just surprised you ate so quickly. Lenalee isn't even here yet!" He was nervous about something. Hmmm.. what might it be?
Oh well, such things are too complicated for me. The only thing I need to understand is my friends. I love them, and.. I think they love me. Lenalee was right. I wonder what would happen to me if my friends were lost, too. I dared not imagine, leaving my thoughts stranding for a while. "Oh! That's right, I can't believe I forgot!" While I was frowning guiltily, Lenalee appeared in her black and red new exorcist uniform. I just wore it today, too. Comfortable, but it looked rather like a military uniform, giving her a special steady and exotic look, especially with her new innocence. Beautiful nonetheless.
"Good morning, everyone!" She exclaimed happily, grinning widely. Ahh.. how comforting it is. I wonder when we would have to face the Earl again. We better train hard for the upcoming battle, we couldn't even win a level 4. Thank God Lenalee got her innocence back. I smiled silently, glad she could fight along with me once again.
"Lenaleeeeee, Allen forgot to wait for you!" Lavi accused mischievously, pointing at my humongous number of plates in front of me. I immediately blushed, damn you Lavi.
"I'm so sorry," bowing my head slightly. "I can stay and keep you company, Lenalee." I looked up, hoping she wasn't disappointed.
"Smooth move, Allen!" Lavi teased.
"It's alright, Allen-kun! Don't have to be so formal among us. We are friends, aren't we?" She tilted my chin up, making me look her in the eye. I could feel myself blushing again, I wonder when she would let me look away, looking at her was something I did often.
I smiled, whispering a silent thank you to her. She left to order her food, beaming down between the tables towards Jerry's 'station'. My eyes traced her all the way there, where she stood, smiling joyfully and placing her short order.
"Allen. I noticed you've been rather stressed lately. Whatever is happening, don't forget we are your friends, alright?" Lavi said, this time, his smile was different. It was a caring smile, slightly pitiful. I could trace the sympathy into his eyes. Do they look down on me?
I smiled, "Nothing's wrong, Lavi!" reaching across the table and pushing him slightly. "You aren't always happy, either." Grinning, I left him to muse on what I just said.
"You sure?" He kicked my shin slightly. The hysterical smile on his face again. I've seen him depressed before, even now, stuck between the choice—Bookman, or Exorcist. It was tough for him, too. What's with the maniacal smile, anyway? "You like Lenalee?"
What the?! Such a sudden question. I felt myself flush uncontrollably. Probably redder than I've ever been before. "Lavi!! Don't ask such ridiculous things!" I shouted loudly, slightly annoyed. He loved to tease me. Am I even his friend or not? I thought, rather playfully.
"So you do!!" Lavi was laughing now, coughing out his drink, and slamming the table with his palms every few seconds. I flushed EVEN redder, though I wonder how I looked. Maybe my curse had camouflaged.
"Why're you laughing, Lavi?" Lenalee was back, she slid her tray onto the table and sat down beside me. I stared down at the floor, knowing that I would lose control the moment I looked up into Lavi's face. He was still laughing!
"You want to know, Lenalee?" He asked between his laughs, panting heavily from the large amounts of laughing.
"Of course I do! And what's Allen doing, hiding his head!" She looked at me. "You alright, Allen? Look up! I can sit beside Lavi if you don't want me to sit beside—"
"No, nothing's wrong, Lenalee!" I looked up. I wanted her to sit beside me, it made me happy. Smiling as sweetly as possible, I looked at her. She was smiling too!
"I'll tell you! Well, I asked Allen if he li—" I stopped him from completing his sentence by stuffing a piece of meat from his plate into his mouth. Doesn't he know when to keep quiet? I finally stopped blushing, but it's starting again.
"If he what?" I stared Lavi in the eye, making sure he knows I'm telling him to shut up.
"He doesn't want me to tell you!!" Lavi said humorously.
"Allen, why can't I know?!" Lenalee looked at me pleadingly, pouting slightly so I would tell her. Crap.. I'm in a bad position. I can't tell her, but she wants to know!
"Lenalee, can you not ask, please?" I replied, as pleadingly as the way she said it. Knowing she probably won't stop asking, I started to think of a way to escape.
"Alright, Allen, If you don't want me to know, I don't want to know." She said, smiling pleasantly once again. Ahhh.. That feels good. I acknowledged her smile with my own.
Suddenly, a deep voice echoed, "Allen, Komui wants you in his office. It's not a mission. It's something leisure, I hope." It was Reever through the loudspeaker. Crap.. just when we were starting to talk.. "I've got to go, then. I cry your pardon regarding my early absence!" I stated, at least I wouldn't be teased anymore! Blushing slightly, I looked at Lenalee with sorry eyes, before leaving the canteen.
"Lenalee, want to know why Allen was all red just now?" Lavi asked. Of course I was curious, Allen was looking at me with a totally red face, completely embarrassed! Could it be he wasn't comfortable with me sitting beside him? That isn't possible. I've sat with him countless times already. There had been moments where I've laid my head down on his shoulders too. Although that made him blush very, very cutely. I giggled within myself.
"Tell me please!!" I laughed, Allen was such an easy-going person. I wonder if his past was really true. If I was in his position, I would probably be very un-open and un-friendly. He's a complete opposite though. Friendly, kind, and seemingly without any problems. He was too sweet, such a gentleman too. Ever since I told him he was less polite, he has been keeping up his manners very well, to an extent I may say, a waiter to the customer.
"I asked him whether he liked you!" He was amused to a point where he couldn't laugh. I blushed frantically, unable to control it. Suddenly his laughter stopped. "He didn't answer. You like him too, don't you?"
"Ermm.. Allen-kun's kind and good-natured. He's friendly and polite. Don't you think so too? The only bad thing I see about him may be that.." I thought about it for a while. Was I revealing too much of my secrets? No, I wasn't. Lavi and I knew each other for a long time, he wouldn't let the secret out and betray me. "He's too easy-going." I finished.
"I disagree. Despite being all cute and fuzzy all the time. He never lets anyone go after they've hurt any of us, if you think hard enough, he's probably no where near lenient when it comes to enemies who have harmed his friends." Lavi stated. For another time, one of the few, he was serious.
"He doesn't have as much worries as us, Lavi. That's why he's so calm and cute and fuzzy and—"
"The list won't stop, Lenalee. Allen's so much good." Lavi said. He loved Allen too. He was an important friend to us. Overhearing our conversation, Kanda slowly moved and sat beside Lavi across the table. Although he came, he didn't say anything, but just stared aimlessly at the corridor.
"Yup, he's good! Allen-kun doesn't have as much worries as us, right Kanda? Lavi wouldn't agree!" I said. I could tell Lavi didn't agree although he did not comment on that statement
"You're wrong. Moyashi's suffering the most among us." Kanda said, bluntly. I was shocked. Why did everyone say that?
"No!! You all are wrong! Look at Allen, he smiles so much, eats so much, plays so much, and is always happy! He's so happy when he's around us!" I was losing my cool. I wasn't used to talking such serious things with men, and especially when I'm wrong.
"Exactly right!" Lavi said. At least he has come to his senses. "He's always happy around us. Have you ever see him alone before? The way he looks, sighing deeply, rolling his eyes sometimes. The way he shuts his eyes for a moment before he goes to the canteen, or go into public places, smile on his face?" Was that true?
Yes it was. I haven't looked at Allen when he was alone before. I only look at him when he's eating, or when he's fighting. How did Kanda and Lavi know so much?
"He's always fighting. Physically, mentally or emotionally. He's fighting the stress inside him, making sure to put a smile whenever he meets anyone. When he fights, he fights with determination and hope." Kanda stated. His usual emotionless face meeting me again. Was that true?
Yes it was. So that's why he never stops smiling. How could I not have noticed? He fights for us, for me, I concluded. The first person he wants to save all the time is, me.
"You're right.. But how do you all know so much?" I was asking too much, maybe. Lavi may get impatient.
"We observe the eyes, Lenalee. It comes from experience. Try it the next time you see him. Yeah! I'll be going off now!" Lavi stood up with his happy smile, and waved goodbye.
"You should try it." And Kanda left too! I sat there alone. Thinking of what they had just told me. Eyes, right? What about it? Allen had.. wait.. I don't even know his eye colour.
I was the only one in the cafeteria, thinking about what I just learnt. Eye, right? Cursed eye, no, I shouldn't be thinking such things. The only thing I know about his eye is that it's dangerous, and it hurts him. I hate his eye.. I don't want to look at it.
You should try it.
Try it the next time you see him.
I will try it.
"Komui-san?" I questioned. Leisure? What leisure? I smiled at Komui, he was smiling at me, happily.
"Hehe.." Oh crap. Too happily! Suddenly, the door slammed shut and straps came out of the door. The straps wrapped around my wrists and ankles. Suddenly tightening, I was stuck on the door. Oh dear..
"Ko-mui-i-san?" I struggled to break free. Damn it! I looked at him, two drills suddenly appeared in his arms. What the?!
"This is your punishment for being too close to my Lenalee! Putting a hand on her back when she's asleep, that's taking advantage of her!! DIVINE JUDGEMENT!" He grinned hysterically. Was he even human? How could Lenalee have a brother like this!! I tried to close my eyes or fall asleep before anything happens. Crap. I stared into his eyes, cold, evil.
It was the end. I'm dead. To my horror, yes, even greater horror, I suddenly blurted out "Lenalee!" My hands immediately shot up to my mouth. Covering it with my hands, I knew my death was signed. No one could enter. No one could save me.
As the drilling started, my arms went numb, eyes went black. The worst thing was, I couldn't fall unconscious, the pain was unbearable. My arms felt as if they were tearing apart. I was sweating, screaming for help. To no avail. I should've known. I am the savior, no one saves the savior. Just then, a green blur whizzed past me. The drillings stopped, as I fell into unconsciousness. "Lenalee, I need a saviour." I moaned, that was the last I could say.
Crap that sucked. Anyway, thanks for reading. )