Let me say this, it's rather weird, again XD. Spare me from your rants!!
"But he's lost!" Lenalee cried, almost whining at the red-head who sat opposite her. Lavi rolled his eyes, as he had started to get impatient from the rants of worry from Lenalee. Around a week ago, Allen Walker left on a mission alone, with Toma to the Arctic to discover if there was indeed an innocent fragment causing a massive ball made of ice that incinerated anything that went within 5 metres of it. Toma returned a few days ago, without Allen, recalling what Toma had said, "Ermm… he was just behind me a while ago."
"He'll be back soon, Lenalee. You know, you shouldn't get too worried about Allen." Lavi sighed uncontrollably. Although he and Lenalee had known each other for a long time, he couldn't help but find her annoying, for the first time. Since when did she start to whine so much?
Lenalee shrugged in wonder, "How can you keep so calm, Lavi? Aren't you worried?!" Lavi was on the verge of standing up and escaping from the complaints. Grimacing at the thought of listening to her grumbles throughout the whole day, Lavi sighed once again.
"I trust him, that's why." Lavi was satisfied, maybe this was enough to keep her quiet. Lenalee's eyes widened slightly, before she drooped her head downwards in guilt. Oops, maybe I went too far? Lavi thought, but soon discarded his doubts as Lenalee looked up at him and smiled.
"Excuse me, I'll go speak to Kanda for a bit." Lenalee smiled politely before taking her leave, and walked over to Kanda. Lavi remained seated, slightly relieved that Lenalee had calmed down. What may have happened to Allen? Was he attacked? No… he's probably just lost. Lavi considered the odds, Yup, definitely lost. He concluded, before hearing loud exclamations of irritation.
"Arghh, Lenalee! Moyashi's just lost! LOST! He'll be back soon!" Lavi looked over to Yu, grinning at his reaction. I wouldn't be so brave as to hurt Lenalee's feelings like that. Kanda fumed angrily as pounded the table before standing up and walked away from the cafeteria. Leaving a very worried and sad Lenalee all by herself. I can't leave her like that…
Lavi walked over and took a seat opposite Lenalee, "Don't worry about Allen. He'll be back by tomorrow, I promise!" Grinning slightly, "I'm sure he's just lost and will find his way back soon." Lenalee looked at Lavi with a soft smile, rewarding him with a silent 'thank you', before leaving Lavi alone. Why's everyone so touchy today? He mused, before taking his leave as well, heading back to his room to read 'England in the 10s", a history book regarding England during the 11th century.
I walked towards my room, head filled with thought about my closest friend, Allen Walker. We knew each other for only a short while, yet when we're together, it's as if we knew each other for a long time. I mused slightly, why was I so worried about him? He's the strongest exorcist among us, not including the Generals… yet, I couldn't help but hope he'll return home safely. I longed to stretch out my arms and touch his smooth cheek, welcoming him back home. Imagining further, he'll blush slightly, before smiling sweetly and saying, "I'm home, Lenalee."
Sighing deeply, I turned the cold knob and entered, the familiar sight of my room filling my sight. Ahhh, I felt slightly reassured after I entered my room. I slumped onto my bed and lied down, facing the ceiling. This was my favourite place, the place where I think about everything, and anything. However, recently my thoughts had been filled by Allen-kun. His faithful smile, that he still puts on even though all of us know how fake it was. I really had to ask Allen-kun about his smile when he came back. He's always hiding things from us, from me. I clenched my fist tightly, controlling my seething anger and hatred to his eye, the eye.
"I hate that eye of yours, Allen-kun." I remembered how I once flared my temper at Allen-kun for diving towards the Akuma to save it. My temper started to rise, remembering that incident. He's always so self-sacrificial, yet he forgets about all of us who can't bear to see him hurt… I didn't make such a big fuss when Lavi came back late from a mission, though. I was starting to wonder… was I attracted to Allen-kun?
My thoughts drifted off towards our experiences together, how he held my hand by the fingers, embarrassed even from the slightest physical contact. Such an innocent boy, probably the only one that didn't like me for my outward appearances—assuming he even likes me. What if Allen-kun was hurt during the mission? I barely contained a cry of horror, my mouth gaping wide open. I let out a muffled laugh, what am I thinking? Allen-kun can take care of himself. I trust him. The words of Lavi… I should trust Allen-kun too! He's probably just lost. I tried to reassure myself by repeating those words in my head. I could barely hear the faint sound of a familiar voice echoing through the hallways, "I'm home!"
Allen-kun! I thought and rushed out of my room, slamming the door so loud, I think the knob dislodged a little. Who cares, Allen-kun's back! I bounced down the hallways, heading towards the place he'll be, for sure.
I reached home, finally. Ahhh… I'm so hungry, my stomach growled loudly once again, as I remembered losing sight of Toma-san and having to find my way back home all alone! How terrible it felt, I mused. Self-pity didn't suit me. "I'm home!" I shouted loudly, hoping everyone could hear me, I liked it when they welcomed me home. I mocked myself silently, you are such an attention-seeker. Then, I thought deeper, the only attention I want is Lenalee's. The horrifying truth was, I was attracted to her. More and more each day, eventually I'll do something embarrassing. Sighing silently at myself, I headed towards the cafeteria, hoping to see Lenalee there. My stomach roared this time, pinching my stomach slightly to suppress the hunger, I scurried over towards the cafeteria. Was it left? Or right? Oh my, I should at least, know the route to the cafeteria by now… Bending through a few more dark corridors, I finally reached my destination.
I glanced up to see Lenalee and Lavi sitting down opposite each other, both laughing happily. A feeling welled up inside my tummy, suppressing the deep hunger from before. I scowled in slight irritation as I saw both of them together. Lavi noticed me, and hollered me over, "Allen! We've been waiting for you!" I ignored him, and waited for Lenalee to notice me. I had hoped for her to look at me happily too, but she just smiled at me and didn't say anything. I put on a smile to make sure none of them knew I was feeling envious.
Sighing silently to myself, I went to Jerry and started a long list of my orders. I leaned on the panel for a while, waiting for the dishes to be prepared. Did she notice I came back late? Probably not, not when she's so happy doing other things. Arghh, clenching my teeth in frustration, I reprimanded myself for thinking of such things. I'm supposed to be a gentleman, always be on best behaviour in front of your friends, that's what I learnt from Mana.
I balanced the two trays of dinner on my hands as I headed over towards Lavi, and Lenalee. Settling down beside Lavi, I looked over at the two of them, an awkward silence filling the empty tensions in my stomach. Deciding to lighten up the mood, "Itadakimasu!" I said, before starting to gobble up my food. Despite that, the silence still filled the air. Pausing to swallow my food, "What's wrong, guys?" I questioned. Did I do something wrong? Ahh…
"Nothings wrong, Allen, we," Lavi paused for a while, pointing at Lenalee and then at himself, "were just wondering if you would miss us from your long and wonderful trip!" Lavi grinned widely, obviously trying to be sarcastic.
"Eh…" I ruffled my hair slightly, "I missed all of you." I said, stealing a glance at Lenalee. Smiling as best as I could, I silently went back to eating. Lenalee and Lavi continued to chat about various things while I gobbled up my last few dishes. Mmmm! Delicious! My, Jerry's getting better and better each time. The dangos taste SO delicious! I laughed happily at myself, I finished all the food in 4 minutes. Record timing!
"Allen-kun's finished already?!" Lenalee was shocked. She appears to be shocked every time she sees me eat. It appears she still doesn't quite get used to me yet, and here I was, gullible me, hoping she may, even the slightest bit, liked me. I accidentally dropped my smile for a short moment, before smiling again.
"Yup! Jerry's cooking is better each time!" I exclaimed, as much joy in my voice as much as possible. I tried to emphasize the last part so Jerry could hear it. Both Lavi and Lenalee looked at me with concern, it appears they both noticed the sloppy drop in my smile. This isn't good, I don't want to burden my friends. I smiled once again, trying to reassure them that I was alright.
"Allen-kun, can you come with me for a while?" Lenalee said, her tone serious, yet gentle and calm. I felt the blush bloom on my cheeks as I thought about it, Lenalee and I, together? I felt rather overjoyed, yet nervous about the outcome.
"Sure." I replied, smiling ever-so-sweetly. Lavi nudged me lightly, winking at me and giving me a thumbs up. I could just imagine him saying, go get her, Allen!
We both stood up and left the cafeteria, I didn't know where we were headed, so I just followed Lenalee. We walked side by side down the dim lit hallways, I felt so tempted to slide my hand into hers, but knowing she would react in a negative, profound, unwanted manner… I kept my hands to myself. The silence was killing me, though. "Lenalee, are you alright?" I asked, mouthing my concern. She looked up at me, beamed happily, and continued walking.
Mana taught me to walk, anyway. As we walked along with the silence, Lenalee suddenly came to a halt at a balcony, the view was beautiful, the moon hung low that night, glistening in the dark, yet sparkling, sky. "I was so worried about you, Allen-kun." Lenalee mumbled slightly. I could tell she was rather disappointed at something.
"Sorry to make you worry, Lenalee." I bowed a little, hoping she'll accept my forgiveness. "At least I managed to find my way back to you." I said, grinning at her. Oh, wait. What did I just say? She looked at me in confusion, contemplating what I meant.
I stuttered, "E-eh.. Er-rr.. I mean, I managed to find my way back home. Yes, back home." I corrected myself, struggling not to blush. I can't believe I just said that. "Sorry, Lenalee." She looked up and smiled at me, shaking her head as if to say, it's okay.
I placed my elbows on the edge of the balcony, staring at the moon. "It's a beautiful night, Lenalee." I said, trying to strike a conversation. If there was something I was bad at, it was talking to Lenalee alone without a mission.
"It sure is." Such a blunt reply… I glanced over at her, her dark emerald locks hid her violet eyes from my view. It didn't really make a difference, I was already familiar with how it looked like. She was still focused on the view, though, as if waiting for me to say something. I looked towards the direction she was focused at, the tall trees, the stars. All fit in to portray a beautiful scene.
"How tall the trees, how bright the stars, and how beautiful you are, Lenalee." I gazed over towards her, it was time to make a move. At that moment, we both stared at each other, into each other's eyes.
"You're too kind, Allen-kun. Tell me, why do you keep smiling?" Before I could shrug slightly, "This is a serious question, okay?" I nodded obediently. It was rare that Lenalee was asking such serious questions alone.
I started to smile automatically, "It's a secret." Her eyes flared in frustration for a brief moment, before returning to it's previous, expressionless expression. Soon, she started to pout. Cute. "Well, Lenalee, I smile so that my friends don't worry about me." I stated, and smiled once more.
"Is that so?" she flared in anger. "It makes us more worried."
A rhetorical question, that was. I feel so tempted to say I love you. I tried mouthing the words silently, yet failed. Apparently, she noticed, and stared at me curiously. "What's wrong?" I shouldn't be such a gutless coward, maybe she does have feelings for me. Then I remembered how she was enjoying herself with Lavi, looking at the current situation, she probably enjoys herself more with Lavi… My eyes burned with jealousy for a second, before I concealed it.
"What's wrong, Allen-kun?" She requested an honest answer, but how could I tell her I was jealous?
"Well, e-er, I guess I was slightly envious of Lavi." I shrugged, that didn't turn out that badly. She giggled softly, before using her finger to pinch my face lightly.
"Allen-kun's so silly." She said, giggling never ending. "What about Lavi can you be jealous about?"
"How happy you are around him." I said that so simply, as if it didn't matter if she heard it or not. I felt my face flushed in embarrassment. Her giggling stopped, and she removed her hand from my face, and slid her two arms around my neck.
"Don't be jealous, Allen-kun." She smiled happily, "Can't you see I'm happy when you're around? I missed you so much when you were gone, Allen-kun." She looked like she was going to cry. I could barely control my blush, as I started to tense up from the enormous amount of physical contact. She was almost hugging me, Lenalee.
"Lenalee, I-I like you." I blurted out. Expecting a look of anger or irritation on her face, and her withdrawal from my neck, I looked down in guilt. How did my conscience let me say that? She probably didn't feel the same way to anyone. There was no movement. Maybe she's angry at me for saying such things. I clenched my fist in anger, how can we remain friends after she knows how I feel? As if knowing what I was thinking, her slender arms withdrew as I sighed in failure.
Before I could apologize, she tilted my chin up and pulled me in to a kiss. My whole body flinched from the contact. I hadn't expected such a thing. Those soft lips on mine, what should I do? I slid my arm around her waist and returned the kiss. It was a shy kiss from both of us. Suddenly, a ear-piercing shriek filled our home, "ALLEN-KUN YOU OCTOPUS!!"
We broke apart, as Lenalee sighed, so did I. "At least I found you, Lenalee." I said, before smiling at her and hugged her tightly. "I'll always find you when I'm lost."
She grinned and whispered into my ear, the hot breath tickling the tip of my ear, "I'll make sure you never get lost again." And she pulled me in once again, the Devil just a few corridors away.
I know it sucked C Anyway, review! ) Thanks to Muffiemaster for the idea .