Note: Chapter 10 this is.The talk between Sam and Kirsten. It was really, really hard to write and I've been rewriting it a couple of times, but this is how I guess it's the best. I hope you'll all find it somewhat realistic and good. So, -as usual,- let me know what you think of it!
Kirsten was nervous. Very, very nervous. She'd just got out of the airplane and Sam would be waiting for her at the airport. She wasn't very excited to see him. She had planned to tell Sam about her and Sandy that same day. She hated to tell Sam, since she knew he was going to be broken when she did. And if Kirsten was honest, she had to admit she was scared. Scared of what was going to come after she'd told Sam about her and Sandy. What he would say. What her father would say. What her friends would say... And most of all, what would happen with her life. She wanted to be with Sandy more than anything else in her life, but she had to admit that her life so far had been pretty good. She'd lived the perfect life, and she was scared of what was going to happen if it would change so bad that it wouldn't be perfect anymore. She felt stupid. Stupid for the way she was thinking. Being with Sandy was the most important thing in her life right now, but somehow the thoughts of her picture perfect life were in the back of her head constantly.
Kirsten saw Sam standing, waiting for her. His face formed a huge smile when he saw her, and Kirsten found it difficult to smile back at him as if she was truely glad to see him again. "Kirsten!" He walked up to her to grab one of her suitcases and gave her a big hug and a kiss on her lips. Kirsten couldn't say no. She realised she had to tell him as soon as she could. Now. But not here, at the airport. "Sam... Shall we go out, to eat something?" He grabbed her free hand and nodded. "Sure.. Where'd you wanna go?" "It's all the same to me." Sam smiled at her. "Let's just go home then." Kirsten sighed a little, what Sam blamed to her trip with the airplane. How was he supposed to know she was going to tell him something that would turn his whole life upside down in a couple of hours?
The drive in Sam's car was akward. Kirsten wasn't sure what to say and had the idea Sam felt there was something wrong. He was actually blaming Kirsten's silence to her trip. When they arrived at a home and sat down in their living room, Kirsten felt it was time. Time to tell him everything that had been going on since their school reunion. As soon as Sam sat down with two glasses of wine, Kirsten decided it was time. She took a deep breath. "Sam... I have to tell you something." Sam could tell by the look of her face that it was something serious. "Kirsten, if it's something serious... Let's discuss it when we get home. Right now I just want to enjoy being with you." Kirsten desperately wanted the conversation done and decided she was going to tell him. Now. "No Sam... I need to tell you now." Sam's dark eyes changed into a worried look and he grabbed her hand. "What's wrong honey?" Kirsten wanted him to let go of her hand, but it didn't happen. "Look Sam... First of all, you've got to know I'm sorry. I never planned any of this and I never wanted it to happen. But it did. And now, I have to admit that I'm glad it happened. Now I know what I want. But... Well... I guess you're not that glad it happened." She looked in his eyes but immidiately turned her face down again; she couldn't tell him while she was looking in his eyes. His big, brown eyes. She'd loved those eyes for years. She just loved Sandy's more. Kirsten felt Sam's hand become clammy and sweaty. "What are you trying to say Kirsten?" Kirsten felt her eyes getting wet. This was so hard. A tear fell down her face and she decided she had to tell him now. He could make a scene. Yell at her, call her names... Maybe even hit her. She wasn't sure how Sam was going to react. "I'm sorry... I'm really, really sorry." Sam saw how upset she was, but he wasn't in a place to comfort her. He needed to know what she was talking about. "Kirsten, tell me... Please, what is it?" "I fell in love..." Kirsten almost whispererd. Sam didn't understand what she was saying. "You... fell in love?" Kirsten nodded. "I fell in love with someone else." Sam let go of Kirsten's hand immidiately. She expected him to yell at her, to get mad. She didn't expected him to cry. He did though. "Kirsten... You do realise we're supposed to get married." Kirsten looked into his eyes. Both were crying a little. "I know, I know. But... I can't. I just can't. I... I do love you Sam. But I'm not in love with you, the way I think I should." "The way you are in love with someone else, you mean." Kirsten nodded slightly. She stood up. This was all she had to say. "I... I'll let someone contact you for the weddingplans. They'll make sure everything will be called off and let the guests know it's called off. I'll let someone pick up my stuff so you won't have to see me anymore." Kirsten looked at Sam; everything was clearly going way to fast for him. She had to admit it was going fast for her as well. But this was it. This was the end of their relationship. She was done with Sam as her soon-to-be-husband. He was her ex-boyfriend. "Goodbye, Sam." She grabbed her suitcases and turned around to leave. "Kirsten...". She turned around again. She saw Sam was crying now. "We can't just leave it like this. You can't leave me here with nothing left but your excuses and a short explaination. Don't you think I deserve a little more than that?" Kirsten felt more tears falling down her face. "I'm sorry... What do you want me to do or say? It's done, Sam. We're done..." She decided she had to leave now. She walked outside quickly, and put the two suitcases she was holding in her own car. When she started her car and left the house, what had been hers for years, she realised she wasn't sure what to do. She wanted to go back to Sandy. She knew he would be waiting for her. But what about her dad? Her job? She sighed and stopped her car near the beach. What the hell was she going to do with her dad?
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