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12th September
1895

My journal entries become more and more sporadic as I allow Edward Hyde's crimes to continue. But another event has occurred which has driven me greatly to try and stop him. It has been only a few times I have dared look upon the mirror and see how much paler and thinner I become- I have seen a glimpse some days and nights when I am met with the face of evil rather than my own. I have found that it has become a permanent fixture- the reflection of Henry Jekyll has been lost forever- every reflection in mirror or window or otherwise shows the true darkness inside me.

That is why I have begun my chemical research again- I will try to find an antidote or a suppressant for this elixir or I shall perish in the effort.

17th September
1895

Whatever chemicals I have been combining lately have become a haze and I have stricken myself unwell because of them. But, it is not as bad as when I last fell ill- I am recovering even from a chemical sickness which should surely kill me if it is not working. My apartment has become heavy with the smell of chemicals and a window slowly ventilates the room clear while I lie to rest.

I have not recovered from any serious sickness quite so quickly before… could it be that the elixir has instilled me a much stronger immunity? It is plausible when thought upon0 after all, with every transformation he grows taller and larger, stronger and it grows ever more painful as he does so. How else am I possibly surviving them?

15th October
1895

It has been so long and I had not given up working at chemical cure- but every possible solution I have tried so far has done nothing to suppress him beyond making me unwell enough to stop him from getting out. And even if that stops him, I cannot continue that way…I have also been reprimanded for the terrible chemical smell in the air- if I work with such heavy things continuously I will lose my lodgings. I fear that a cure is unattainable…at least, chemically…but what alternative is there?

30th October
1895

All Hallow's Eve- by now I have recovered almost completely. I have let Edward free- it is all I can do. I am too weak to resist him again and his persistence is remarkable… luckily there quite many parties going on on this night as well as the next, all in masquerade. Edward can slip amongst them without need to disguise his appearance despite towering above every man and woman- and that is who his next victims became. He killed a petit mondain and her client quite gleefully before returning to drink heavily at the ingoing celebrations…

Interestingly enough he met another woman whom he didn't see fit to kill and kept her company for the rest of the night- it is curious how his mood will change. She at least survived the evening after what came of it.

5th November
1895

Hyde has been seeing this girl, Lucille constantly- he has finally chosen a 'regular', which in my mind to be a positive turn. It may still be deeply bedded in sin but there is no death involved here… however he is incredibly violent to her if she makes a move to defy something he wants… I worry that it will not be long before she comes to an end by his hand as well. She is a beauty, I will admit- that may be why he has a sudden infatuation for her, or maybe it is because she seems to have some kind of odd attachment to him. It seems like a move of safety… there is little that could harm her in his company other than him.

24th November
1895

Lucille was brought to my apartment by Edward and it was not long before he had splintered her arm violently. Luckily for the girl, he was not long for the return transformation and stumbled out into the living room so that I could come back into control. I needed only to throw on a spare shirt to go and check how bad she was- I made an alert with the landlady to get some help, although she suspected me momentarily. The girl certainly jumped to my defense through the terrible pain she was suffering.

She is, actually, quite a sweet young lady- it is unfortunate for this to have become her life…even more unfortunate for her to still wish an attachment to Edward- but his violence towards her is getting so much worse than this as she was taken to a nearby Hospital after I made a quick sling to keep her arm still.

3rd December
1895

The girl has been coming here regularly and luckily enough for her, the arm is healing nicely. She seems to think that Hyde and I share an apartment- which in a way is true. She does question the absence of one in the presence of another but she would not believe the true explanation without seeing it- and I do not want that…although, I am tempted to do so…just to get her away from Edward. He tells me she comes here for me as well as him and I should stop thinking so conspiratorially- he is right… she does seem to have some affection towards me- but she is too frightened to do much about it.

Hyde is still very much violent to her and I press her not to come here anymore- or for Edward to take her back to where they used to meet. He has refused to pay her and threw her out roughly the other night. But she'll return, unfortunately, I know she will.

10th December
1895

As I expected, the girl has come back. So far she and Edward have been meeting away from here, for fear of me losing my apartment if Edward should keep hurting her here- lodgings will be difficult to find again now. But she arrived to me, quite upset and I could not send her away… she looked to have new injuries, not from Edward and I was driven to ask her what had happened.

It seemed that the man behind her 'money' was less than happy that she kept seeing Edward and getting no payment. I tried to console her as best I could- but she told me that she had to see other clients or she would suffer worse from both him and Edward- Hyde would hurt her for seeing anyone else- he had claimed his 'property' as it were…she clung to me rather tightly, half amusing and half vexing Hyde but he was not to make an appearance- not yet. I allowed her to stay for the night just to make her feel safer.

21st December
1895

Edward has killed the man controlling Lucille brutally and although she seems glad of this she has to live under toe roof of his wife who is just as brutal in her treatment of the girls- Hyde has murdered her too, going on a killing spree throughout the den where Lucille had worked. Unable to do anything but defy him, she had gone to another client- she had to get her payments from somewhere if Edward would not provide them and it has come to that terrible end which I have been dreading since they met.

The girl and the client were both killed without a second thought. And Hyde has moved on, as though he had become bored of her even when he was enraged to find her with someone else. The Police were on the scene in a short amount of time.

25th December
1895

Christmas day has become just another hollow day for me. It has no meaning left anymore- there is no one to share it with and all around me every time the holiday arrives is death, rape and violence. But I have one tradition, which is all I can do- to retire to a chair at the window, watching the few people below trudging through the snow or else to just stare across the white rooftops and into the grey sky which hangs overhead, just thinking about London.

I think about my old life, but I do not bother any more to despair over how I could have avoided this whole mess which my life has become, a body of water away from anyone I know or hold dear, who already think me dead- there is nothing that I can do to change the past. I am tempted to write to Gabriel Utterson but every time I am too afraid to.

The New Year rolls in slowly, approaching ominously, because I do not know what will become of me or of Paris while Edward Hyde still prowls its streets uncontrollably. I have nothing to look forward to and nothing but distant memories to comfort me if they can.

To be Continued..