Thinking about what my life has come to is kind weird and well funny. I mean from the time that I came out to this moment I have changed in so many ways.
Well of course I would have to change some because that was almost 2 years ago. But other then time I can think about what I didn't have then and what I have
now.
For starters I didn't have someone that couldn't make up his mind about whether he liked me or not. Even though I did have Kevin. But he wasn't gay. He didn't have any feelings towards me like Noah did. Noah came into my life in denial. He was denying that he was gay. And that made him confused about his feelings for me. I know that its confusing for anyone that is in the closet. But with Noah it was especially hard because his father being around and telling him that being this way is bad. Noah came here hoping to get away from his life back in Branson. Getting away from his father and getting away from everyone that thought that being gay was more terrible then a tornado.
Noah himself is a huge reason why I have changed so much. Even though he probably doesn't know it he means more to me then life its self. I know that I shouldn't say that. But its kinda true. Every time that we had fought or made each other mad I went home and somehow I couldn't get my mind off of him. It really flustered me when I would picture him ... Picture us together, happy because I knew that nothing was ever going to happen. But thank goodness I was wrong.
As I broke the kiss I stepped back so that I wouldn't get distracted from what I wanted to say.
"Noah can I ask you something?" I asked him sitting down on the chair that was tucked under the desk.
"Of course. Go for it."
"Did you mean what you said?" I said looking up at him.
"I said a lot that I meant so your going to have to clarify what one your talking about." He told me walking over to me. He crouched down in front of me.
"When you said you loved me." I said looking into his eyes.
"You know I figured you as the type of person that listens or even pays attention once and awhile." He said taking his hand and stroking my face.
"You haven't answered my question." I said putting my hand on his.
"Luke. Yes I meant it."
"Really? Its not a trick or something?"
"Luke I think that if I didn't love you that I wouldn't have said that I did. So yes I meant it. I do love you." He said lightly kissing me.
"So this means that we're together?"
"Yes. But technically I'm still with Maddie."
"Oh," I said looking down.
"Luke you have nothing to worry about. I am going to brake things off with her and tell her that I am in love with you. That I want to be with you."
He said with one small kiss.
"Luke." He said.
"Yeah?"
"Do you want to go out to get something to eat? I'm starving."
"Sure. I am too."
So we piled up all of our stuff and went to get something to eat. As we were eating someone grabbed my shoulder. I turned around and was staring at Maddie.