Okay, so i know this is really short but that's the way i roll. Your gonna be getting short chapters quickly, or long chapters slowly. Pick whichever. I'm usually too excited to wait, and i post them quickly. Also, if you have not heard 'Every Other Weekend' you need to listen to it. It's the song this story is based on. So i just about cried while writing this so please, just about cry with me. :D So here it is. Have fun!!
Bella's POV
I quickly recovered, and grabbed a pair of pants and a t-shirt out of the closet. I peeled the kids off me.
"Go get dressed so we can leave," I said, they quickly jumped and sprinted out of the room. "Cassidy!" Her little head popped out from behind the wall.
"Yah, Mom?" she asked in an excited and confused voice.
"Can you call you Father and remind him to meet us there at ten o'clock?" I asked her. I could never call him on my own. It hurt way too much to hear his velvet voice when I dropped them off. I didn't want to endure it when I didn't have too.
"Sure Mom." Cassidy said knowing how I was feeling. For a fourteen year old she was way too perspective. Just like her dad. I choked back a sob. I quickly walked to my bathroom. I shut the brown wooden door and pressed my back against the cold surface of the glass shower door. I slid down to the ground, and finally let the tears reign free. Once I let them go they gushed down my cheeks like my own personal waterfalls. How was I supposed to go on like this without him? Nobody told me it was going to be this hard. Every day I felt like I was dying slowly. Alice told me all the time he was going though the same thing, but she could never be right. He told me he didn't love me anymore. Every time I longed to have him beside me in my bed late at night, feeling the warmth of his body on mine, I remember how cold he was. Completely unfeeling as he told me he never loved me and never could. How could he do that to me? To our kids? Parker and Cassidy got bigger every day. It stung to know he wanted to be there, to watch them grow, just not with me by his side.
I took a deep breath and stood up. I ripped my shirt off and threw it in the hamper. I pulled the cotton dark blue shirt over my head. Once it was on I realized the color. I disregarded the thought, because if he lied for so long about loving me what else could he have been lying about? I kicked off my pajama shorts and threw on the pair of dark washed jeans I had snatched up. I finally looked in the mirror and groaned. I looked horrible. I grabbed the brush of the marble counter and tried, unsuscessfully, to unknot my mousy brown locks. I eventually got it semi strait just as I head the pitter patter of feet running up the stairs. A tiny knock sounded at the door, just as I as had stuck my toothbrush in my mouth and started scrubbing. I turned the handle to let them in. Cassidy danced inside and hopped on the counter.
"Dad said he's coming." She mumbled, "Mom, just tell him."
I spit into the sink and washed my mouth out with water.
"I can't, baby girl." I replied as I took a swig of Listerine. I saw her roll her eyes as I started swishing.
"Yes you can, your just too scared," she said, "Every one's scared, it's okay. You just need to overcome your fear if you ever want to be happy again."
I spit out the mouthwash and wiped my mouth before saying, "I am happy."
"No you're not, well kind of, but not as happy as you would be with him." she looked up at me with sadness in her green eyes. Just like her dads. I turned away before her words, or resemblance to Edward, could affect me.
"He doesn't love me." I whispered as I rummaged through my box of jewelry on my bathroom counter to find something to wear. A tiny pale hand slammed the box shut. I whipped my head up in disbelief as my daughter glared at me.
"YES HE DOES!" she screamed at me, veins bulging in her neck, "YOUR JUST TOO BLIND TO ADMIT THAT HE NEVER STOPPED LOVING YOU! HE WALKS AROUND THE HOUSE ALL DAY TRYING NOT TO CRY BECAUSE HE WANTS YOU BACK SO MUCH. HE PLAYS WITH US AND PRETENDS HE'S HAPPY BUT HE'S ALWAYS MISSING YOU. YOU'RE THE MISSING PIECE, BUT YOU'RE TOO SCARED TO FIT BACK INTO THE PUZZLE!"
She finally stopped screeching at me to take a breath. By now the tears were streaming down my face.
"Never," I spit out, with as much venom as I could muster, "Talk to me in that tone again young lady. Now you go down stairs and check on your brother and calm yourself before you are grounded. I will happily make you stay home from your Fathers."
She swallowed and turned on her heel and left. I let out a deep sigh. This was going to be way harder than I thought.
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