The day has seriously gone by quickly .I guess its everything that has happened today that made it seem that way. But I am actually glad that it is over. It feels, to me just a minute ago that I was confessing my true feelings for Luke. It is such a relief that I can act like myself again. I can be me, Noah Mayer without being afraid what Luke or Maddie will think of me. I know, to Luke, I haven't been fair to in the past. But things are changed and it's because of him. I owe him so much. He probably doesn't think that I owe him anything but I do. He helped me realize that what my dad wants is not what I really want. I owe him my whole life.
Maddie, I too owe. She has been so great through all of this. She has agreed to be my friend and help me with what ever I need. It is great to know that I'll
have her when I do decide to tell my dad. I'll surely need her with the way my father acted the last time I told him. I know this time he is going to go off.
That's if I know my father or not. I just hope that he wont do something to drastic. My father can get very destructive when he is mad and he doesn't let
anything or anyone stand in his way.
I have spent most of my life hating my father. I know that hate is a strong word but there is no other world to describe what I am feeling towards him. He has always found some way of making my life a living hell. So I think I have the right to use what ever word that I wish too. I cant say that my father has never loved me because in his own little way he does. I mean he wouldn't be the way he is if he didn't love me. He wouldn't control my life the way he does.
I just wish that he would stop everything and go back to Branson. I mean he was better in Branson. At least when he was in Branson he never was a big
annoyance like he is now. Now he is just hanging around Oakdale telling Maddie and I what we are great couple we are. He's pushing me on to her, literally .
In Branson I wouldn't have to worry weather or not he was going to see me out with Luke. But I'm sooner or later am going to get fed up with him and I'm
just going to shout out that I'm in love with one of the hottest guys in Oakdale
I do want to tell him more than anyone. I want him to see that this cant just pushed aside like trash. I need him to make him face this, some how. I just don't know how yet. That's something that I need to think about.
"So I guess I should get going," Maddie said.
"OK," I said smiling at her.
"Thanks for letting me stay. I'm am sorry to have ruined you date too." Maddie stands up.
"First off you have nothing to thank us about. If anything we should be thanking you. Secondly it wasn't a date." Luke said.
"Why would you do that I didn't do anything." She said touching Luke's shoulder.
"Maddie"
I got up.
"You have done so much for us, especially me. You understood everything that I was going thought. Even though you were mad at me for lying to you you still were able to forgive me and become my friend." I told her.
"And you have always been there when ever I needed to talk. I would have loved it if you were there to help me with this thing with Noah. But I don't think that you would've liked it if I told you that I loved you boyfriend.
"I'm here now so don't be afraid to come and talk to me when ever you need it. I would love to help." Maddie said telling both of us.
"Thanks Maddie we appreciate it so much. " I said giving her a hug.
"Its no problem. "
" So. See you tomorrow." She said and than walked away.
We sat back down.
"So what do you want to do? I don't have to be home till 10. We have a lot of time." Luke said.
"I don't know. What do you want to do?" I asked him .
"I don't know. Besides I asked you first." Luke said.
"Um. Do you want to go get some desert?" I asked him.
"Sure."
"OK."
We got up and holding hands we walked out of the door.