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Chapter thirteen Luke
Why cant Noah just understand that a writer never lets people read their stuff until they are done? I hope that what ever he plans is going to be fun or even maybe romantic. I know I never really picture Noah as the romantic type. But it doesn't kill to dream. Plus these days that would be just what I need. Something that makes me relax. Something that gets my mind off of... Everything. But I'm sure whatever Noah has planed will be great.
I don't know if Noah is going to think that this is going to be our first date. To tell you the truth I don't think that we should go on a date till Noah gets use to all of this. He just told his father. I think he should take some time and just think about what he really wants to do with his future. I mean what he wants to do, if he wants to be with me. I know that I have bothered Noah about this like over a million times but I don't know.. I just want to make sure he wants this.
Not to say that I would give up on him if he said that he didn't want this but I just want to give him his time to come to odds with everything. I know that this has been hard on him. Well its been hard on all of this. But I cant compare myself to him.
He has gone through more than anyone should have gone through. Not with just coming out but with growing up with a Colonel. I have heard that military men are the hardest on their children. Well I can say that in Noah's case that was it. He didn't accept Noah for being gay because he had higher expectations. He wanted him to follow in his foot steps and serve his country.
I know that I am being stupid. I just want to make sure Noah doesn't regret anything. I just want to take it slow, if anything. But if he says that he wants this, wants us then I guess that I want that too. Only if he tells me that he just isn't doing this to make a statement to his father. I know, how can I even think that he would do that to me? I know that he would never do that to me, I hope not.
I haven't known Noah for quite long. But I think that I know a lot about him. He really has opened up to me. Even after he found out I was gay. Which was such a surprise to me. I never knew why he did that. Until now that is.
I saved what I was writing. Then I shut the computer. I stand up and start walking over to Noah. I am standing about less than a foot away. I'm standing there thinking not knowing that Noah was talking to me.
"Hello?Earth to Luke. Anyone there?" He steps forward and waves his hand in front of my face.
"What?Did you say something Noah? " I said.
"Yeah. Are you OK Luke?"
"Yeah. I'm fine. Um . I have to ask you something." I said.
"Go right ahead."
"Uh..." I sat back down.
"Is tomorrow suppose to be a date?" I said looking up at him .
He walked over to another desk to get a chair. He placed it down in front of were I was sitting so he was facing me. He sat down.
"Actually yeah. It is suppose to be." He said looking at me nervously at what I was getting at.
"Oh.."
"what? Did you not want it to be?"
"No. Its not that I don't want it to be. I just.."
Why cant I explain this to him . I cant find the right words. Thats sounds stupid because I always seem to have the right words to describe everything. But not something like this apparently.
"Luke?"
"uh. sorry. Uh.. This is kinda hard to even think seeing that I want you more than anything. And just to be like this right now is great. But I don't think that we..Uh...we should get into something to fast. We should take this very slow. Plus this is technically both of our first real relationship with the same sex and I don't want to ruin it by jumping the gun. So to speak. You just talk you father and I don't think that we should overwhelm him with our relationship."
"So you don't want to do what I had planned for tomorrow?" He looks at his watch.
"Well today." He said .
I look at the big clock on the wall. It read 12:20.
"Wow. I didn't think that it was that late."
"Me neither."
I get up and gather my stuff. He gets up too and places the chair back where he got it.
"Um. I don't know. Maybe we could do something. I don't know. I'm to sleepy to decide." I yawned.
"So we're going to take this slow?" He asked.
"Well. I think that we should.
"Can I still kiss you. Or is that to fast for you?" He said jokingly.
"Well your father isn't here. What's the harm in that?"
I finished pulling my stuff together. I turned around and he kissed me.
Boy what a kiss. WHAT... A.. KISS.
We broke the kiss. I was breathless. With that kind of kiss why did I have to ask that we take it slow. Somethings I think that I can be so stupid. I don't know how I can be but I end up being stupid any way. But I still stand by what I said. We should take it slow.
"So I think that I should get home before my dad sends a search party out after me ." I said still trying to catch my breath.
"OK."
Its hard to just leave like this . I wish that I didn't have to leave. I wish that I could stay here all night with Noah. But I don't think that would be a good idea in many ways. But if I could spend the night with him somewhere else then that wouldn't be half bad either. But like I said SLOW. I think that I might hate that word now.
"See you tomorrow." I said taking one last glance at him . Then I turned to leave.
"What I don't get a good-bye kiss?"
My back was still facing him.
"S.L.O.W Noah."
"Cant we be S.L.O.W tomorrow." HE said mocking me.
"I think that you need the practice so you can start now."
I started to walk. But then something was all of sudden tugged on me.
I turned around and Noah stared at me.
He was playing the puppy dog routine ,sad eyes and a big pout.
"Come on. All I want is on kiss. One small goodnight kiss. That's all. OK."
I sighed. I cant resist him when he is like this. He is so cute when he is acting like this.
"OK . One that's it. OK?"
"OK."
I have this feeling that a small kiss is not going to be that small. I have to say that a kiss is not just a kiss when it's between me and Noah. It turn into something so powerful something that just takes over us. One of these days I wont be able to control myself.
We kiss.