Chapter fourteen
Luke POV Con.
We separate from the kiss. I stood there for a minute looking into his eyes trying to read what he was thinking. I did not succeed in doing it so I went for another kiss. But Noah pulled back. I knew that I was bad at reading minds but apparently Noah is pretty good at it. Why did he pull away? Oh. I forgot I asked him if we could keep it slow. But how can I do that when I really don't want to? I want us to take it faster then slow. I want to go normal speed. Slow, well if it makes since is to slow. But all I know is that telling Noah that I wanted to go slow was the biggest mistake I ever made. I want Noah . But I had to open my mouth and make him think the opposite.
Noah looked like he resented the fact that he pulled away. Like he wanted to be kissing me right now. But as I wished he is taking it slow. I step back and breath in deeply.
"Luke I don't think that we should base this relationship on how my father feels or doesn't feel about us. We shouldn't care what my thinks."
He said trying to sound convincing.
He's right.We shouldn't care. But of course it's hard not to care. Colonel Mayer now is a huge part of this. He got himself tangled up in this whole thing somehow. But its hard not to care about what he thinks. If he doesn't like me then we he will do something to make that known. I guess we just have to watch him as time goes by. Hope that he wont go crazy when he sees me and Noah talking of kissing when we think no one is around.
"In many ways you're right.But we both know that we care a lot. Your father has always made his opinion clear on what he thinks about me. I know that he probably thinks that somehow I made you this way. But you cant say that you don't care because I know for a fact that you do care. You wouldn't have been nervous about whether he was going to go crazy when you told him you were gay if you didn't care. You have always wanted your father to accept you..To see you for who you really are. Like every son you care about what your father thinks. A person that doesn't care what their parents say cant say that they will ever care much for anyone. Most people in this world put what their parents say to heart. That's what you did the first time you came out.You let your father push you into something that you don't want because you cared about what he thought about you."
I said moving back to him.
"I know that you're right but i just don't want him to screw up the best thing that has ever happened to me.I know that I will always try to please my father.
I will always care what he thinks. But I want you and I know that you don't want this. You don't want to that this slow. I sure don't want to either. But just because my father might hate the idea of us we decide to take it "slow." I can tell by the way that you kissed me that you don't want to take this slow. So I can tell you right now that isn't going to work.So if you want to do something to be sure my father wont all of a sudden get some strange urge to hate us then we will do whatever we can do. We will make sure he doesn't see us doing anything "heated". But we shouldn't punish ourselves because of him."
Noah stood there.He doesn't want to take it slow. At least we're on the same page. We want to be us. We want to be two people that are madly in love. We don't want to be hiding a huge part of ourselves just because Noah's father cant or wont face that we love each other. But like he said we will take every precaution when we're around him.I think that with whatever Noah had planned that it is back on. Right? Wouldn't it be back on?
"So does this mean that our date is back on?"
I asked him. As I did I stepped towards him again.
"Well do you want our date to be back on?"
He said as he took one more step towards me. Now we are about an inch apart.
"Yeah. I want our date to go on . It's our first date. That's pretty big .Right? I'm not that big at relationships but I think that the first date is when you're suppose to decide whether the other person is worth all the time and energy."
I look at Noah and he looked back.
I don't think that I can stop thinking about kissing him. I just cant explain this feeling. All I do know is that I love him.
Noah leans forward to kiss me.I met him halfway and then we kissed.
We broke the kiss.
"I think that we should get out of here. Before someone finds out we are here and calls the cops for breaking and entering."
I said looking at the clock one last time.
"Yeah. It's really late.I don't believe that it got this late."
"So I guess this is goodnight."
I said.
"Yeah. But I will see you at 12:00 for the first half of our date."
Noah said to me.
"OK? How many parts are there?"
I asked sounding excited.
"You'll just have to wait and find out."
"Ok. Fine I will play it your way."
I said finally giving up asking questions.
"Ok.I'll walk you to your car."
I picked up my computer and my cup of coffee. Noah put his arm around my shoulder and we walked out of WOAK.