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Chapter 4

Could he…would he thoughts ran through my head, but my adrenalin was running through me too -stopped and looked back at the kids, Nudge and Angel gripping behind me, while Gazzy mindlessly rubbed at his face. And once again I was led to wonder, are we truly safe, or am I just fooling myself.

Max, leave him…for now. You have more important issues to attend to…

If you're about to mention… I mentally growled

No, the kids need you right now, after all im sure Fang just needs some boy talk with Iggy.

Iggy…HA! –loveable clown boy…no…no way….but-I guess hes the same age. I turned my face to the window as I heard the door slam and clenched them closed- tears later right now I had more important issues-

That's it Max…one step at a time-youll get there…just slowly…try it- or I'll kick this strange organ in here

That's the old voice I knew…lets get to it I opened my eyes and noticed the starry night for the seemingly the first time, Bed time- I picked up Angel in my left arm, hoisting her tired body onto my hip and smiled as Gazzy gently slipped into my hand, I managed to lift him up to and finally turned to Iggy while nudge held my hand. I smiled and I felt more then saw Iggy's comforting smile that shone back.

"Im gunna take the kids to bed…do you think you will be able to..."

"Don't worry…its all mine" He rubbed my shoulder tentatively then started for the door, he already knew were Fang was, that's why I sent him in the first place. Its not like me to just….ok you got me there but in this sort of situation…im doing it the nice way.

"Thanks Iggy" I whispered as Gazzy yawned on my shoulder then thumped painfully into it

Damn kids…I thought as a dull ache echoed up from my shoulder But there too adorable to throw away so I guess I'm gunna have to keep them….Hmm young mother….how about that. I smiled while carefully negotiating the stairs- sometimes stairs can be VERY unfriendly and decided to trip you up... ((Iggy))- When I reached the top landing I let Nudge run to her room .She looked up at me with beautiful green eyes and tugged on Angels dress. I frowned but gave her carefully over to nudge who hugged her to herself, although angel was quite a hold for her she did it well enough, I watched as she slowly disappeared into her room... I couldnt believe what I had just seen. Nudge…Angel…two different sides yet there they were. A wriggle caught my attention and I looked down to see Gazzy mumbling something, I lifted him up again before he started to drool all over me. I walked past the girl's room and listened closely for a bit, hushed voices and the sound of dressing entered my ears. After settling my nerves I continued on to the bathroom where I sat Gazzy sideways on my lap and gently rubbed of the makeup and colouring pen marks that had been strewn across his face. All the while Gazzy snoozed on my chest, distant to the emotions and fears that were rolling inside me at that certain time. When I'd finished with Gazzy I looked into his peaceful face, dark with the beginnings of a nightmare, but peaceful none the less. I smiled lightly and smoothed a piece of hair out his eyes. Oh how I'd remember these memories, I smirked when Gazzy's thumb flew to his mouth and he sucked gently on it. In truth that was normal although hed lose it soon…hopefully… but it was a way to reassure yourself at that sort of age and whom am I to stop him, though if he did it too much then I would have to talk to him about it. The things the kids had been through were probably hard to get by, just think of it as the "eraser thing" to "the bogey man" they probably think of that to, as Iggy acts as their older brother. In a way I felt thankful to him, hes done so much yet we don't praise him as much as we should do…And Fang. I sighed inwardly and gently lifted Gazzy up 

into my arms, it was easier to hold a child this way….it was easier to hold anyone this way if you were up to it. I felt Gazzy's hand grip my top and I thought a bit harshly any lower and youll be in LaLa land for a week. But I focused on pushing his, Iggy's and fangs door open , with a growl I kicked it open and it swung fast, hitting the wall loudly. I mentally cursed but I was already halfway there. I placed Gazzy on his bed and peeled of his soggy shirt, to replace it with a warm action man one we seemed to have come by, theat….thea…the brainy knowledge, theory thing- we arent actually stealing. I left eh guys to help Gazzy with his trousers, after all he was a young man but I was worried just a bit. Brushing up the covers I left room enough for him to snuggle into and then wrapped the blanket around him, placing a little teddy by his side, but he pushed it away with a frown and smiled when he gripped a wire. Boys will be boys I thought humouredly…I took in the scene in front of me and I suddenly realised something…I had just tucked in my first child…well a child. But he was close enough to call family, I stroked his head once more and biting my lip I closed the door silently behind me while Gazzy mumbled something about plans for baby bomb…whatever that was, though a certain sentence caught my attention and I halted in the doorway.

"No…No Keep the cheese away if you know what good for you…keep the cheese away…you do like her don't you…Argh I was only playing..what do you mean its just for a few days..What complications she L…L...sod it-she like likes you….Fang…Max…you what….Iggy push of" And then he turned over and all went silent. My heart cracked slightly, I closed the door and felt my breath flow with it. Could I trust a sleeping boy's speech…what did he actually say? I shook my head don't be stupid of course he loves you…he said after all.

But words can be broken as can hearts…

I know, I know I sighed solemnly but it hurts all the same…Stupid boys…Stupid Fang I cursed before I found myself inside the girls room and snapped out of my sudden low trance as a cough rumbled through the quiet room. But what worried me most was the way it sounded, deep and chesty. I skipped/ran over to Nudges bed and shushed her slightly as she coughed harshly again. God how long had she been like this…then again she had been quiet but of course I'd been wrapped up to much with Fang to notice. I gently smoothed her cheek and it felt hot so I decided to change my top quickly into a baggy "puppy love" top and then some pant sized shorts. I frowned at first unsure if they were pants or shorts…society these days, but put them on anyway. I slowly slid in beside Nudge keeping my arm wrapped around her so she knew and felt secure. She wriggled backwards and I whispered an apology but she must have been asleep because there was no response. I found my eyes slowly drawn to the shining moon outside, stars twinkled of and on but never disappeared from sight.

"I like the middle one" a small croaky voice spoke out through the dark and I looked down to see Nudge looking out to the starry night like me. But she was holding back tears.

"I always believed that the bigger and brighter stars were your guardian angels, and the little ones were…Angels. But when it was cloudy or there were no stars it was because they were by you, around you or someone close to you…"

"Yeah…me to Nudge"

"Max"

"Yeah…"

"Is Ari up there…is he looking over us with our mama and daddy's" she looked up at me with big sad eyes. I stuttered slightly but regained my posture soon enough.

"Y...yes he is" I grabbed her hand lightly and pretended to do random movements with them, like someone flying. "And now he can fly so much more easily without those disgusting wings holding him down" we swooped high and low talking about her mum and dad then she came out with…

"Or his doggy breathe" she giggled until a cough stopped her for a few minutes.

"Yeah that too" I frowned concerned. There was a brief silence in which I had to nibble my lip to stop myself from crying, I could feel her hand gently smoothing mine and I did the same to her but on her stomach.

"Max…"a small voice whispered.



"Yes sweetie"

"Y…you're my guardian angel" My heart was in my mouth, I couldn't breathe I couldn't think, I felt my cheeks flame pink but I felt so happy inside. I held her tightly to me and nuzzled into her hair slightly…

"…Thanks…that means a lot….And Nudge"

"Yeah…"

"You're my special guardian Angel" I kissed her warm forehead, stroking her hair with my right hand."Don't you ever forget that" And I felt her grin widely, happily she snuggled back into me and closed her eyes. I don't know what time she fell asleep but soon I could hear her deep rythmatic breathing coming from as well as a slight chest growl. And all the way through my mind reeled, how could she think of me as an angel…A guardian Angel when I couldn't even focus properly? How did kids know what strings to pull when your heart already felt like 2 missing halves. Pouting I fell into a dreamless sleep where everything was fuzzy and it felt like someone was bashing a brick on my head repeatedly. I briefly wondered if I had been drinking perhaps, but then my dreams gave way and I was a flying Angel, with Nudge by my side…Sweeping, Swooping and Soaring…..

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