A/N: OK, I want to say, first and foremost, That I'm a Jommy shipper and I love drama. I do have plans for this fic, so bare with me for awhile. I don't think this will lighten the blow from the last chapter…but…well, it needs to happen this way. You'll see how it'll play out. Just have faith in my plot. That's all I wanted to say about that. Next, I love this chapter. I am so proud of how it turned out. I was writing it in a notebook and one section…it just didn't work. And I let myself go…just get in the zone and let it all come out. This chapter…I'm proud of. It wasn't suppose to play out this way, but it did and I'm glad it did. Anyway, I hope you enjoy it. This is prebetaed, no proofreading, so mistakes are mine.

Chapter 3

I sat by the phone all night, willing it to ring and Tommy's voice being on the other end. I wanted him to call more than ever before. I wanted to hear his voice, needed to hear his voice. I needed to hear that he loved me. But as much as I willed that phone to ring…as much as I WANTED, NEEDED, it to, the phone remained silent the rest of the night.

I don't know when I fell asleep, but I woke when I heard the door open. I leaped up from the couch, hoping it was going to be Tommy, but my hopes were soon diminished. My heart fell as Sadie, Kwest, and Briana walked through that door. For the first time, I wasn't happy to see my own daughter.

"Mommy!" Briana yelled, and I tried not to let my disappointment show as I hugged my daughter a welcome.

"Hi Bri," I greeted, trying not to sniff. "Did you have fun with Auntie Sadie and Uncle Kwest?" I asked her and her little head bobbed up and down with enthusiasm.

"Uh-hu! Auntie Sadie and I went SHOPPING!" I shot my sister a glare and she shrugged. "A-and then, Uncle Kwest watched Cindiwella with meee!" She squealed out, looking as happy as ever.

I smiled sadly and looked over at Sadie when I heard her call my name.

"Jude?"

"Hey, Bri!" Kwest said, getting her attention. Her little head whipped around and looked at her uncle. "Why don't you show me your room." He offered, and Briana gasped in happiness as she grabbed Kwest's hand and practically pulled him up the stairs, talking happily as she did so and I couldn't help but smile at my daughter's happiness.

"Jude, what's wrong?" Sadie asked, coming over and looking at my critically. I looked into my sister's eyes and I thought back to last night. To how happy I was and how happy I should be. I felt tears sting my eyes and Sadie looked at my sympathetically and wrapped her arms around me in a hug.

I held onto my sister and sobbed into her shoulder. Sadie tried to comfort me, but I couldn't stop thinking that I wanted my husband's arms around me and not my sisters.

"What happened sweetie?" Sadie asked softly as she smoothed my hair.

"Tommy…" I managed to choke out, but my body was so overwhelmed with emotion that I couldn't form a sentence.

"Ssssh, it's ok Sweetie." Sadie said, and I shook my head and pulled away from my sister.

"No. It's not ok." I said and Sadie opened her mouth to say something and I continued. "It'll never be ok." I told her, my voice raising slightly. I was angry. I was never a devote Christian or any other religion, but right now, I hated God. I hated fate. Why the hell was He so set on ruining my life?

"Jude-"

"NO Sadie, this can't be fixed!" I yelled, feeling angry tears fall down my face. "Nothing can fix this!" I picked up a picture on the coffee table and looked at it a moment. I saw my smiling face and…his. I felt my anger rise. "Why did you leave me!" I yelled at his frozen portrait and threw the picture at the wall opposite of me.

The glass shattered and the frame broke into pieces, and I didn't care. Sadie looked torn between comforting me and picking up the broken glass. I felt my hands slowly begin to shake. They slowly began to shake harder and it spread throughout my body. My legs went weak and I collapsed to the ground with a sob.

"No," I managed to let out, curling my fist and hitting the floor.

The house was silent except for my occasional sob. I felt Sadie next to me, and I wanted to let my big sister comfort me; protect me. But she couldn't protect me from this. This wasn't a bully on the playground she could beat up, or a test to help me study for. This was bigger than me and her. This was death and right now, I wanted to scream. I wanted to cry. I wanted to go before God and strangle the man…woman…force, whatever. I want my husband back.

"Tell me what happened, Jude." Sadie said calmly, her hand rubbing comforting circles down my back.

I took a few deep breathes to calm my frazzled nerves, but nothing I did could calm me down. Sadie took my arm and tugged me gently to my feet. I swayed slightly, my legs still weak and she walked me over to the couch. I collapsed down and curled up, trying to stop my tears but not having any success.

"Jude, Honey…" Sadie said, looking sadly at me. "You need to tell me what happened." She said, smoothing my hair and trying to comfort me.

"I…I…" I tried to say and I shook my head. I couldn't say it. I couldn't bring myself to. If I said it…then it was real. Than he was really gone and…

The phone rang and I looked over at the coffee table. Sadie took one look at me and picked up the receiver.

"Hello?"

I strained to hear what was being said on the other end of the line.

"This is her sister." There was a pause. "She is, but can I take a message? She's not in the right…" Sadie trailed off and her eyes widened. She looked over at me, understanding filling her blue eyes.

I closed my eyes, knowing exactly what the call was about.

"O-of course." Sadie said, looking like she just got the shock of her life. "Uh-hu…I'll let her know. Thank you for the call." Sadie said, managing to keep her cool.

I swallowed hard as I heard my sister click off the phone.

"Jude, oh my god. Honey, I'm so sorry." She said, taking me into her arms again. I nodded into her shoulder and felt tears sting my eyes again.

I heard someone come down the stairs and I pulled back to see Kwest and Briana.

"Mommy, why are you crying?" Briana asked, looking sadly at me. I sniffed and wiped my tears.

"I'm just sad, sweety." I told her wondering how on Earth I was going to break this to my daughter. That her Daddy probably wasn't going to come home…ever.

"Sadie, what's going on?" Kwest asked, looking back and forth between Sadie and myself. Briana waddled over to the couch and climbed up and sat down on my lap. She wrapped her arms around my neck and hugged me.

"Don't be sad Mommy!" She said, sounding sad herself. Sadie looked at me and then at Kwest.

"Jude, I'll be right back." She said, taking Kwest's hand and leading him from the room. I could hear them murmuring in the next room and I wanted nothing more than to be gone. To just get away and pretend like this wasn't happening. It wasn't suppose to happen. When I made my vows, To Death was suppose to be decades away. We were suppose to grow old together and he was suppose to be here to give his daughter away at her wedding.

Death wasn't suppose to happen three years later.