Chapter 9

Frosted memories

…I love you Fang, and I'll never forget you…

…no matter what…

….And the rain came down….

Weeeelllll, no one wants me to carry on sooo, I'll be annoying and carry on…heh. Though reviews are loved and I will always reply unless for some reason Im being held at gunpoint then it will be…difficult. Well shall we carry on…Hmmm where were we?

Lights shifted, and then bounced into different shapes …Dont leaves me… Blue swirls crossed my vision in a swirling movement and white sparkled briefly in a blinding way …Forever and ever… A red mist and Dark eyes…A red mist and dark eyes, and now nothing more, I was alone…all alone. Because of my foolishness my family had been torn from me…Ill never forget you… my sanity ruined and my love…out the frickin window…I love you…Images flashed before my closed eyes. Nothing made sense; it was as if my mind was being blown away like a broken leaf in the wind. A dark haired boy appeared in the images and my heart gave jolt…he was so close yet…yet. I gasped and my eyes flew open, coughing I sprouted up what felt like half the worlds ocean and laid back on what felt like a pillow. Where am I thoughts swirled agonisingly slowly around my ticking brain and I failed to realise that I wasnt able to move my arms until I tried to wipe my mouth. Blinking gently I looked around, everything looked normal, but my arms were pinned down for some reason…perhaps …perhaps it was just a dream, or am I dreaming a dream of a dream…cut it out your confusing yourself…A peculiar feeling overcame my body and I had to clench my eyes tight shut from fear of throwing up again, but the strange feeling had gone with a memory to, like water down a drain. A little boy with a cheesy grin…and wings, he must be an angel…he laws looking at me and grinning, his arms spread out for a muddy hug as he had just been rolling around in the mud…But what was his name…his name…Gazzy…it went….The mud disappeared and the scene flickered and died. I cried out trying to hold the special boy to me, but his smile flickered and then he blinked out of existence, along with his…his name. What the hell is happening to me…I whimpered and struggled to lift my arm out of its hold, but I had no strength, for some reason whatever was sucking away my memories was also sapping my strength. It was as if everything of my being was being dragged out of me and all I would be left with would be a broken and hollow shell, perfect for the uselessness it acquires. God what am I doing here…I want to go home…wherever that might be…it must be better than here…at least.

"Oh, so you awake…" a slightly deep voice resounded from the corner of the room; I turned my head slowly to the right, waiting to see a monster or a guy with a gun pointed at my head…a boy? He stared at me with what looked like sympathy but a smug grin stretched across his childish features. He seemed ahead of himself, but he looked strangely familiar, but nothing seemed to work no matter how hard I tried to think. I stared back confused, and blinked innocently twice, when I looked into his eyes again though a sudden shout took up in my mind …Get lost you twat…. …How dare you…

….Nooo….

…a quiet sobbing…

…a trickle of dirty water….

Then nothing…I blinked rapidly and he stared at me as if I had gone mad.

"What's wrong, cat got your birdy tongue" The boy sneered and I frowned. Either he was dumb or he was just crap at making insults. I frowned and looked the other way, thinking of a response. A clever remark made me open my mouth but instead of words, air spilled out. My eyes widened in horror and I wrenched my arm upwards, this time it did come free, just as a memory of a girl named Angel disappeared into a forgotten dream. I grasped my throat and winced as I felt pain flare from some sort or wound, I couldnt swallow either…however hard I tried It just sounded like a grunting dog…dog?...But before I could take another breath a small hand gripped my arm and pushed it back 

down, I wriggled vainly but there was no hope. Fresh water sprang from my eyes, what where they doing to me…i…I can't even remember my name…w…who…what am I even doing…why cant they just STOP! The boy staggered back as I the tears spilled down my cheeks, why was I even bothering to…to…cry, my…why…Frustrated I kicked out but that just caused him to snap out of his trance and pounce upon me. I froze, his lean body pressed against mine didnt feel, seem right. Something inside me, the old me hated this but…but I was comfortable, he was warm and I had just begun to realise how cold I was. I could feel his breathe against my cheek and closed my eyed, crushing them tight shut. My mind shouted twisted and forgotten things that would be drowned out suddenly by the drain of my memories. We both seemed frozen like that, time seemed to stretch for years and years until I felt his body relax, his muscles were still taught and restricting me from much movement, but now I could breathe a fraction easier. Names…ages…words unspoken taunted me through closed eyes, and I questioned my sanity. I jumped slightly as I felt a feather like touch against my head; it felt so wrong yet so right. And the decision tore me in two but I couldnt, wasnt able to resist. I felt strong arms suddenly grip my shoulders and raise me up little, I moaned quietly then I a small voice echoed into my ear.

"Im sorry Max, Maximum but we had to do it…just don't try to escape…ok" His gentle voice accompanied a gentle trace of fingers as they tore away my restraints and I gasped as he pulled something that seemed to of been attached to the inside of my arm…Drugs…Hopelessness ascended me and I felt a wet tear streak down and onto my cracked lips. I felt his arms envelope themselves around me and whoosh of air as he nestled his head onto mine while twisting me comfortably onto my side. I twisted gently, to see if I could get out of his grasp, but he just gripped a little tighter and pulled me closer to his warm chest. I clenched my eyes tight shut as another memory overcame me.

A laughing girl stood over the boy who was now holding me to him; her brownish blonde hair fluttering in a sudden breeze, a smile ghosted her lips as she made a frantic movement with her hand then punched out. He fell to the floor, unmoving and limp…but not dead. So this was who she was…someone who hurt other people…uncaring and evilly twisted. Suddenly uncomfortable I open my mouth once again and a cool wetness dribbled in. My heart skipped a beat; even though part of my memory was gone I knew enough to know that that tear…was blood.