A/N: Ok before I go and explain why this chapter took so long to get out I want to thank szym, heyitscalla, itachi'smybiotch, tigerwhisper, and Brittany2008 for reviewing. I also want to thank those of you reading.

Ok heres the thing. I have been brain dead when it came to this story. I had no idea where I was going with this and for a little while I was thinking of leaving it at that. But I felt that it would be rude to do that to my readers. So I bit the bullet and started typing about a three days ago. I changed the chapter like fifteen times before I settled on this one. Its a very emotional chapter but I hate you all like it. Please review!

Disclaimer: I own nothing but Jessica, Bella, and the plot.

Rediscovering Love

Chapter 1- Reminiscing

Two years later... Jessica's POV

I stood outside my old home. It looked the same. The vines grew up the side out the house, the rose garden looked neat and clean. My brother stood at his window like always as well. His smile was off the charts. I smiled back juggling a very hyper one and a half year old baby. This was my baby. My Bella. Well Isabella anyway.

She was the light of my life. Her hair was dark and rich, brown like her fathers with countless red highlight matching the hue of my hair. Her eyes were her fathers as well, dark brown and soul capturing. And even at one and a half she had everyone she met wrapped around her sweet little fingers. Her teenage years were going to be fun. I smiled as she giggled and I headed to the car calling to the large ass mammoth of a dog that we called Annabell. She was a pure white husky and had cost me a fortune to buy but I wanted her so I was willing to pay.

I saw Tyler met me at the front stairs a bright smile plastered on his beautiful face. His eyes were the same blue I remembered and his hair was a mess like he had just waken up. I smiled wider. But what got me was how much he had changed physically. He looked like a man now and not some stupid teenage brat I left two years ago. It may have just been the fact that he was coming out of the house wearing only sweat pants that made me come to this conclusion. "You going to give your sister a hug or what?" I asked with a laugh.

"Hell yeah." He said and came at me care of the baby. Tyler knew about Isabella as did her father and the other sons. Hell the whole fucking town knows who's it is. That would include my brother. I felt a tear slip from my eye as he held me. It had been to long and I never realized how much I truly missed my family. I loved them with all my heart and I left them. But I had to.

"So how are you?" Tyler asked taking Bella from me. He had seen her once after she was born but he hadn't seen her since. I smiled as I watched him hold her with ease as if it came naturally.

"I'm good. I would like to know Tyler Simms how is it that you know how to hold a baby?" I laughed and he grinned.

"I don't know Jess. It just came to me." He said with a laugh and my little girl giggled. What we didn't expect was for her to hit him over the head. I heard the smack and closed my mouth before I laughed.

"Isabella. You know better then to hit." I chided. She smiled a toothy grin. She said something that sounded like sorry but with her I couldn't be sure. "So how are you Ty? Any girlfriends?" I asked as I picked up my suitcase, Bella's bag and her diaper bag as well. The rest was in the trunk of my Mustang.

"I'm perfect. And yes I'm seeing some one. Her names Amber." He stated know that I was going to ask. I knew he wasn't lying like the last time I asked him this question because he had a bright smile on his face when he said her name. I smiled.

"Thats good Ty. How is everyone else?" I asked as we headed upstairs and to my old room. I noticed that there was not crib set up. "I thought I asked mom to put a crib in here for Bella?" I spoke to no one in particular.

"Yeah mom set up a crib in the room next door. I mean Bella here is one and a half. Mom figured she was old enough to have a room of her own." He said as he sat the girl on the bed. He sat next to her and she began pulling at the blue and green coverlet.

"Oh well I guess thats alright. I mean I've never had her in her own room before." I said a little uncertain. Tyler knew what I had been through the last six months and knew why I hadn't been able to come home or call. It had been hard on me but I made it and here I was, home finally. I sighed. I walked around the bed and laid out on the other side. Tyler sat playing with Isabella as I laid there with my eyes close.

How many times had I sat here and thought of the future. A future with Caleb, a future where I was a high paid lawyer with two kids and a dog once I was thirty. I guess I got the dog and one of the kids before I was even a legal adult. But I didn't have Caleb, at least not now. I hadn't spoken to him in six months because of stuff that had been going one in my life. I knew he was seeing some stupid blonde bimbo, that much I had gotten out of Reid the other night on the phone will I was at some hotel. He had moved on. I guess I deserved this. But just because he moved on would not mean that I was going to deprive my daughter of having a father.

I sighed again still thinking back when I was younger. I remembered this room. I remember Tyler sneaking in here in the middle of the night to watch horror movies when mom and dad were sleeping. I remember comforting him when mom and dad fought or when a nasty storm blew through. I remember playing bored games and card games. I remembered the time we play strip poker, me Caleb, Pogue, Tyler, Reid, and Kate, before I found out I was pregnant. That time was fun. Tyler actually hit Reid for grabbing my barely clothed ass when I had to take my pants off. That started world war three between Reid, Tyler, and Caleb. It was funny as hell. Me and Kate were rolling on the floor in nothing but tank top, bra, and underwear. And if I recalled correct that was the night Bella was made as well. So much fun in one room, along with so much pain and suffering and sadness.

I sighed for the third time and rolled over to watch my brother with Bella. It seemed so natural for him to be playing with her. Its like he had been with her they day she was born. I wished Caleb was here to see this. Hell I wished he was here to see me and Bella. Or just Bella. I had a feeling I would break down in tears if I saw him. I still loved him even if he didn't love me.

I turned away from Ty and my daughter and looked to the three pictures that sat on the night stand collecting dust. I picked up the first one and smiled. It was of me and Ty when I first moved to Ipswich. I was eleven years old then as was my brother. My hair was darker and I was shorter and I looked so childish. But then again seven years and a baby would do that to a girl. Tyler looked like such a kid as well. His hair was longer and messy and he was tan. It was summer when we took this picture and we both had had sunburns days earlier. It was taken at the pool at our house.

I sat the picture down and lifted up the second one that was housed in a wooden frame. It was of all of us when we were fifteen. I still looked young but my hair had lightened in the two year time lapse. Tyler's hair was still a mess like he lost a fight with our lawn mower but he had grown into his body. He had a large smile plastered on his face with his arm around my shoulder. Pogue looked like a heart throb but he always had. His hair was long and in his eyes. His blue eyes shinned with laughter and his arms were around a very young Kate. Kate had moved to Ipswich a few months earlier and they had just started dating. Reid was his usual self. His blonde hair was short but very nice. His eyes had that twinkle that let you know he was thinking very naughty thoughts about the girl next to him. That had happened to be Kate. He never stood a chance with her. Caleb stood next to me his chin on my my head and his brown eyes sparkling with laughter. His brown hair was messy like Ty's and his charming smile lit his face. He had his arms around my waist. I remembered that. The park was behind us. We were dating then as well. I missed those days.

The last picture was of me and Caleb. We were sixteen and this was taken a months before I got pregnant. Five months before I left. My hair was long and twisted into a messy bun. My green eyes glittered with an unspoken joke. I couldn't remember what it was but I knew it was funny. I had a smile on my face. I hadn't looked like that since I left. I looked over Caleb in the picture. He looked happy. His brown eyes had the same glint that mine had and his smile was sweeter then any I had ever seen. It was snowing in this picture and his hair was dusted in flakes like mine was. His car was in the background as was the woods. I remembered I had taken this picture when we were headed to the lake to go ice skating. That day had been perfect. I felt tears threaten to spill from my eyes. I set the picture down wiping the tears from my eyes.

I rolled back over and saw Tyler putting pillows around Bella. The poor girl had fallen asleep and my brother was taking care of her. I smiled and the tears came back. I looked to my sleeping baby and noticed just how much she looked like my Caleb. Well he wasn't mine anymore. He belonged to someone else. Tyler turned to face me. "Whats wrong?" He stood up and came around the other side. He pushed my back telling me to scoot over and I did. I moved closer to Bella and pushed a lock of her brownish red hair away from her face. I smiled but the tears trickled down my face.

I felt my brother's strong arms encircle me and my tears came harder. Tyler had always held me when I broke down. There was nothing sexual though any passer by would question us. I felt another sob shack my shoulders and I tried to hold it back. "Let it go Jess. Its only you and me here." Tyler soothed.

I let in and the tears and sobs came freely. We didn't talk, he didn't say anything to sooth me. He just let me cry. It was the best thing for me as we had both learned over the years. I cried for my loss of innocence, I cried for the loss of my lover, I cried for the loss of my mother and family that I had left behind. I cried for myself and my daughter. I cried just because I needed to. These tears had been pent up for the last six months and I never let them out fearing I would scare my daughter. I didn't want her to see me weak. I was the rock in her life. I was the one she need most. I was the one that had to be there for her. I was her mother.

I heard noise at my door and lifted my head. I saw a blonde haired blue eyed guy standing there. He had a sad smile on his face and I recognized the gloved that he wore. I tried to smile but found tears flow harder. Reid Garwin just stood there for a moment before coming to me. Tyler moved and way and leaned into whisper something Reid. "Don't get any ideas."

"I wouldn't think of it." Reid answered as I rolled to face him. He sat next to me at first and I looked up to him trying once more to smile.

"Jess I'm taking Bella to her room. You need sometime alone. I'll watch her." Tyler said leaving the room without waiting for my answer.

"Hi Jess." Reid said in a soft voice. His eyes were soft, never had I before seen that look in his eyes. It made me smiled.

"Hey yourself." I said shakily. His smile was still sad but more bright. I wiped a tear from my cheek and sat up. I leaned my head on his shoulder.

"Your daughter is adorable." Reid stated. I never knew that he liked children. This made me smile but I still felt sad.

"I know Isabella is my life." I felt a tear fall again realizing that it shouldn't have just been Isabella. It should have been Caleb and her that were my life but that was never to be. Me and Caleb would never be because my life had been royally fucked up six months ago. I began to cry again and Reid just shifted so that he held me. I gripped his shirt as my tears soaked his shirt. "I fucked up Reid. I really did." I sobbed.

"You didn't do anything wrong baby girl." Reid said. He didn't know what I was talking about.

I took pity on him and started my story. "Reid I really did. My mom died six months ago."

"And?" He pushed on.

"My mother had married a man a year before she was diagnosed with cancer. I never met the man until I moved home. I found that this guy was a jackass and bastard. He beat my mother even though she was sick and dieing. I learned from my mother's lawyer that he had changed her will. That was a week before she died. Reid. Ok my mother was loaded. I tried my damnedest to change the will back to what it had been before. But it was to late. My mother had already slipped into a coma and she would never wake up. I fought tooth and nail in court and lost everything three months later. I literally lost everything Reid. My mother's money went to her ass of a husband and none went to me or my baby. For the next three months I worked to earn the money to get us home. I lost my phone right before court and I didn't have the money to get a new one to contact you all. I was a mess. I juggled two jobs and a baby. I took night classes as well to keep up with schooling. Thats why I get to be a senior here. My dad is paying for me. Thats why I couldn't call or anything. The only thing I got to keep was my car because my dad bought it for me before I left. I had nothing Reid but the clothing I left with and Bella's stuff." I said and felt a sob start in my throat.

"Why didn't you call Caleb or Pogue or even baby boy last night? Why me?" Reid asked rubbing my shoulder.

"I don't know. Maybe because I sensed that Caleb had moved on, or I was scared. I figured Pogue was with Kate and I knew Ty didn't need to have this put on his shoulders. You were the best choice. You are my best friend Reid though you are a pervert." I said and rubbed my face against his chest. He laughed.

"I know Jess. But you need to talk to Caleb. He thought you forgot about him. And then Sarah came. She was a sweet girl when she first got her but now shes a bitch. Maybe you can win him back." Reid prompted. I shook my head against his chest.

"I can't do that Reid." I said and looked up at him.

"I know you can." I heard my brother's voice from the door. I smiled seeing him holding the collar of my dog. "Is this yours?" He questioned changing the subject and mentioning to the large white dog.

"Yea. Thats Annabell." I patted the bed and the god bound out of Ty's grasp and jumped on the bed. Reid jumped ten feet in the hair when the dog came to me. She gave me a lick on the cheek and barked causing Reid to fall off the bed this time. "Reid its just a dog." I said with a laugh.

"Yeah a big one. What the hell kind is it?" He asked getting off the floor and getting back on the bed. He eyed the dog like it was going to attack him. I giggled.

"Shes a wolf hybrid. She's crossed with Husky and an albino wolf. So we call her a white husky." I said. The conversation continued. For a few fleeting hours I forgot about my dilemma and all about Caleb as our talk droned on. I remembered when both boys left my room. I walked out and down to my daughter's room. She was still sleeping and I sighed. I walked to the crib and ran a finger over her soft cheek. I pulled the blanket over her and ran my hand through her hair. She was my baby. Mine and Caleb's. That was reason enough for me to fight for what I wanted. I was going to do what Reid said. I was going to try to win the love of my life back.