'Oh god it hurts, it hurts so much.' I thought, my hands wrapped around my shoulders. I hurt the one person who cared deeply about me, who I became almost friends with.
"I am so sorry Len, I really am. But I can't be with you, I can't give what you want." I whispered to the sky, it was near dusk. The sun was soon going down, orange and red colored the sky. I had ran all day till I got to the lake where I could be alone. Away from everyone, away from Len.
I lowered my head into my arms, wanting to just forget about what I did, I really did love Zeke dispite that he is evil and wants to kill off my kind. But he is the only one I really love and understand, but Len...he has a past that makes me want to hold him forever and help him to care for people again. But I just can't do that, to be close to him is like being close to a flame that will in the end burn you. Len has a passion about him that frightens me and yet pulls me in.
"Oh Len, why did I ever let you in?" I asked myself, looking down at the sand. "I care about you, but my heart belongs to him, he is the only one who understands and if I hurt him he will never trust me again."
Tears fell from my eyes, I wiped them away but they countine to fall. I was hurt and I hated it. All the times I pushed people away so I wouldn't be hurt cause you end up losing them, I get hurt myself anyway. I lost to many people, too may friends who hurt me, just too many.
'But you shouldn't cry, for you might have him in the end. Remember Zeke dies and there is no way you can stop it, its fate.' said my inner self, who smiled at me.
"Yeah but I am with him right now, I care alot about him and he needs someone to love him, to be there for him. I am that someone, dispite that I am human I care too much to lose him." I told her, standing up and go over to the water of the lake.
'Yeah but ya know, you kinda got sucked into the tv, which means you might get Sucked right back OUT! Don't do anything that you will regret later, like oh I don't know SLEEP WITH HIM!' she yelled at me, hitting myself within me. I just smiled.
"Don't worry I won't, but have you seen his body? HELLO! No one could live that long without having some fun ya know." I told her, grinning.
'Oh for all that is HOLY!' she cried flinging her hands up.
"Which isn't much." I finish for her.
She blinked at me, then laughed."Haha your right, there isn't much that is holy in this world.' she shook her head.
I smiled."Don't worry I won't do that, I promise. I rather be a Sucbbui and be with Sesshoumaru for the rest of my life then do that." I told her.
'HEY! Sesshoumaru is good-looking, a little too good-looking but oh well. But were getting off topic here, just don't do anything that you will regret later and try Thomasina to settle things with Len, he deserves that much.' she told me than became quiet.
I smiled and stared down at the lake, seeing myself looking back up at me I kicked the water making the frigure dissapper and become wavy. Than looked back up at the Great Spirits.
"Don't worry I won't." I whispered to myself and to the wind.
Then all of a sudden I felt arms coming around my shoulders and pull me agaisnt whoever it was to thier chest. Thier breath agaisnt my skin and lips along my neck. I froze and elbowed whoever it was in the gut and turned around to give a hit to the face when I saw who it was. Zeke!
"Oh by the GODS! DON'T DO THAT!" I yelled at him, hitting him across the face anyway. "I don't like being sneaked up upon!"
Zeke rubbed his face, looking at her he grabbed her wrist and pulled her to him, his other arm going around her waist. He lowered his head and kissed her full on the mouth. I wanted to kick him in the nuts but decide not to and just kiss him back.
The kiss ended, I looked up at him."You know if you hadn't done that you be on the ground right now in pain." I told reaching up and touching his face with my right hand, brushing his cheek with my thumb.
"Than I am glad that I did." Zeke said smiling. "What are you doing here? I haven't seen you since this afternoon."
My smile dissappered, I looked away from him. "I had to think on some things, I just wanted to be alone that is all. No harm in being alone." I told him.
He looked at her for a few moments, realising that she wasn't going to tell him what was on her mind he decide to drop it. Taking her hand he led her away from the lake and took her back to thier camp.
I followed without saying a word, I didn't even think. Zeke cannot find out what had happened between Len and me. He would either hate me forever or kill Len.
And that would surely kill me too.