EPOV
I ran non-stop to the airport. As I ran by the information screens, I saw how a plane was leaving for Seattle in five minutes. There was no time for me to buy a ticket. I searched for where the plane was, and then I found it. Just as the door to the luggage was closing, I climbed in.
The plane was not gong along at an extremly slow speed. I probably could've run faster than it. But, considering that I couldn't fly, the plane would get me closer to my Bella sooner than I could running .
My Bella. Surely she would take me back? Unless...she had moved on, as I meant for her too.
Bella, always behind my eyes, smiled at me.
If she had moved on, I would be all right with it. At least I would lead her to think that. Though, true enough, I probably could make it so that I could see that she was fine without her actually seeing me. NO! Every muscle in my body, every cell, screamed the word. I wouldn't be able to do that.
Just her scent, her face, her smile, would make my legs walk up to her. I wouldn't be able to stop myself from talking to her. Wishing her well.
What am I saying? I couldn't just go on, as if it had never happened. As if we were just friends, not soulmates. As is she were my biology partener, not the girl that I had given everything to. I had told her everything. She trusted me, even being the monster that I was. She had even loved me.
I led her to trust me and I just ruined it, just like that. I, particularly, would never be able to love again, for as long as I...existed. I did really hope that she fared better than me. I had been unbearable for my family these past monthes. They had become so polite, acting as if we were only acquaintances. I couldn't blame them of course, I had been unaprochable. I wouldn't come out of my new room, at our new house. I even moved the piano there so that I could play Bella's lullaby. I finally had to let them free of their unsaid obligation to take care of me. I was ruining their, well, all except Rosalie's, life. The must of gotten better after I left.
I had to assist them by doing what they would not say. I had gotten away from them, and then I was off to brood by myself. I had barely done anything for monthes. I hadn't hunted in so long, and that was going to be a problem in the hospital, near so much blood. I'd be fine around Bella though, but what if she was...
BAM! I was thrust up in the luggage area, thrown by the turbulence.
My thought organized themselves again. I'd be able to control myself around Bella not matter how thirsty I was. And if it meant seeing Bella, I'd be all right in the hospital if I really concentrated.
I closed my eyes and leaned back on someone's luggage. I was going to see Bella.
Hold on Bella, I'm coming.