Date : 20.08.2007
Title : Loves' Past and Present
Author : ElaineDex
Chapter : 6 of ?
Rating : M
Pairings : Lt. Col. John Sheppard/Lyssa Hunter
Major Evan Lorne/Dr Ellie Harrison
Warnings : Angst/hurt.
Spoilers : This story is part of a series and follows on from Love's Dance With A Stranger.
Feedback : Yes
Disclaimer : Dr Ellie Harrison, Major James Reece, Lt Franks & Heather Russell are mine. Lyssa Hunter belongs to Kazavid. Stargate & Stargate Atlantis, unfortunately, have nothing to do with me.
Summary : Find out how Sheppard and Lyssa's wedding plans cause chaos on Atlantis and what happens when tragedy strikes for Ellie and Lorne?
Ellie stared at Lorne from across the briefing room table as he finished announcing to his team that he was leaving for Earth at the end of the week and that they would be getting a new team leader.
Lyssa and Franks glanced at one another as tension seemed to crackle between Ellie and Lorne.
"Well that's a shame Sir, it's been great being on your team….I'm sure things won't be the same around here without you", Franks said and Lorne nodded.
"Thanks", he said, his eyes glued to Ellie who seemed to have developed a fascination with the note pad on the table in front of her.
After a moment or two Lorne said,
"Uh, guys, could you give us a minute?"
Lyssa and Franks nodded and left the room, closing the doors behind them.
The silence in the room deafened them for a moment or two before Ellie stated,
"You're leaving".
"Yes", Lorne replied, praying she'd ask him to stay.
He watched as she stood and tucked the note pad under her arm.
"You didn't feel you could tell me first before announcing it to everyone?", Ellie said calmly….too calmly.
"You haven't exactly been talking to me have you", Lorne said and she looked away.
"Ellie….", Lorne tried but she shook her head and turned to leave.
"I hope everything goes well for you", she said as she left, leaving Lorne feeling angry, hurt and frustrated.
OOoOO
"I can't believe it! They're gone, again!", Sheppard cursed as he, Rodney, Ronon, Teyla and Heather got back to the rendezvous point to find the people they had been going to trade with had left.
"This is ridiculous", he said rounding on Heather who returned his glare.
"We have lost too many trades because we have to go back to Atlantis to get you but this is the last time I can promise you that", and he stormed past her to head back to the jumper.
Heather smiled.
Before she had heard Lorne's news she would have been worried but if they sent her back to Earth now they would play right into her hands and she could go back to the SGC with her ex.
Back on Atlantis Sheppard made sure Weir put the call in to the SGC and Heather was put on the list of people leaving on the Daedalus for Earth at the end of the week.
Heather took the first opportunity she could to run into Ellie, accidentally on purpose of course and share the news with her.
"I thought you'd like to know I'm leaving with Evan at the end of the week", she said as she stood behind Ellie in the queue for coffee in the mess hall.
"You mean you're on the Daedalus with Evan, your not leaving with him", Ellie replied but Heather smiled at her cruelly.
"I think you misunderstand Ellie. When Evan and I get back to Earth we're going to start afresh, we'll probably get married, maybe have a couple of kids…….Evan's mother always wanted us to have kids……", Heather trailed off as Ellie paled.
She pushed past Heather and left the mess hall.
She didn't know which emotion to feel first, hurt, anger or jealousy. Still, if Heather was the one that made Lorne happy then he was welcome to her.
OOoOO
"What was Lorne going to do? Now that he's leaving can I not do what he was going to do?", Rodney asked as he walked along with Sheppard and Lyssa and they glanced at one another.
"Well I'm kinda hoping Lorne is going to be back for the wedding Rodney so I'd like to leave his task open for now", Sheppard said and Lyssa nodded.
"Yeah and I don't want to upset Ellie un-necessarily".
"Okay fine…..", Rodney replied walking a little quicker so that he left them behind and Lyssa caught Sheppard's arm and stopped him.
"We really should find him something to do", she said and Sheppard wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her to him.
"I know, but what? We've given all the important stuff to people already".
Lyssa sighed and nuzzled Sheppard's ear.
"Do you really think Lorne will come back to Atlantis?", she asked and it was Sheppard's turn to sigh.
"I don't know. How's Ellie doing?"
"Not too well. She's been pretty withdrawn lately and I've noticed she's spending more time with Ronon", Lyssa replied.
"You don't think they'll………?", Sheppard trailed off as Lyssa shook her head.
"No……I just think she feels safe with him".
Sheppard nibbled at Lyssa's neck and she pressed herself more firmly against him.
"We're lucky aren't we", she said and Sheppard drew back to look her at her questioningly.
"I mean, everything that we've been through and we're still together and we have Conner", she explained and Sheppard hugged her more tightly to him.
"We're very lucky", he agreed, his mouth meeting hers in a love-filled kiss.
OOoOO
It was Lorne's last night on Atlantis and now that all his things were packed up he just needed to say goodbye to people. He knew a few people were gathering in the bar and so he headed that way.
He was unsure if he wanted to see Ellie or not. He couldn't believe the way things had turned out between them.
They had been so close and now they were so far apart it was as if they had hardly known one another at all.
He entered the bar area and was immediately pulled to one side by some marines.
A while later, Ellie entered the room. She had heard the people who were leaving for earth tomorrow were having a goodbye drink tonight and she thought she might get to say goodbye to Lorne at least.
She looked around for him but saw that he was sat with some marines and that Heather wasn't too far away.
She was about to turn away when Lorne looked over and their eyes locked.
Ellie's heart banged painfully in her chest as she watched Heather move over and press a drink into his hand, forcing Lorne to break eye contact with her.
She took the opportunity to leave quickly and she fled back to her room where she paced back and forth, torn between going back to the bar and staying where she was.
When a knock sounded on her door a few minutes later she frowned and debated whether to answer it or not. She didn't really feel up to talking to anyone right now.
When the knock sounded again though she moved across the room and her eyes widened as she saw Lorne stood there, his eyes brooding as he looked at her.
"Why did you come to the bar?", he asked, his voice low and Ellie's pulse quickened as she thought she saw something flicker in his eyes.
She considered lying and then changed her mind. Why bother now?
"To say goodbye", she replied eventually.
They stared at one another for the longest moment and then Lorne moved toward her, his hands going into her hair as he pressed his mouth down over hers.
Ellie moaned into his mouth as her hands moved around his sides and onto his back and she pressed herself against him as the door to her room slid shut.
Lorne knew that they should talk, that making love was probably the wrong thing to do, but, since Ellie didn't seem to like talking to him anymore and this was the only thing that would mean he could be close to her again, he'd take his chances.
"I want you", he said, his voice hoarse with emotion as he waited for her response.
Ellie's breasts tingled and heat curled in the pit of her stomach at his words and in answer to his silent question she reached for the buttons on his shirt, her fingers aching to touch the smooth skin of his chest.
It was all the confirmation Lorne needed and he groaned and wrapped an arm around her waist, backing her toward the bed.
Their hands were everywhere as they undressed one another and when Lorne finally pushed her gently down onto the mattress, Ellie was more than ready for him to enter her but something held him back.
If this was to be his last time with Ellie, he wanted her to remember every moment of it, every detail of what he did to her.
She reached for his shoulders but he moved down her body, his mouth kissing each rose tipped breast before making it's way down her abdomen and he tenderly kissed the spot where their baby had once lain.
Ellie closed her eyes as he pushed her thighs apart and he pressed his mouth to her damp core. She plunged her hands into his hair and gasped loudly as his tongue flicked in and out of her and suddenly her orgasm hit her like a bolt out of the blue.
Evan moved back up her body and smiled briefly at the wondrous look that was on her face as she stared at him.
"Are you alright?", he asked and she nodded.
He bent and kissed her neck and Ellie arched upwards against him, her legs parting for him but just as she felt his tip at her entrance she seemed to freeze and Lorne looked down at her.
"Evan………we need to, to use something……I don't want, I mean I can't get pregnant again……."
Lorne nodded, his heart plummeting at her words. Did she mean she just didn't want his children or anyone's?
Ellie reached for the beside drawer and opened it, their unused stash of condoms still sitting where he'd left them and she grabbed one and opened it.
Lorne watched her as they swapped positions and she rolled the condom down over his length, groaning as her hands caressed him.
'Just enjoy tonight' he told himself, 'You're leaving in the morning, so what if she doesn't want to have kids with you, you never have to see her again'.
'Just enjoy the sex and leave'.
But as Ellie straddled his hips and slid down his shaft, Lorne realised that it could never be 'just sex' with her.
He sat up and his arms went around her back as he took first one nipple and then the other into his mouth. Ellie's head fell back as she rose and fell upon his length and her hands gripped his shoulders as her second orgasm gripped her.
When Lorne reversed their positions and plunged into her, Ellie was still sensitised and she moaned loudly at the overwhelming feeling of having Lorne pushing so deeply in and out of her.
Ellie's moans and gasps were driving Lorne over the edge and he too groaned loudly as his body gave in to it's need to explode and he shuddered above her as he climaxed.
They lay still for a moment or two, Lorne's weight surprisingly comforting as it pushed her into the mattress and Ellie whimpered slightly as he began to move away from her.
She sighed though as she realised that he was only divesting himself of the condom and she snuggled back against him as he lay behind her, pulling the sheets up over them.
There was so much Ellie wanted to say to Lorne but she was enjoying the contented feelings she was experiencing so much that she didn't want to spoil it.
The morning would be soon enough to talk.
But when Ellie awoke the next morning, Lorne had gone and so had the Daedalus………….
End of Chapter 6