A/N: I have been asked to make my chapters longer and I will. The first chapters went by fast. So now only one chapter a day hopefully.

Chapter Five- It has to be love

Hermione snuck back into the Common Room, only to see Harry sitting on the floor in front of the fire. Hermione threw her bag on the chair and sat in front of him. Without saying anything he pulled her to him and wrapped his arms around her. She curled up in his lap and laid her head on his chest. "This potion is hard," Hermione said with a sigh.

"And Malfoy has nothing to do with it being so hard?" Harry said with a smile.

Hermione giggled. "Actually he and I made a pact the while we are alone we will at least be cordial."

Harry smiled, "Well that's nice." She felt her shift slightly and he turned her head so they were looking in each other's eyes. "Hermione…" he whispered.

She found his eyes filled with lust when he turned her to look at him. "Harry, we have a pact with Ron." She knew it was just lust, just the feeling of hopelessness that made them want each other. "We cannot do this."

Harry wasn't listening. He didn't care if it was against their pact and he didn't care if it was just the lost feeling in him that he wanted to fill. He just wanted to follow his groin instead of his head or heart. He leaned in a kissed her deeply. She melted into him and kissed him back. His hand fisted in her hair and he pulled her closer to him. His other hand ran down the side of her body and her breasts. "Hermione…" he moaned.

His words work Hermione up and she pulled away from him. "Harry, you don't love me."

"I do 'Mione," he said.

"No Harry, I mean you aren't in love with me. This isn't an attraction based on anything that you feel in your heart. We just feel hopeless and lost. I know it would be so simple if I could shut my mind off and just feel, but I can't." Hermione said with a sigh.

Harry frowned. "I know your right Hermione, but I just wish…"

She cut him off with a finger over his lips. She lightly brushed her lips against his cheek. "Harry, I love you very much. But I'm no more in love with you than you are with me. And I can't have sex for the first time with someone who isn't in love with me."

Harry nodded and pulled her back into his lap and arms. He wrapped her up in him and sighed as she laid her head on his chest. "I love you too Hermione. I'll control myself from now on."

X

Hermione walked into the potions lab three days later with conflicted thoughts swimming in her head. She and Harry had not even told Ron anything about the two midnight events that left them kissing each other. And as much as she knew that it violated the pact she couldn't bring herself to tell Ron about the kisses. It was no secret that Ron had feelings for Hermione, although she had told him time and time again that they were just friends. If he knew that she had kissed Harry; that they had purposely hidden from him, he would be hurt. And Hermione knew she couldn't do that to him. She threw her books down at the desk, not even caring to see where Malfoy was sitting, and dragged a book out. She opened it to a random page and pretended to work as she contemplated her pact with Ron and Harry some more.

"Damn it Granger, are you even awake in there?" Malfoy's fist came slamming down on her desk, causing her to jump in her chair and stand with her wand ready and pointed at him. "Calm down girl, I didn't mean to scare you that much."

Hermione lowered her wand and finally put it away. "Sorry Malfoy, did you need something?"

"Yeah, I needed a partner that wasn't lost in space. What the fuck Granger?" Malfoy said, picking up the book she was reading. "I don't think you will find much about the potion in your Ancient Runes book."

A blush crept up on Hermione's face and she sat back down on the chair. "Sorry Malfoy, I have a lot on my mind. Do we have all the research to start the potion?"

"Not yet Granger and I wouldn't even let you near the potion at the moment. What the fuck is wrong with?" Malfoy said, sitting back on his conjured couch.

Hermione frowned, "Nothing that concerns you Malfoy." Hermione said and then she felt bad for her snappy tone. "It's complicated."

"Try me Granger, I promise not to tell a soul." Malfoy said with a smirk.

"I don't trust you," Hermione said.

Malfoy smiled and patted the couch next to him. Hermione got the hint and sat next to him. "I'll tell you what Granger. I will tell you one serious, monumental secret in exchange for you tell me what the fuck is wrong with you."

Hermione smiled. "You go first and if it's good enough I will tell you."

Malfoy smirked. "I'm a spy for Dumbledore. I turned to the light after my father was sent to prison. Snape trained me to block Voldemort and to take in information without looking obvious. That's why Snape paired us together, so I would have the chance to tell one of the Golden Trio about this."

Hermione knew she was staring at him, but she was too shocked to do anything else. Finally she processed what he said. "You're serious?" He nodded. "Well, I wasn't expecting that. I guess this means I have to tell you what's going on." She sighed. "I made a pact with Ron and Harry. The pact was to be friends forever and follow three rules. One was always being honest, two was always being able to talk to one another, and three was never doing anything to hurt another." Hermione felt all her guilt rush back. "But one night a couple of days ago, Harry and I were talking by the fire and he kissed me. I stopped him and told him that this would hurt Ron and that we couldn't do it. We decided that we shouldn't tell Ron, so we broke the pact. But it happened again, this time I told him how I really felt. I knew he wasn't in love with me and I didn't want this lust to make us think we were in love. I don't want to lose my virginity to someone not in love with me."

"What makes you think he isn't?" Malfoy said.

Hermione laughed, "Because I would know."

Malfoy raised an eyebrow. "Would you now Granger," he said and then walked away and out the door.

Hermione let her eyes linger to where he just left and frowned. What the hell was that about?